A/N: I haven't been updating for more than a year now. SO SORRY!
I really didn't know how to go on with this story since i'm against real-life incest and I find the plot very discouraging since so many ideas come to mind. But I'll still finish the story. I don't want this one to be left like this…so here we go…
WARNING: Contains (mild) Incest (A/N: Still incest…doesn't matter how far things would go. :P)
If you're not a fan of this kind of story, I suggest that you hit back button and look for another story.
"You okay?" I asked. She was lying in her bed face down. I walked closer and looked at her. She was in a mess. I sat on the edge of her bed and placed a hand on her back. I pat her reassuringly a few times. She still didn't respond and her crying got a little louder. I decided to leave her at peace and probably return later. When I removed my hands from her back and was about to stand up, she suddenly sat up and hugged me. Her face was in my chest as she cried. I wrapped my hands around her and reassured her that it was going to be okay…
"Touya…you won't leave me right?" Sakura suddenly asked between her sobs. I told her I won't.
-0-
Brother : Part 1
By: tintoii
'So warm…' Sakura thought as she pressed in to the source of the heat. She was sleeping soundly and calmly. She groaned a bit and hugged the figure ever more closely to her body. "Syaoran…" She whispered lightly. Realising what she might have just said, she opened her eyes as both mind and body woke up. She looked at the figure in front of her. Pools of dark brown eyes stared back at her. It was Touya. She stiffened her body, unsure of how to react. She looked away trying to avoid his gaze and slowly moved away from his hugging body. "You didn't stop crying until you fell asleep," Touya said, breaking the silence that was growing between them.
Then Sakura remembered what had happened. 'Syaoran left me… What can I do?' Her face grew red and tears began to fall. Touya's hand reached for her face and wiped away the tears with his thumb. "Don't cry…" He held her head and gently pulled it to his chest, hugging her at the same time as well. "I'm your brother, I'll always be here for you."
'Touya stayed here for the night, beside me. He never left me… I'm so happy and thankful to have a brother like him.'
After a while, the crying and sobbing stopped. Sakura pushed herself gently away from Touya and began to smile. "Thanks for not leaving me last night. I never thought that I could count on you with this kind of situation." Thanking him, looking straight in his eyes. Sakura sat up and stretched her hands. She got out of her bed and stretched once more. She looked at her brother, still lying on the bed, and smiled. "Good morning!" She greeted.
"Good morning to you too, kaijuu (monster)" He replied coolly wearing an annoying expression on his face. "Oh and by the way, you owe me breakfast for this. Make it a good one okay? Because as I recall, monsters like you can't cook. Do your best k?" he teased with a blank and serious expression on his face.
"WHY YOU!?" Sakura was about to hit him on the head, but then didn't do so. 'I think I do owe him this one.' She just shoved the conversation away and went out to prepare some breakfast.
"Tch. Monsters…" Touya whispered. His face suddenly turned red as the idea came to mind. 'She shouldn't have hugged me like that… But then she thought I was Syaoran.'
It hurts,
knowing that what he is in, is only a one-sided love. 'We'll always be together…But not in a way that I hope it could be. To Sakura, I'm just an older brother.'
-0-
"You're taking a leave from your work, right?" Sakura asked as she took a bite off her sandwich. Touya nodded his head in response. "I'll just go out for a jog this morning and then do my chores the whole day. I'm free in the evening."
"I see… 'Cause I have tickets for tonight's movie. Tomoyo said she can't make it…So would you mind going to the movies with me?" Sakura asked.
'Shit!' He thought. 'This is gonna be so hard for me.'
"Sure." He answered, totally averting Sakura's eyes. He tried to eat faster so he could immediately leave the table. It was way too uncomfortable for him to be sitting there with her. He finished his last bite and took off in an instant.
He went to the park where he usually jogs and does routinely exercise. He can't help but get distracted once in a while, thinking about Sakura so much.
'I can't stand it! Being with her longer makes it harder for me… I'm just her brother!'
