Disclaimer- I don't own Inuyasha

When I got to school the next day, Inuyasha looked depressed. I know I hurt him, and I didn't even do it on purpose. I didn't feel that happy either. I liked Inuyasha, but I didn't know how much. Ever since we've been getting closer again, I've been so confused. My feelings keep getting mixed up, along with my thoughts. It's hard to be with him, but it's hard to be without him.

Thought out the day I found myself peeking looks at him, and I could tell he did the same. If our eyes met, we would quickly look away. He was mad. Mad, because he wanted to go right where we left off, and I don't know what I want anymore.

The only bright side of things is that Sango and I are friends again, but that also means that Miroku is around us more followed by Inuyasha. My life can't get any better can it?

"What's wrong Kagome?" Sango asked.

"Nothing," I reply blankly.

"I know you well enough to know that it's not nothing."

"I'm just…mixed up."

"Oh."

This is one thing I hate. Sango and Inuyasha are totally different types of people. Sango is the kind of person you talk to about boys and go to the mall with. The one that you can only trust with secrets that you're okay with the world knowing. Sango is my best friend, but she isn't a thing like Inuyasha. Inuyasha, I can trust him with anything, or at least I used to.

"Does this have to do anything with Inuyasha?" she asked. "Because, you've been looking at him a lot today."

"I-"

"Don't deny it, I've seen you. He's been doing the same to you, but then again he always has."

That was news to me.

"It's…complicated."

"You've been saying that all day," she pointed out.

"Mostly because I'm not totally sure myself."

"It'll get better, whatever it is."

"I hope so," I sighed.

She laughed and we parted ways.

My days went like that for several months. Me, avoiding Inuyasha at all cost and him doing the same to me, and we both sneaking glances at each other. Sango, asking me what was wrong, always getting the same response. Miroku, making me jealous every second at how happy he makes Sango. It's now winter break. Christmas was in a couple days and even though I'm supposed to be happy and jolly, I'm sad, depressed, and confused.

I stopped at the store on my way home and picked up a few Christmas presents for everyone then went home. I stopped at the mail box and checked the mail. I had a bunch of cards from family and friends. I left the extra mail on the table for my mom and went up stairs. I read through all but one. I looked at the address and got a confused look on my face.

'Inuyasha?'

I slowly opened the card, all my fears coming back.

The card had 2 sentences on it.

Merry Christmas!

We need to talk…

That was all it said, all it ever said.

It was now Christmas day. My brother was, of course, the first one awake to go and see what 'Santa' brought him. After we opened our presents and at breakfast, I went to the old park.

Just as I suspected, Inuyasha was there sitting in the branch of the old oak tree. When he saw me, he jumped down from the tree and landed right next to me.

"We need to talk," he said.

"Don't we always?"

"Yeah, but this is different."

"Inuyasha, this time is different because we aren't friends anymore. I'm not just going to repair our friendship every time. You haven't made an attempt to even talk to me in 3 years; we're not just going to pick up where we left off anymore."

"Kagome-"

"It's been months since that incident and I've been confused ever since then," I told him

"What did I do to make you hate me so much?" he half yelled.

"You stopped caring! You stopped being the guy I fell in love with!" I yelled back.

"No I didn't!"

"You made a promise to me when we were little; you told me that no matter what you would be there, but you weren't. You didn't even blink when my dad died!"

"That's not true," he said

"Oh it's not?! Then how come you never came when I needed you most. I was always there for you, and then you just all the sudden break off our friendship and start changing into someone else."

Kagome turned to leave but was spun back around by Inuyasha.

"Listen to me, please!"

"No," I whisper as I get out of his grip. "I'm not getting hurt again," I say as I leave, tears spilling down my cheeks, and head back home.

When I get back home I go up to my room, climb out my window and onto the roof. I used to do this all the time when I was younger. I would sit up here and just look up at the stars, usually with Inuyasha. Whenever we would see a shooting star, we would never wish for anything because, in our opinion, we had everything.

I wish, in a way, we could be like that again, but I guess I'm scared. I'm scared to get close to him again, in fear that I will get hurt, for the 3rd time.

Just then, I saw a shooting star shoot across the sky, and for the first time in years, I make a wish. I wish for the one thing I can never have: Happiness. That is something that is just a myth because I don't know one person who is truly happy.

Hope you enjoy and I still need more RPG people.

Kagome126