Authors Note's: Okay this is a longer chapter, I had to split it into 2 chapters but I will post the other half a little later. I hope you enjoy this even though it is a little slow.

P.S. GO CARDINALS (Yes I live in STL so I am hoping the Cardinals bet the Mets tonight, sorry any Met fans, but we will win I am sure of it) GO CARDINALS!!!

Disclaimer: I do NOT, in any way, own Twilight or New Moon all that credit belongs to Stephenie Meyer.

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Before I could open the door Renee was there. She pulled me into her arms.

"Bella, sweetie what happened? Why did you freak out like that?" There was alarm in her voice.

"I am sorry mom, I had a bad dream and I need to get some air. I didn't mean to upset you." She eyed me carefully; I could tell she wasn't buying it.

"Bella, you know you can tell me anything right?" If only that was true, there are so many things that I wish that I could tell her but she wouldn't understand. But none the less I nodded. "Then please tell me what really happened." Even with us not living together for almost two years now she still knew me well.

"It was a dream that had me upset, but not till I thought about it did I realize it was a dream. It was so real, but after talking to Edward I now know it was only a dream."

"How did he help, when I couldn't?" She more said to herself as I walked passed her into the room.

"Mom, we have become very close. I can tell him anything." I smiled back at her as I headed toward the bedroom. Grabbing my toiletries I decided to take a long shower, I still was a little stressed about the dream, and then brushed my teeth and blow dried my hair and then pulled it back into a ponytail. Then sliding into a long black dress with a square neck and long sleeves, it fit snug to my torso but hung lose past my hips. I sighed as I looked into the mirror.

"Honey are you ready? Edward is here to take us to the funeral home." Renee was calling from the other room. Pushing the tears back I walked out too see Renee in a matching dress but hers stopped at her knees and Edward was in black pants and a nice black button up shirt.

"I'm ready I guess." I tried to smile but they didn't buy it.

"Don't worry honey we are here for you." Renee said as she pulled me into a tight hug.

"Thanks mom." I then felt Edward rubbing my back to try and sooth me.

"Well I guess we should get going." Both Edward and I nodded as she turned and walked toward the door. I looked up at Edward with a small smile as a tear fell.

"I am right here, don't worry Bella. Things will get better I promise." He smiled back as he wiped away my tear.

"I don't know how I would get through this with out you."

"You won't have to find out, because I am not going anywhere, unless you tell me too."

"I will never tell you to leave."

"Well I hope not." He then wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me in for quick kiss. Then in silence we walked to the car and drove to the funeral home. I noticed that there already a few cars in the parking lot, but none that I recognized, but I didn't think much of it. Still waking in silence we walked into the funeral home where a man was sitting at a desk in the middle of the waiting area.

"How may I help you?" He asked looking up at us.

"This Isabella Swan, Chief Swans daughter, we are here for his funeral." Renee answered knowing I could not.

"Yes, if you would follow me please." He stood from his desk and then headed down the hall to the left of him. We followed as I held Edwards arm tightly, he also held me by the waist. After walking past four doors, two on each side, we arrived to the one at the end of the hall.

"Here you go, I will now go place a sigh directing people where to come." He smiled. "I am sorry for your loss." Then headed back down the hall. Renee opened the door and then walked in before us. As I walked through the doorframe I noticed she had stopped dead in her tracks and had both hands pulled up to her chest, she was crying. I went to advance forward to comfort her when I noticed Charlie's casket across from her on the back wall. I began to tremble and if not for Edward holding me up I would have fallen to my knees.

"It will be okay I promise." He soothed as he turned me from to face him. The tears were now falling freely.

"I don't know if I can do this." I hadn't seen Charlie's body before now and there it laid in the open casket for us to see.

"I am here for you. I know this is hard but things will get better I promise." He kissed my forehead, as I became more limp in his arms. "Why don't we go sit down." Then it hit me I have Edward but Renee didn't have anyone here. She loved Charlie and this was hard on her as well.

