Even Gods DreamAs always, glad you liked it. And I know, Yama's past is supposed to be sad. But don't worry; his light has finally appeared in his life!

JyouraKoumiUmmm... right. Okay, I didn't really understand it all… trying to read it at 2 am in the morning isn't very helpful Anyway, I promised Jyoura and Koumi would make an appearance. Though I can't promise when it will be. But I do promise!

Dragon77Thanks for reviewing. It's nice to see someone new enjoying my story. I hope you'll enjoy this!

What?!: Yes, Takeru will definitely be paired up with someone. Probably Daisuke. But if anyone else has other suggestions, that don't include Hikari, I'd be happy to hear and consider them.

Burnt Kairn: Oh! I'm so glad you liked it! It's so nice to see new people around here! Thanks for reviewing, and keep reading!

"..." Talking

'….' Thinking (Yamato)

/….\ Thinking (Taichi)

…. Thinking (Takeru)

Sights

People say it's good to talk about things that are bothering you. That you shouldn't keep it inside of yourself, and then, when it keeps piling up, it explodes into one huge outlet of emotions… Some people hide behind the excuse: "It's to difficult" or "It's to harsh for words". Many say these things. And of course, they'll probably have good reasons for it. Yet, as all the 'know-it-all' adults say: Talk about it. Talk to someone. Even if you don't know that person very well, just talk. And well… They're right. And this is exactly what Yamato Ishida did.

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Chapter 5

Confession

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Before we begin, there's something !!VERY IMPORTANT!! In the last chapter you read a piece of Yamato's history. I decided to edit it now, sorry if this confuses you in any way. But this will fit better in the story, medically and… well, it'll just fit better. So here it is. It picks up right when Yamato begins to talk:

"I-I didn't always live with my dad. When my parents divorced, Takeru insisted on living with our…mother. We were already really close, Takeru and I, so I decided to also live with my mom, not wanting to be separated from Takeru. My dad was heartbroken so we made an agreement to at least visit him every other weekend and also on every other Wednesday he took us out. This went all fine for a long time. It was after about a year or so that it all went wrong. That is… until… a vacation. It was October, and it was getting really cold outside. My mom… she drank a lot. And… she always brought home this guy… he'd give her something, a little bag with… stuff. Mostly powders or …needles. At that time I didn't really know what they were. Once, I found that little bag in her closet and I opened it. She…caught me and… she hit me… She was calling me a thief… But she didn't say what those thing were. The only thing I knew for certain was that she gave that guy almost all of her… our money. Money that was meant for…us. Things like shopping money, money for clothes… Everything, she gave it to him. We were barely able to attend school, and we always wore very filthy and worn-out clothes… Takeru always had to wear things that were too small for me, and then I'd be able to buy some second-hand clothes in a shop. The clerk knew me, and she even gave me a discount. Then, one night, right after we came home from dad, we saw that guy leaving our house. He… was counting his money. We went inside, and my mom…she was very drunk. In one hand she held that little bag and in her other hand she held a bottle… it was probably beer or maybe even something stronger. Takeru was already crying by now, terrified of our mother. Heck, I was too. But I also knew that the little bag was the source of this all. So I decided to take the bag from her. But, even though she was really drunk, she fought back. And then, when I lost my balance she swung the bottle… and she… hit me… The bottle was broken and glass was everywhere…Blood was everywhere. I lost consciousness and… Takeru had to drag me away. But, him still being so small and young… he didn't even get out of the living room. And… our mom… she caught up somehow and threw us out. She said she had enough of us. That we were the reason we had so many money problems. We had just come back from dad and we didn't know how to contact him… and so…we lived on the street for about ten days. Dad always picked us up on Saturday morning from the station when we visit him for the weekend. But when we weren't there, he called our mom. She lied to him, saying we should be on our way to station. He told me that he waited for over an hour and then went looking for us. He finally found us in some alley but… it had already happened. Because we didn't eat very much we were very weak and… My wound got infected… and not just normally infected, they said it was some kind of virus…The doctors said it was very rare. They explained it to me but I didn't understand… something in the back of my brains that was controlling my sight was badly infected and… after 3 days…I…" By now, Yamato was crying… "I wasn't able to protect Takeru. When my sight disappeared completely, I couldn't protect Takeru anymore… all the bullies… They liked to pick on Takeru because he cried easily. And I…" Yamato began to shake slightly.

