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PLEASE RR!!! Thank you all!!
Please, I don't want to have to deal with flames from the Jacob-haters of the world, so be polite, act your age, and go find a different story if you don't like BxJ stories – I do have one that is BxE only, and another that is kind of Jacob oriented, but it doesn't end well for him…. Go have fun with those. For the rest of you that are ok with BxJ stories, I am done ranting and now enjoy…! Oh yeah, RR!!!
I felt like the living dead the next morning. I hadn't slept well; my decision at away ate me all night. But I was decided – choosing was the hard part, but once I made a choice, I went with it. I just hoped that this was the right choice.
I left with thirty minutes left before school actually started. I had to leave before Edward came to pick me up. I knew he would think I was avoiding him because I was scared. I was scared, but not for his reason, not because he was a vampire. I was afraid of the effects my decision would have on me, would have on him.
I pulled into a prime parking spot, and sighed. I still didn't know how I was going to tell him. The parking lot filled up, slowly at first, and then it was time to go. I still hadn't come up with a solution.
There was a light rap on my window. Edward was waiting for me, a smile on his beautiful face. It was a sad smile. He opened the door politely. I gathered my things and slid out.
As we walked into English, Edward kept pace silently beside me. He kept a few cautious feet between us. It felt like the early stages of our relationship; from the day I thought he was Spiderman, to that day in our meadow.
Funny how time seems to speed up when you're dreading something. In no time at all, Edward and I were walking back to the parking lot. "Bella?" Edward paused at the back bumper of my truck.
I gulped. "Yes?"
Edward looked hesitant. I had never seen him unsure of anything. "About yesterday—"
I held my hand up, and Edward fell silent. "I'd like to talk about that. Will you be over later?" Edward nodded. He kissed my cheek swiftly before walking to the Volvo across the parking lot. I sighed, got in my truck, and drove home.
I did my homework slowly, trying to stay away from too much free-thinking time. I paused in my work to cook dinner. Charlie had told me, via a note on the table, that he was working the late shift as well, so I only had to make food for myself. I decided to keep it simple; I grabbed the butter, two slices of bread, and cheese to make a grilled cheese sandwich.
The phone rang. I flipped the sandwich and went to answer it. "Hello?"
"Bella?" It was Jessica.
"Hey Jess, what's up?" I put the sandwich on a plate and sat at the table.
"We-ell," she said, drawing out the word, "it's Friday, and Angela and I were going to catch a movie in Port Angeles. Did you want to come?"
"Thanks for the invite, Jess, but I'm going to have to take a rain check; I'm busy tonight."
"Oh. Alright, see you Monday then."
"Yep, bye Jess." I hung up and took a bite out of my sandwich. The clock on the stove told me that it was six-thirty. I threw down the rest of my sandwich.
There was a gentle knock at the door. "Come in!" I called, my hands submerged in dish water. I placed my plate in the drying rack and wiped my hands on the towel. I turned around and saw Edward standing just inside the kitchen.
"Alice said I should come now; is that alright?"
"Yes, that's fine." I took a deep breath. "Well, I guess I won't keep you in suspense any longer." Edward waited politely, but there was a sort of honest, slightly fearful curiosity in his golden eyes. Evidently Alice had kept what she saw to herself. "Edward, you know that I have never loved anyone else like I love you." I took another breath and went on, "But… I think that it's finally sunk in – that it would be beneficial to my health…if I wasn't around you so much…"