Chapter 3
Mistakes Made
The whole time that Lottie and Jasper are watching the movies, Jasper can't help, but take glances at Lottie. He watches he dig her spoon lightly into the small tub of ice cream and raise the spoon to her lips. He couldn't help but watch her lips part slightly enough for the tip of the spoon touch her bottom lip. He couldn't help but want to kiss those lips.
Jasper lightly shook his head and looked back at the television screen. Lottie laughed to herself quietly enough only so she could hear. She had been watching Jasper, watch her out of the corner of her eye. She let a small yawn escape her mouth and she looked at the clock that was on the table next to her. It read eleven o'clock.
Her yawn did not go unseen by Jasper. "Tired?" "Just a little." Lottie says while trying to keep her eyes open. "Since I know how much you want to watch this movie, come here." Jasper motions for her to get close to him so he could hold her. Lottie doesn't complain. She casually scoots closer to Jasper and leans into his chest. He encircles his arms around her, holding her close. He takes the ice cream from her hand and sets it on the floor. Lottie looks up at him and smiles. He smiles back and lightly places a kiss on her forehead. Lottie closes her eyes at his the touch of his lips.
This time Jasper does what he has be longing for since they were reunited at the airport. He slowly leans down and lightly kisses her lips. Lottie is a little shocked, but she kisses back.
After several minutes the kiss ends and so does the movie. The two friends look at each other in surprise and try to search for the answer, as to what just happened, in each other. Nothing. Jasper quickly stands up and runs a hand through his hair.
Lottie just watches him. She knows exactly what he is thinking. "Go ahead. Say it." She says in a quiet voice. "Says what Lottie? I just kissed my best friend!" Lottie is kind of taken back by his emotion. "So." "So? So?! That's it? That's all you have to say?!" "Why are you acting like this?" "Lottie that wasn't suppose to happen. I mean, I wanted to kiss you, but I wasn't suppose to. It was a mistake." He stops as he realized what he just said. "A mistake?" Lottie looks at her hands. "I didn't mean it like that." "No, that's the thing…you did." She looks up at him with swollen, red, puffy eyes.
Lottie slowly rises from the couch. "I guess that's all I ever am to you." She rushes off to the room that she was to sleep in.
Jasper just stands there wondering what she meant. He hears Lottie slam her door and he cringes as he hears her loads frustrated and sad sighs and things being slammed on the floor and breaking against the walls. After a while everything is quiet. He sees a flash outside his window and notices that it's raining.
An hour later Lottie comes down that stairs and goes out the front door. Jasper 's first instinct is to go after her, but decides against it.
Lottie stands out in the driveway looking up at the sky, letting the rain hit her face. After a while she starts to walk to the graveyard.
A few minutes later she reaches the spot she where he mother is berried. Lottie falls to her knees and begins to cry. Her whole body begins to shake. "what did I do to deserve all of this? Why did you have to die? You promised that you would be here forever mum! I need you so bad right now. I'm starting to think that maybe I should have never came back to London and that I should have just married Michael. There's only one problem with marrying Michael. I still love Jasper mum. I'm also hiding a lot of stuff from him. There's no way that I can tell him that I'm one of the hottest singers in America. He has enough of the media following, but I guess he's going to find out in the morning, right?"
"There's no need for me to find out in the morning. I already know." Jasper's voice sounds behind her. "what are you doing here, Thompson?" "Last name usage. Okay Winston. I saw you take off. It's not safe for you to be out here." "I don't care." "But I do."
"Why do you care? I thought I was nothing but a mistake." Lottie says coldly. "Lottie you know exactly that I didn't mean that. I just didn't want to end up hurting you." "Yeah? Well what do you think you did two hours ago?"
"That's not what I meant Lottie." Jasper says in protest. "Well maybe you should explain to what you meant." Lottie says finally turning away from her mothers grave and looking up at him. The rain stops. "What I meant was…" he was cut off by a woman's voice. "Jasper! There you are. I went to your house looking for you, but you weren't there." The woman runs up to him and hugs him. She pulls back a little so she can see his face. She leans in and kisses him passionately.