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Okay, that's it. I already replaced this part in Chapter 4. Sorry for not doing this right away, but I had only learned something crucial at Biology class today, which really helps this story. It's hidden within Yama's past!……

Now! On with the chapter!

A gloomy atmosphere was present in the Ishida residence. 3 boys were sitting at the dinning table, silently eating their breakfast. No word would be spoken, only the occasional sound of a knife or a spoon would break the silence. A sudden wind would make the trees outside creak slightly, dark clouds now hiding the earlier shining sun. The sound of leaves and rain against the window certainly did not lighten up the mood. One of the three boys, the only brunette, sighed, putting down his half-eaten sandwich. /Man…Talk about depressing. I gotta try to bring up some kind of conversation…\ The brunette gathered up his courage and still hesitantly said: "So… I guess we're not going to the park anymore…Because of the weather I mean. Yamato, what would you like to do instead?" Again silence. Then Yamato also put down his piece of bread and rose from his seat.

"I'm not hungry anymore. I'm going back to bed."

"Ah, but—" Taichi could not finish his sentence, already facing Yamato's back, now leaving the room.

"Taichi, don't take it personal," Takeru soothingly said, "… Yama's always like this after he talks or remembers our past. It's not your fault that he's like this now."

"Well, maybe it is. Damn, I shouldn't have asked…"

"No! It was a good thing. The more he talks about it, the better it'll be for him. He just doesn't want to admit it. After we started living with dad Yama refused to talk to anyone. Dad thought we needed help but Yama wouldn't accept it. Since then he's always been a bit down. But when he's around you, he looks…happier. Well, most of the time he's as red as a tomato…" Taichi couldn't help but also blush at this comment, but Takeru pretended not to notice. "… I think it would be good for Yama to hang out with you some more…" Takeru then became silent. Could he do it? Would he…?

"…Taichi, would you do me a favour?"

Taichi stood in front of Yamato's door. He took a deep breath and knocked on it. No answer… He knocked again… When he still didn't get a reply, he slowly opened the door. The lights were off and the curtains were closed but he could still make out the outline of Yamato's bed. And a figure lying on top of it. He slowly approached the bed.

"Yamato? Are you sleeping?" The only reply was a low grunt. /Well, at least he's still alive. Now what was I supposed to say again? Oh, right… Here goes…\ "Ya-ma-to-chan…." Taichi said in a slightly whining voice. He was about to say something when Yamato finally spoke: "What do you want?" His voice sounded slightly irritated. However, Taichi could only smirk.

"I…Want… You…" Taichi paused on purpose… " To get your lazy bum of your bed and go out with me…" His smirk was quickly forgotten and now replaced with a blush. "I-I want to go and get a drink. Come on, please" Taichi was now slightly pouting though it couldn't be seen in the dark.

"Taichi," /is he going to say yes…\ "Did you not notice it's practically storming outside? There's no way I'm going out now."

"Aw, but Yamato-chan--" "Stop calling me that, unless you wish to die an early, painful and very slow death." Taichi however, was not fazed by this comment and continued: "Yamato-chan, it's barely raining anymore. The wind might be a bit harsh but… I'll protect ya," Taichi couldn't help but to smile at the corny comment yet continued nonetheless: "We don't have to drink something outside, we could just go to a bar or something. Wouldn't you like a warm cup of hot chocolate? And we could try a piece of apple pie too…" It was again silent. 'Hot chocolate? Apple pie? How does he know that those are my favourite? Well, it wouldn't hurt to…But how does he know? Is it coincidence? ' Yamato remained silent for a little while but then sat up straight in his bed.

"Very well, I'll go with you… On one condition."

"Name it."

"As soon as you call me Yamato-chan again, you'll stand still so I can catch you, tie you down and torture you until a very painful and slow death follows."

Taichi again couldn't help but smirk.

"Deal."

The three boys were now walking through the streets. Yamato was walking in the middle, on his left was Takeru holding his arm as always to guide him and on his right was Taichi. They were on their way to Taichi's favourite café. Both Yamato and Takeru didn't know this particular café but Taichi kept telling them that it was the best place to get hot chocolate and apple pie. Deciding to trust Taichi's judgement, they forced their way through the harsh wind and slight rain.

"Taichi, are we there yet? I'm soaking wet!" Yamato complained. He still wasn't quite convinced that this was such a good idea. But at least he'd be with Taichi. And he could really use the distraction.

