Author's Note's: PLEASE don't hate me. I just couldn't help myself on this one. This chapter is a little shorter but it is good reading I think, also please don't hate me, and please do Review.

Disclaimer: I do NOT, in any way, or Twilight or New Moon. All that credit belongs to Stephenie Meyer.

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"BELLA!" I could barely hear someone calling my name in the distance. "BELLA!" Who ever it was sounded frantic. "BELLA! Come on sweetie wake up!" I tried to ignore the yelling so I could slip back into the darkness, but then who ever it was began to shake me. "Isabelle, please wake up. PLEASE!" I could tell that there was fear in the voice. Normally I am not a hard person to wake up, but considering what happened I am surprised I could hear anything. The shaking became more violent as they continued yelling for me to wake up. "Bella you are scaring me!" That's when I noticed it was Renee. "WAKE UP!" She was on the verge of crying I could tell. I pushed away from the darkness and opened my eyes.

"Mom?" Was all I could get out.

"Thank goodness." She sighed in relief as she pulled my into a tight hug. I still felt weak but it was different some how from what I felt last night. Renee continued to thank everything and anything she could think of that I was awake, when I noticed Edward was not around and I was in my pajamas again. As panic began to take hold on me on me I pushed Renee away and ran out of the room. I had to find Edward and make sure that he hadn't done anything stupid, I knew he felt guilty for losing control but it wasn't his fault. I needed to let him know I wasn't mad at him, nor did he actually kill me. I ran as fast as I could down the hall to Emmett and Rosalie's room. Once there I began banging on the door, I was hitting it so hard that I was shocked that it didn't break; after a few seconds Emmett answered the door as shock took over his face.

"Bella! Bella what's wrong?" I was breathing heavily that it took me a moment to speak, and now I was also shaking.

"Edward? Where is Edward?" My voice cracked.

"Did something happen? Were you attacked? Are you okay?" He started throwing questions at me when Rosalie appeared with a matching look of worry on her face.

"Bella what's wrong?" There was concern in her voice, I was not use to her worrying about me, but I would think about that later.

"Have you seen Edward? I really need to talk to him, and make sure…" I was able to hold me voice together till the end when it cracked and I could no longer hold my tears at bay. They looked at each other in shock and then turned back to me as Rosalie placed a hand on my shoulder.

"We haven't seen Edward sense last night." Emmett answered, as a serge of pain shoot through my stomach. I felt like I was going to be sick, but I pushed it away, I need to find Edward and nothing else mattered.

"Did something happen?" Rosalie was questioning as I shook my head and pushed her hand of my shoulder and began to run toward Alice and Jasper's room. Even if Alice had not physically seen him maybe she saw what he was doing or planning like last time.

"Wait Bella come back." I heard Emmett yell as I rounded the corner out of sight. I was now running even fast then before that I was not able to slow down before I hit their door at full speed, for some reason I didn't fall back but was able to hold my ground. Then while smacking to door my vision became blurry with tears that I didn't notice that Alice had opened the door till she was holding my arms still in front of me.

"Bella calm down, and tell me what happened." I was now sobbing uncontrollably, as she pulled me close and held me. "Did something happen? Please tell me, Bella."

"Edward…where is Edward." My voice cracked as I tried to speak as my body began shaking even more. "Alice please…please tell me you know where he is!" Alice pulled me back as she looked at me with nothing but fear and concern in her topaz eyes. "Please tell me he's okay." Her look became more alarmed as she walked me over to the couch.

"Bella he's fine. He is in the other room on the phone with Carlisle." She relaxed as she noticed I did as well, but only a little. "Jasper can you go tell him to come here please." Alice's eyes never left my face as she talked to Jasper who I didn't even notice was in the room. I then placed my head on her shoulder as she began to rub my back I was able to stop crying. Edward was here, he hadn't done anything stupid yet. I could tell him not too, that things will be okay and not to feel bad.

"Bella, can you tell me what…" She wasn't able to finish for now I was being pulled around to face the other direction, it was Edward, and I hadn't even noticed he entered the room. He went to ask me something but I cut him off. "Edward please forgive me." I started crying again as he pulled me into him, I could feel my tears soaking up in his shirt.

"Forgive you for what?" There was concern and confusion in his angel like voice.