"I need to go to Renee, she needs me." I whispered but he understood. When I turned around to start heading back to my mom I noticed she was leaning on someone for comfort. "Who is that?" Edward shrugged. I wiped away the tears and tried to focus harder when I finally noticed it was Fred Daito, one of my father's officers. They had been friends for years, Fred even knew my mother. I watched as they walked over to Charlie's casket. Renee placed her hand on his and started talking, but I couldn't hear what she was saying; I knew I was not ready for that. As the pain began to take over I started feeling ill.

"Bella, you don't look so good." Edward was concerned. "You even look paler then me."

"I think I need to sit down." I weakly admitted as I felt my body go numb. Edward then picked me up and walked over to the chairs to the left of us and sat down placing me on his lap. I laid my head on his shoulder and began sobbing. He rubbed my back and softly hummed. I am not sure how long I cried in Edwards arms but before I knew I felt a soothing wave pass through me, I looked up to see the rest of the Cullen Family walking in. I mouthed thank you to Jasper who just nodded.

"Oh Bella how are you holding up?" Alice asked as she rushed over and pulled me from Edward and hugged me tight.

"Alice…I…still…human here…can't…breathe!"

"Sorry!" She slightly smiled while handing back to Edward whom was shaking his head at her.

"Thank you for coming, I know it makes it easier for Bella." Renee said as she walked over to us.

"It was no trouble at all." Esme responded as her and Renee started talking. I looked around and saw that half the town was now entering the room.

"Bella it is time." Renee said after a few minutes of talking, I looked at Edward who gave me a small smile. Renee and I then walked over to the casket so I could say my good-byes. Even with Jasper near I still broke down when I saw Charlie's lifeless body in the casket, he didn't look at all like himself. He was pale, paler then the Cullen's, and stiff. I turned and sobbed into my mother's chest.

"I know things seem hard now but they will get easier." She hugged be back as she held back her tears, so that she could be there for me. A few minutes later when I was able to pull myself together I asked Renee to give me a minute alone, she nodded and then walked away as I turned back to Charlie.

"Dad I am sorry. I should have been a better daughter and noticed this, now thinking back I saw the signs but ignored them." The tears were starting to blur my vision when I felt another but stronger wave of calmness rush though me. I knew they could hear what I was saying; Edward must have told Jasper to calm me. "I wish I could see." I caught myself before Edward could hear me. I do wish that I could see him again some day but that will never happen, I have chosen to become a vampire and stay here with Edward and that is what I really want. "Please forgive me, I was not a good daughter. I should have tried harder. If only you knew the real me, maybe things would have ended differently. I will miss you." I then felt a cold hand on my shoulder.

"Please don't talk like that." There was pain in his voice.

"Edward its true. I was…"

"No, you were not. Just like you told me, that it hurts you to see me in pain, it hurts me to see you like this." He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my hair.

"Thank you for being here."

"Where else would I be?"

"Bella, honey can I talk to you?" I heard Esme ask. I pulled from Edward and nodded. "I am sorry that I heard what you said to your father, but Edward is right you are not a bad daughter. Charlie was lucky to have you in his life as are we." She smiled as she then hugged me. "If you were my real daughter I would be proud of you."

"Thank you Esme. And don't feel sorry about hearing me, you couldn't help it." I smiled. She and Edward then went back to the rest of the family as Renee rejoined me by Charlie's casket.

"It is time to start." I nodded and then said one last goodbye as we took our sets. Renee was on my right with Edward on my left, then Esme and Carlisle. Behind me was Alice to her left was Jasper, then Emmett and then Rosalie. One by one people started talking about all kinds of things that Charlie had done in his life. An hour went by before it was my turn to get up and say something, but I said I couldn't it hurt too much, everyone seemed to understand. I thought that the testimonies were done when I noticed that Edward, Esme, and Carlisle became tense. I turned around to see that all of the Cullen's had become tense. Edward wrapped his arm around me tighter and I felt Alice firmly place her hand on my shoulder. I turned back around to see Jacob pushing Billy to the casket. I know that they were good friends with Charlie, but part of me didn't want them there for fear that they would start something. Before Billy started talking he eyed the Cullen's, in return I glared at him.

