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Okay, I'll admit it- I freaked out. Well, what would you do if you just saw your best-friend-slash-sister wimpering and shaking on the ground, appearing to be going into hysterics or something? If anything, I was handling it the whole thing very well under the circumstances.

"Alice!" I screamed, rushing to her side, "What is it? What did you see? Please, please tell me." I begged, lightly shaking her.

"Bella... please stay here," she pleaded, making eye contact with me. "Don't ever leave."

"Oh... Alice..." I stammered, not being able to make any promises. "I... I don't know what to say."

"Bella!" she exclaimed, grabbing me tightly. "Bella, do you know what I saw? I saw you going to Italy, to the Volturi."

I hadn't even thought of that yet. I guess I would, however, if the Cullens decided not to do the job themselves. Alice went back to shaking, and spoke again. "Maybe... maybe it would be best if you just went and talked to Edward right now."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Did Alice seriously just kick me out of her room? I sauntered outside in a daze, trying to find my beloved, though I knew I wouldn't have to much luck.

"Edward... please, come back. Please talk to me. I'm sorry. I promise I'll explain to you the reason for my decision." I called from the icy front yard. I hoped he would come. I needed Edward. I needed him to know the reason behind my choice.

Finally, after what felt like hours, he appeared in front of me. This was probably the first time I was ever actually scared of him. His eyes looked fierce, as if he were about to rip me in half. His hands were clenched in tight fists, and his top lip curled over his teeth as he growled. The look in his eyes was the same one he wore the first day we met, the one that so accurately described the phrase "If looks could kill." He walked forward and grabbed my forearm, too tightly.

I backed off slowly, my eyes full of fear. I tripped over something (obviously, not all my clumsiness was gone,) and fell to the ground. I stayed there as I shuddered and covered my face with my other arm. Oh, God. What was I going to do? Edward looked like he was about to go on a killing spree. I squeezed my eyes shut, preparing for the worst...

When all of a sudden, a pair of arms wrapped around me. I flinched away and saw Alice's face in front of mine, her eyes closed and she was cradling me tightly. Suddenly, I heard Carlisle's voice.

"Edward!" His voice boomed. "Get out of this house this instant! Just get out of my sight. Never, ever come back here. You aren't welcome anymore.". Did Carlisle, the man who, before today, I had never heard raise his voice once, actually just yell?

I was still in shock. Edward had never, ever scared me before. I couldn't believe my husband of almost one year had made me fear for my life. I gaped at him, my mouth hanging open and my eyes wide. I couldn't speak.

I could see that Carlisle had knocked Edward on his feet. Edward's face that was once filled with rage was now filled with shock and sadness. His eyes drifted toward me.

"Bella..." he whispered, "I am absolutely disgusted in myself. I am going to leave without argument. I can't believe I actually thought I deserved you. I am not worth anything. I am the scum of the Earth. You deserve much, much better." The look on his face as he said this made me feel terrible. Here I am, threatening to kill myself, and he was probably just scared. He reacted much, much better than I would have in this situation. I squeezed out of Alice's grasp and walked over to him to take his hand in mine.

He shook it off, and he looked at me ridiculously as if I had just asked him if he needed me to pick up anything from the dry cleaners for him.

"Bella, are you insane? I just... I just hurt you. Why do you always come back as if I'd never done anything wrong? What I just did was inexcusable. Don't you realize that you could do so much better than me?" he asked.

Carlisle was still staring at him, and I couldn't say anything more. I walked towards the house as I murmured, "Edward, I will always love you; god forbid if one of us makes a mistake."

Of course he heard it. "Bella!" he called out. "That wasn't just a mistake. I didn't just spill something on the floor. I didn't just break the printer on the computer. I just hurt you, made you fear me, like I swore I wouldn't do in my wedding vows. I need to leave. If I don't go now, I probably won't be able to later. And I couldn't bear it if someone as beautiful and perfect as you stayed with someone disgusting and pathetic as myself. Goodbye, Bella."

"So that's it!" I called as he started to run away. "Leaving me again, just like you swore you never would. Oh well. I'll probably just go back to Jacob again. It's fine." I didn't mean it, but I was willing to do anything to bring him back to me.

I heard a loud, rumbling growl. I felt it shake the ground. I stumbled, realizing my clumsiness was sneaking up on me again.

But even though I knew it was Edward who caused the mini-earthquake, he didn't return. Not for a week. Not for two weeks. After the third week, I had returned to the state I was in almost two years ago, when he had left me the first time. The dead-like state. I didn't hunt. I didn't move. Finally, Alice had had enough. She burst into my room, the first time I'd seen another human (well, vampire, anyway) since that fateful day.

"Bella!" she screamed, and I was ready for the speech, Charlie had delivered the same one to me the first time Edward left. "You can't carry on like this. You have done absolutely nothing for the past month. Do you even realize what Edward did? If it weren't for my vision, who knows what would have happened. If Carlisle hadn't showed up when he did... I mean, I thought it was just a vision. I thought Edward would change his mind. But when you went out to talk to him, the vision hadn't changed and..." she broke off.

"Bella, you must never feel bad for what you did. You were trying to do what you thought was right. That's respectable if anything. But what Edward did was out of the question." if she was trying to make me feel better, it wasn't working. It just reminded me that it was my fault that Edward left. I told her this, and she got upset again.

"You think that we would want someone like Edward in our house again? Anyone who is capable of doing something like that doesn't deserve a place in our family."

What she said would have made sense. There was only one problem:

I was in love with Edward. And no matter what he did, weather it be cheat on me, weather he burned our house to the ground, weather he killed my entire family...nothing could change that. No matter how mad I was, how much I hated him, how much I wished differently, I was not able to live without him. And as much as I convinced myself otherwise, there was no way of escaping it.