"Causing you to…to lose control." I didn't want to see the pain in his eyes but I couldn't help but look up at him, but all I saw was confusion. He then looked over to Alice.

"Edward I am as confused as you. She didn't tell me anything, and I didn't see anything." He nodded and then looked back at me.

"Bella I don't understand, what are you talking about?"

"Last night when we…and then…and now I…I am so sorry." My body was starting to tremble again, as he held me tighter to try can calm me.

"I still don't understand." Worry was now holding his features as he tried to recall what might have happened.

"Don't you remember? I mean I couldn't have been that." I looked away.

"Bella I don't know what you are talking about, please tell me what happened." He pulled my face to look back at him.

"We well." I was blushing, which he immediately realized what I was talking about.

"Oh, Bella…" There was shook in his voice.

"I screwed up I am sorry, it's not your fault please don't think that it is, it is all mine. It was me that caused you to lose control and bit me, but its okay." He stiffened at my words.

"Bella nothing happened last night." I looked at him in shook how could he forget, it was wonderful, how could he. "I didn't lose control, I…"

"Yes you did, you were begging me to…"

"No! Bella nothing happened."

"How can you say that Edward." I was pushing away from him, but he held me tight and would let me go.

"I'm sorry Bella, but…"

"But nothing I remember it, we made, how can you say it didn't happen? Does it mean nothing to you?" I was now angry, how could he do this, even if he felt guilty that was no reason to say it never happened. Pure shook crossed his face.

"Bella I couldn't, we couldn't" Now there was pain in his eyes.

"But we did!"

"No Bella nothing happened." He sighed as I began sobbing in anger. "Please Bella listen to me." He began to wipe away my tears. "I wish we could, trust me I really do, but we cant at least not yet. I would lose control there is no doubt about that." I could hear the hurt in his voice.

"But Edward I…"

"Bella if it did happen, you wouldn't be sitting here right now, you would be into much pain to even think." Now I was the confused one, he was right. I placed my hand against my neck and didn't feel any puncture wounds, but what I did feel shocked me; my heart beat. Then it hit me that I had been breathing heavily and crying. I wasn't a vampire, which meant he never bit me and he never lost control, which also meant last night never happened.

"Edward I don't understand, I remember."

"I think that your mind was showing you something you wish could happen, but also the danger that goes with those feelings." He pulled me closer to him; I could tell this was hard on him as well. Just the idea that he could and that he would lose control upset him. I pulled away just a little after a moment to see a smile on his face, which caused me to blush. "I wish that it wasn't a dream I really do. If only we could be that close without the danger of me losing it. Bella I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ever hurt you. I understand why your mind showed you the danger but that will never happen. I wont allow it, at least not while you are still human." He kissed my forehead.

"So it was a dream." I was disappointed, but relieved that he had no reason to feel guilty.

"Yes, but one day we will make it a reality." He smiled as he ran his hand alone my cheekbone, cause me to blush. Then realizing that Alice and Jasper where in the room my blushed deepened as I look back too see they were gone.

"They left a while ago." Even though he couldn't read my mind, there where times that he knew what I was thinking. "Yes, they know but they won't bring it up. However they are telling Rosalie and Emmett that everything is okay and that you just had a nightmare. Looks like you had everyone concerned." He laughed "Even Renee is worried." I smiled at him.

"So when did I fall asleep?" I asked as I curled up on his lap and rested my head on his chest, but tilted my head so I could still see his now topaz eyes.

"After we told each other that we loved one another."

"Oh." I smiled. "Well I do love you Edward."

"I love you too, even with your craziness." He laughed again as I tried to glare at him, but I failed badly. "As much as I love being with you, you should head back to your room, Renee is panicking. First she was unable to wake you, which is odd, but then you freak out and run off."

"I suppose that you are right. I do need to get ready for Charlie's." I stopped I could say it, even after all this time I couldn't say it.

"I know. I will be long shortly, after you both are ready to head over to the funeral home." He kissed my hair as he walked me over to the door. "And one day soon we will be able to be that close." He smirked as I walked away blushing. I could hear him laughing as he shut the door. I walked slower then normal as I thought about his last remark. Also, I fully began to except what I thought to have happen was only a dream, but I knew it would be a dream that comes true. By the time I made it back to my room I was smiling and blushing with the thought of what it might be like, if my dream was that great, what would reality be like?