Afraid
Vanessa Anne Hudgens
February 18, 2008
"Just when it's getting good
I slowly start to freeze
Just when it's feeling real I put my heart to sleep
It's the memory I can see
Then this fear comes over me
Understand that I don't mean
To push you away from me
"Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
"You got a way of easing me out of myself
I can't stay but I can't leave, I am my worst enemy
Please understand that its not you it's what I do
Just when I'm about to run I realize what I've become
"Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again
I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me
"Now I wonder what you think of me
Don't know why I break so easily
All my fears are armed surrounding me
I can't get no sleep
I keep runnin ' in circles around you
Are you the trap I wanna fall into??
"Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again
I don't know, I can't see," I sang as I was interrupted by my assistant, Lacey running towards me with a cell phone in one hand and OK! Magazine in the other.
"What, we need to stop sound check for a few minutes. Orders of Victoria Lendon. She wants the boys too." My usually timid assistant said raising her voice over the music. "She's really mad. I mean really really mad." Lacey added her eyes gazing between Joe and I. Everyone knew not to make Victoria Lendon, my manager, mad. She was a tyrant and if you crossed her she would make you wish you were never born.
"Why do we have to come?" Kevin asked literally shaking in his cowboy boots as we walked down the hall to the common lounge.
"I don't know why you and Nick need to come, but Joe is defiantly in trouble." Lacey said with her head down whispering as Kevin looked over her.
"Why am I in trouble I didn't do any thing to Victoria. She's not even our manager." Joe asked looking at me, pulling me into a half hug.
"Well, I guess we'll find out when we called Victoria back," Nick said holding the door open for me and Lacey. We settled on in the room, Nick sitting next to me then Joe on the couch. With Kevin and Lacey sharing the loveseat across from us.
"Hello Lovely. And you boys." Victoria answered us.
"Lacey's here too, Miss Victoria." I said looking down at the phone.
"Oh, well. Let's get this on with I have a lunch meet with Resse Witherspoon in thirty. Lacey show them the article and Kaila read it aloud." Victoria barked over the conference line as Lacey scrambled to re-find the article.
"'AJ, JoJo, Mandy, Chelsea, or Demi? The answer is Kaila. At least for one third of Disney's new heartthrob super group, the Jonas Brothers. On Valentine's Day front man, and middle brother Joe Jonas was seen with one of the openers of their new When You Look Me in the Eyes tour Kaila Morales after a impromptu date in Houston, Texas. It seems like Jonas was trying to Hold On to Kaila as she was sending out an S.O.S in the pouring rain on the most romantic day of the year. But it seems like his lips were all the rescue she needed. Looks like the teen stars are doing more than just crooning on this winter/spring tour. One reliable source even says, 'Joe and Kaila like each other so much. They hold hands and hug all the time. It no wonder they are exclusive now.' Well at least there are still two cute single JoBros. 'Wow! That wasn't cheesy at all. And completely reliable. Since me and Joe are totally together." Kaila said as she finished the article.
"Well, it wouldn't be wrong if you had just said yes when I asked you out, either if the times I asked you." Joe mumbled under his breath.
"Are you really bringing this up now because? I thought we went through this one of the, I don't know million times you talk about this." I spat before refocusing my attention on my agent.
"Well Nick, Kevin I just wanted you two to be aware of the situation, because I knew Kaila nor Joe would volunteer to tell you. You are dismissed." She grumbled as Nick and Kevin almost ran out of the room. "Joe you can go to, but the next time you kiss my client make sure there are no cameras around. And Kaila, be careful." Victoria added before hanging up the phone. Which was picked up by Lacey as she exited.
"So we are already late to sound check. You want to make out." Joe said with a smiug look on his face.
"Ughhhh," I yelled as I walked out the lounge slamming the door to return to my sound check.