Disclaimer- I don't own Inuyasha.

As my lips moved in perfect sync with his, I became lost with the rest of the world. My arms were around him neck, his around my waist. I was against a wall and he was holding me close. I don't know how to explain how I felt. I felt a mix of emotions that I couldn't comprehend.

As we broke away for air, both of us panting, he stared at me like he had all those other times. I shook my head, finally fully realizing what just happened. I escaped his arms and headed for the door.

"Kagome, wait," he called after me.

I turned around, avoiding eye contact.

"I wanted for so long to kiss you like that," he told me. "but yet, at the same time, I hated and might still hate you for what happened in our past, and I can tell you still hate me."

"Inuyasha, I think we should just continue to stay away from each other. I can't explain it, but I can't let that happen again," I stated.

"What did happen? I know what you did, but what did I do?"

"You stopped being Inuyasha."

After I said that I left, confused and angry at the same time. Confused by what just happened, and angry about what happened to make me not want to kiss him like that.

He looks at me and he sees me, but when I look at him, I can honestly say that I only see a little spark of the guy I know as Inuyasha. The one who cares.

As I walked home, I thought about what went on today. The kiss, the questions, and the make-out session. It almost seems like a cycle that was destined to happen, almost like day and night. We are forced to kiss, then we say we don't like each other, and then all the sudden we are making out. A perfect, confusing cycle.

The next day at school Inuyasha and I avoided any eye contact and only talked when spoken to. We were both confused, and it was obvious. We didn't know what to think any more. We were finally starting to get close again, and we got pushed to far trying to pick it up where it left off.

We used to be a couple. We used to be friends.We used to be family. Our worlds used to be as close to perfect as you can get, then it all came crashing down in an inevitable landslide. If your once whole world splits in two, you can just repair it in a few hours. It would take years to repair what we had for most people. For us, if we tried, it would only take days.

I wasn't going to give up and neither was he, but we can't get close again, not yet anyway.

"Kagome, we need to talk," Sango said to me as I exited the school.

"You're right, we do need to talk," I agreed in a blank voice.

"I am?"

"Yeah. I just had my eyes opened by an unsuspecting force. It let me know what's important. You've been my friend since forever, and I can't just throw that away over something silly. I've been overreacting a lot lately. I'm confused Sango, and it has been taking me apart piece by piece."

"It also didn't help that I was trying to force you with your worst enemy."

"It didn't help, but you didn't know. You were trying to get me to be happy," I explained.

"Can we just put this behind us and be friends again?" she asked.

"Sure."

We both hugged each other, both of us with smiles on our face. I know what it's like to lose someone you love, and I don't want to let it happen if I can prevent it.

"I'll see you tomorrow then," she said before waving and heading home.

I waved back and started my way to my house. When I got there, I checked the mail and flipped through the letters but stopped on one that had my name on it. It didn't have an address or return address, just my name.

I opened it and slowly read the letter. It was from Inuyasha. He must have put it in there before going to his house.

Kagome,

I know that you are probably even more mad at me for what I did yesterday. I know that you and I both have been confused lately, and it didn't help that I acted on my feelings. I don't think that we should stay away from each other, but I know that it's best. We tried being friends, and even being a couple and neither worked out, so I guess it's destine that we're enemies. Anyways, I just wanted to say sorry for putting you through all of this.

-Inuyasha.

A tear went down my face at all the memories that this brought back. He sent me a letter similar to this one when we first started being enemies. Inuyasha always knew how to make me mad, but most of all he knew how to make me happy. Somewhere, deep inside of me, I know that it's not destined that we be enemies, but for us to be together, only the stupid things in life brought us apart in the most hurtful way. Through trust.

When fate throws you together, you're not supposed to ignore it, so why are we? All our lives we get forced together only to be broken apart. Nobody understands what he have been through and they never will. The only person who can relate, and sooth my pain is the one who caused it. It's funny how life works like that.

I sat down at my desk and started typing an email to Inuyasha. The one that might be the last contact I have with him that is not forced.

Inuyasha's POV

I sit down at my desk and check my email. My heart stopped as I saw Kagome's email under 'unread'. This would decide what happens between us.

I always find myself staring at her, and think what we would've been if we didn't break apart. When I kissed her, only yesterday, all my worries, all my fears, everything went out the window. I wanted that feeling, but I didn't want to hurt her.

Inuyasha,

I miss how we used to be. I miss how you used to know everything that was on my mind. I miss you. If time never advanced or past, I would be so much happier. I would still be in your arms, and still have someone who understands me. Even though I miss everything we had, I don't think I'm ready to combine our worlds again. I want to be whole, and I obviously can't do that without you, but I just can't right now. I'm not ready to get hurt again, hurt by change. I don't want us to stop talking, just not move so fast. Please don't be mad.

-Kagome

My heart sank after reading this. I knew that she would want that, because I know her, but I didn't want to believe it. Fate was against me.