Since my last chapter was there to set the mood...it was sort of a little fillerish...sorry about that.

Here's the next one to make up for it. :) This will get the wheels moving again.

One evening several weeks later

"You look pathetic, Shiro Neko." A voice hissed through the darkness. Even though I could not see the person who said it, I can locate the area it came from. I turned my head towards that location and stared at the spot.

An assassin cross uncloaks in the area I was looking at staring straight back at me with his emotionless black eyes.

"Shadow" I said weakly once my brain registered who it was that decided to intrude my solitude.

"It seems like you're not totally out of it, at least you were able to recognize who I am. Anyways let's get down to business. I've been sent here to see why you haven't transcended yet. There is a mission with your name on it but the requirement is that you have to be an assassin cross. The mission starts soon so you'll need to get moving. I know you have your own guild you're devoted to but we need you on this mission."

His eyes momentarily soften up as he examines me closely before he continues, "I won't report your pathetic state back to the guild. You better hurry up and rebirth before they send someone else after you. I'll inform them you were delayed in the process of transcending. Oh by the way, before you see the Valkryie, I suggest you find the Deviruichi in Nifflheim to get the official divorce and cut off any lingering attachments. You will not be able to rebirth if you still have attachments to your current self."

The word divorce really hit me hard. I know he already physically left me, but the reality of it all still hurts a lot. Divorce would mean it's really over, that there will be no hope of turning back. However, if I don't rebirth, the assassin guild will come after me again since I'm needed for a mission. If they see the state I'm in right now, they'll probably take me back and retrain me to be emotionless again. Worst of all I'll probably have to train all over again before I'll be allowed another chance to rebirth.

Sigh, why does life have to be so difficult.

Suddenly, Shadow kneels in front of me and looks me directly into the eye. "It's time to move on, Angel. Remember your favorite saying, 'What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.'" He said as he gently cups the side of my face with his hand.

After that he disappeared into the darkness once again. His words rang in my head. "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". In my moment of weakness I seemed to forgotten my own motto, my way of living. My brain starts trying to convince my heart that those words can be applied in every situation, even this one. It's true he left me, yet I'm still alive. This pain that I feel will only make me a stronger person once I get over it.

I can feel my determination slowly coming back to me. I must get stronger, I will attain my goal.

"Thanks Shadow" I whispered as I slowly got off my couch that I have been sitting on for weeks.

Since it was my first time walking on my own for several weeks, my legs felt weak and I stumbled around a bit.

Damn, maybe I should have listen to Jessie and ate more. I'll eat up before I leave. I thought as I slowly made my way to my room.

No lingering attachments

I looked around my room; I found it bare of any signs of him. He had left nothing behind except for the ring and the note that are currently on top of my bedside drawer.

I took the ring that he left behind and put it on a chain to keep around my neck. I put the note he had left into a bowl and set it on fire.

I sat down at my desk and started to write a letter to my friends and guild mates:

Hey guys,

Sorry for all the trouble that I have caused in the last couple of weeks.

I'm going to temporary leave the guild.

There's some stuff I have to do.

Don't worry I'll be fine.

Goodbye,

Angel

With that done, I took my guild communicator out and put it on top of the letter. I'm sure they'll find it when they come looking for me tomorrow. They'll be in for quite a surprise not to find me moping around on that damn couch of mine.

I grabbed my travel bag and started packing what was necessary. I opened my top dresser drawer where all my headgears were. I looked at the collection of cute headgears I have collected over the years. I realized many of them were either given by him or brought because he thought it looked good on me. I decided not to burn them as I did the note but keep them hidden until I feel ready to wear them once more. I went through all my headgears and found a Sakkat, assassin mask and my dark blinker. I decided to put up a barrier by hiding behind my headgears. I will not let anyone get close to hurt me like that again.

Never again

This week I'll be quite busy with school (2 assignments 1 test) and chinese new years so i can't get around to writing until maybe next week.
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