'I do really love her…not just because she's my sister. I do care…'
'I'll always be there for her… But, I have to let go… before things get worse…'
"Man…my tummy hurts…" Touya let out as he scratched the back of his head. (A/N: His tummy hurts, 'cause after eating, he immediately went out to jog. I suggest you guys not to follow this example. Hahaha -evil laugh!- :P)
He made his way home and sat by the tree outside their house for a while. "I should do what I have to do." Try and forget…
He went inside and stopped by the kitchen for a drink. He didn't notice before that Sakura was sleeping on the couch. As he poured water in his glass, he can't help but stare at Sakura.
'Sleeping at peace…As if no one could wake her in her slumber.'
Water was already dripping on the floor. He was all too nervous as he realized this and quickly looked for a towel to clean up the mess. He wiped the floor dry and soon he realized that he was staring at Sakura again. He drank his water, closing his eyes as he did, feeling the cold rush of liquid down his throat. "Ah!" he let out, feeling refreshed, breathing heavily. He opened his eyes and his gaze automatically found its way to Sakura. He placed his right hand on his forehead, closed his eyes, and then sighed in disbelief. 'I really can't help it, can I?'
He opened his eyes and walked towards the couch where Sakura is. He squat down so that his face was almost at the same level of Sakura's. He leaned in closer. He felt that he was a little bit tense at the moment. His face grew hot and all red, up to his ears. 'She's so beautiful as she sleeps. Her gentle breathing, her lips forming a little smile.'
Her lips…
He couldn't help it. His right hand reached out, touching her face lightly. His fingers were tracing the outline of her face. He smiled as he touched the tip of her nose. His hands went on and gently touched her lips, tracing its outline. 'What I'm thinking…It can never happen. Maybe in my dreams, I can hope. But in reality…it's more than impossible.' Sakura twitched a little, but then seemed to be still sleeping, not knowing what was happening around. Touya pulled his hands back and patted his knees. He stood up and stretched. Looking at Sakura, he knows that they can never be.
Touya leaned forward and tried to get a good hold on Sakura. He lifted her off the couch and carried her up to her room. He gently put her in bed and gently moved her hair from her face. Pulling up the blanket over her body silently and gently. 'I really can't help myself to look after her. Maybe that's a brother's instinct that I exercise too much behind her knowing.'
He sat down at the nearest chair which was just beside the bed. He leaned in closer and can't help himself to stop looking at her face. 'It's really bothering me! What can I do to help me forget?' He looked at her face and saw her lips forming a little smile. 'I guess she's happy in her dreams…'
Maybe… A kiss can help me forget. Even just once.
He leaned in closer. He could feel her breath on his skin. His heart beat faster and grew louder in his ears. He feared that his heart was beating so fast, so loud, that it could wake Sakura up.
Even just one…
And without thinking twice he moved in closer. He pressed his lips on her forehead ever so lightly, then quietly, gently backed off. A tear found its way out of his eyes and trickled down his face. 'That's all I can do. I'll never disrespect her. A kiss on the forehead would be enough for me… I won't go beyond the line…
Even if I love her more than what is right, and even though the pain hurts so much…'
That's the end of this chapter. I'll be going out of the city for about three days. And because of that, I'll have some spare time to finish this story. I'll probably be able to upload a chapter or two once I get back.. I know it has been delayed for more than a year now.
Anyway…I have to finish this story quickly and nicely because a friend of mine scolded me for making such a plot.
Honestly, I really dislike incest. I just wanted to have a different kind of story, so I went for the one that I really wouldn't like to happen. This is only fiction. I can do what I want, but I know my boundaries and I would never cross the line if I know that I could hurt someone.
That's all for tonight! And again, SORRY if this story has been delayed for too long. Btw, i'm not a lengthy writer, so sorry if chapters are short.i'll try my best to make it loner...
Please leave your comments, suggestions and reaction. Flames are welcome.
Disclaimer: The characters herein are owned by clamp; The story above is originally made by the author. Incidents portrayed are fictitious; any similarity at any point to any person, event and/or place is entirely coincidental and unintentional