"Ah, there it is." Taichi pointed towards a small building on the corner of the street they were currently walking on. They quickened their pace slightly and entered the building. As soon as they stepped inside, comforting warmth surrounding them and the three let out a sigh of relief.

"Why don't you guys pick out a place to sit, I'll order us something."

Takeru nodded and guided Yamato towards a table in the back, away from the window.

They took their seats and shortly after, Taichi joined them with a plate. He handed them all a cup of hot chocolate and a piece of apple pie.

"Well then, as we would say in Japan: Itadakimase! …Oh you're no fun. Just enjoy it will you?" Taichi said with a smile on his face. A small smile was finally found on Yamato's lips… Yamato's gorgeous lips, according to Taichi, whom was blushing at this thought.

They once again ate in silence. Takeru finished his hot chocolate and pie especially fast. He then looked towards Taichi and gave him a meaningful look. Taichi nodded. Takeru nodded back and took a deep breath.

"Hey, isn't that… Yeah, it's umm… Oh, it's Cody from my class. I'm going to talk to him okay? I'll be back in a few minutes." And with that, Takeru left the 2 older boys and seated himself at an empty table, a few feet away from Yamato and Taichi. /Okay, here goes nothing…Oh god, please help me…\

"So, umm…Yamato? Could I ask you s-something? It's a bit personal…" Yamato's face darkened and Taichi quickly corrected himself: " Oh! It's not personal for you… It's about…me. So, can I?"

"Well, sure. Though I'm certainly not the smartest person out here." Taichi once again took a deep breath and began to talk slowly, trying to steady his shaking voice.

"Did you…ever… Have you ever umm… felt warm and ummm… mushy when thinking about a certain person?" He blurted out the last part, making it almost impossible to understand what he was saying.

"Hmmm?"

"I- When I think about someone… ummm, I feel different. I feel better when I think of this person but it's a bit absurd to feel this way, according to me. I don't know this person very well. This hasn't really happened to me before and I'm curious about it. Have you ever felt this way?"

"Well, Taichi, the only explanation I can think of is… You're in love." Taichi's face was getting slightly red and he seemed to sweat a bit.

"R-Really? You think so? But can I be on love with someone I barely know? Isn't that weird?"

"Well, not really, it happens all the time. They call it falling in love with someone's exterior, or rather said, someone's looks. You can think of this person as nice-looking, good-looking or even sexy. Though most of the time, when the looks fade away and you really get to know this person, you might find yourself thinking: I'm not really in love with this person. 'Hmmm, was that really a smart thing to say? But… could he really be? Could he be gay?' And there are times when you fall for someone's interior, her personality… /Her? Was that some kind of hint? Am I no good? He never saw me. Could he love someone that way? Could he love a person – another guy – without ever seeing him?\ And sometimes, when you're lucky, you find someone who's good-looking AND has a nice personality." /'He couldn't fall for me. I probably don't have the looks and I certainly don't have the personality.'\ Both boys thought the exact same thing.

"Wow, Yamato, you know a lot about this stuff." Yamato, now a bit embarrassed and getting a bit flustered, tried to remain calm and give some reasonable answers.

"Ah, not really. I paid attention when my philosophy teacher began his seemingly never-ending talk about relationships. I don't have any real experience with this at all. I've never been able to fall for someone's looks…" Taichi felt that this was going the wrong way and tried to change the subject a little.

"So umm, Yamato. How would I express my feelings to this person? How do I find out if he feels the same?"

'Wow! Wait a second! Did he just say 'he'? Could he really be…'

"Well, does this person know who you are?"

"Yes, kinda."

"Then, ask this person out. Nothing fancy in the beginning, of course. Just buy this person a drink. Then make some small talk and try to find out if this person fancies anyone. If this is the case, then you can find out if it's you. If not, then… It's either a lie or you should do something to impress this person."

/Okay. That's my cue. Here goes nothing!\

"Well then, ummm, Yamato," Taichi was beat-red by now, "Yamato, can I buy you a drink?"

To be continued

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YES!!!!! That part's finally over. I was planning on continuing this chapter a while longer and put a terrible cliffhanger at the end. Evil smirk But that'll have to wait till next chapter. It'll give you something to look forward to! Evil smirk gets a lot more evil

Anyway, please review. It really speeds the writing process up. Whenever I get a review, a rush of inspiration seems to come along with it. So keep them coming! Thanks.

Oh, and a small side note: Takeru didn't actually see Cody. He just needed a proper excuse to leave the two alone for a while.