Hi guys

Sorry for the short disappearance. School is busy :(

And I'm juggling 2 FF (btw the other one is also ro ...but it's a cross over with gakuen alice characters so it's in that section heehee)

just to clear something up from last chapter that i forgot to do

Gomen sorry

Sayoonara goodbye, but in the context like you're not going to see the person again, for a very long time or ever again

Steel Heart- Thanks for reviewing 3 I hope this chapter will help clear things out...or if you look at chapter 5 again..i mentioned that she found his wedding ring there along with the note. :)

Several days later

"Angel", I heard a voice calling from the front door.

"We're coming in." Another voice chimed in before footsteps can be heard inside the house.

I can hear their footsteps coming closer to me yet I did not feel the need to get up and greet them.

"Angel, how long are you going to sit there and be like that?" Kai asks me when he found me sitting on my couch staring emptily at the wall.

I can hear Jessie smacking Kai across the head telling him to shut up before turning to me. "Angel, have you eaten anything today? The soup I brought over yesterday is still on the table." Jessie said softly as she kneels down beside me as if talking to a child.

"Comon, this isn't good for you. You can't sit here and waste away like this, you'll lose those awesome curves you have." She said half-jokingly, trying in vain to lighten the dark mood. "I'll go reheat the soup for you right now." She said as she got up to go to the kitchen.

I can hear Kai sighing as he sits down on the couch next to me. Yet I still did nothing. I continued to stare off into space, lost in my own little world.

"What has he done to you?" I heard Kai softly mutter while shaking his head. It was probably not intended for me to hear yet I heard it. And it pierced through me like a knife as it reminded me of him. Or the fact that there is a lack of him, now that he's gone.

"The soup is ready," Jessie exclaims as she comes back into the room with a hot bowl of soup in her hand.

"Here, common, open up and take a bite." She said to me as she tried to feed me the soup with a spoon.

I absentmindedly opened my mouth and let her feed me the steaming hot soup. The pain from the burning hot food did not seem to register with my brain because of my depressed state. I guess that was a good thing at that point in time cause I can't stand eating anything too hot.

"At least she'll eat when we feed her." Jessie said sadly while she continued to feed me.

"We really have to think of something to get her out of this state." Kai said as he started to write a letter to someone through his communicator.

"Well how do you expect her to react? For Odin sake, her husband left her while she's gone away for her test?! He didn't even have the guts to do it when she's here." Jessie exclaims out loud.

"Shut up, stop being so loud, she can hear you, you know." Kai yells at Jessie as they started to argue.

I was tired of them yelling at each other. It was my fault that they're shouting. Everything was my fault, him leaving me, my friends fighting, it would be better if I wasn't here. I wanted them to stop shouting, but I couldn't find my voice. I turned my head away from the spoon Jessie was holding out to me thinking that it will get their attention.

"Look what you did, she stopped eating. This is all your fault." Jessie yelled at Kai as she roughly puts the unfinished bowl of soup on the table nearby.

I heard Kai sigh, "let's stop this, it's not helping her to hear us yelling at each other. Angel, please, stop doing this to yourself. It's hurting all of us too you know." He pleaded me.

I turned my head to the direction of his voice and looked into his eyes. I didn't know what to say even if I found the voice to say it. All I could do was look at him emotionlessly. I don't see the point in anything anymore.

I felt Jessie pat my head. "It's ok, everything will be all right. We'll come back to check up on you tomorrow. Please, move around a bit and eat something when I'm not here." She said before she got up taking the dishes with her and to go to the kitchen.

Kai walks over, kneels beside me and says, "We'll be back; we just got some guild matters to attend to right now. Behave while we're gone, ok?"

In response, I shifted my head back into neutral position, stared at the wall ahead of me.

I heard him sigh before he got up and left with Jessie.

I would normally feel bad for putting them through all this trouble, but right now, nothing seems to matter. As a matter of fact, I don't feel anything anymore except for this pain in my heart. It's like my heart is a pin cushion that's full of pins but unfortunately, I'm a pin cushion that can feel the pain of the pins that have been stabbed into me. I know my friends have told me that it wasn't my fault that he left. But that doesn't stop the pain. Even if it wasn't my fault, just that fact that he's gone hurts me so much.

I continued to stare off into space, with tears slowly rolling down my face, thinking of what I could have done to keep him by my side. Did I not show him that I loved him? I gave him everything I could. Was my love not enough for him? Why, why would he leave me? I just didn't understand why. These thoughts continued to spin in my head as I drowned myself deeper and deeper into sorrow.

Hope you enjoyed this

Until next time.