"I need some fresh air." I told Edward after Billy was finished.

"I will come with you."

"No I need some time alone." I retorted taking him by surprise.

"Bella it's not safe."

"I will be fine, if anything I will yell." I smiled hoping he would let me have some time to myself.

"Fine but…"

"I promise nothing will happen." I cut him off, then kissing him slightly I walk to the side door that lead out back. It was peaceful out here, the wind wasn't blowing and the sun was shining through the clouds, although it didn't touch where I was standing. Wishing I had a jacket I rubbed my arms to try and warm up, it was colder then normal today. Trying not to think about what was taking place in the room behind me, I leaned against the building about four feet down from the door. I must have been out there for a while when I heard someone call my name, I turned to my right and saw Jacob walking my way.

"Hello Jacob." I half-heartedly smiled, not really wanting to talk to him. I am still mad at him for the other day.

"Hey Bella, how are you holding up?" He asked as he leaded on his left shoulder facing me.

"I have been better." I looked down at the ground below me. We stood in silence for a while before it began to bother me. "So Jacob was there something you needed?" I was now looking up at him hoping that he would leave me be when he looked down at me in shock.

"No not really, I just had to get out of that room." He turned to his back and was now looking up at the sky. "Nice day, wouldn't you say?"

"I suppose so, but I like it to be warmer."

"Me too, summer will be here soon." Maybe he wasn't going to say anything about the Cullen's today. "Bella I want to apologize for the other day."

"What?" That took me by surprise as I turned to face him.

"I should have been more sensitive to your feelings, and I am sorry."

"Your right you should have, but none the less you're forgiven." I smiled, I really didn't want any hostility between us, he was one of my best friends and I didn't want to lose that.

"Thank you Bella. I don't want to push you away, I just fear for your safety."

"I understand Jake, but you need to understand that they won't hurt me, they love me."

"If you say so." I could tell he didn't believe me but didn't want to upset me again.

"Jake I need to tell you something." I looked down at me arm it was no longer hurting but I still needed to let him know.

"What is it? Did something happen?" There was alarm in his voice.

"Well I wanted to let you know that, well Victoria got though the Cullen's and…"

"What do you mean she got though them?" He was holding his anger back.

"Like I told you about Alice, Jasper and Edward all having special gifts, she has one as well, and that was how she did this." I pulled up my sleeve to show him the claw marks.

"How did she do that…why was she that close?" His eyes were wide with anger; I could tell he was blaming the Cullen's.

"Calm down and I will explain, plus it is not as bad as it looks." He just looked at me so I continued. "Victoria has the ability to block her presents. Meaning she could be standing next to you but you wouldn't know it unless you saw her. I think that is why you or the Cullen's have not been able to catch her."

"What ever the reason I won't let her hurt you again, screw the treaty I will be keeping a close watch on you." He growled as he examined my arm.

"And how will you do that? None of you like being in the same area let alone same room."

"I will deal for you. Besides I will be in the woods most of the time watching, sort of a look out. But that also means you will have to let your friends know I am near."

"I don't know Jacob, I already feel bad about this whole thing. I mean if not for me then you would be able to live a some what normal life, without the treaty always being over your head."

"Bella don't you dare feel bad about this, it is not your fault that we have to exist." He pulled me into a hug. "Please no matter how I feel about them or they feel about me don't ever feel like it is your fault." Before I could respond Jacob pushed me up against the wall with great force. He was holding my hands now above me head with one hand.

"Jake!" I looked into his eyes and noticed that they were now glowing red and he had a sinister look on his face.