Fragments was an amazing episode, sad in so many ways, and the trailer of the finale had scared me...hate those rumours but they seemed to be true, so...this is my T/O moment.

Fragments . 1

It was all kind of confusing, the dust flying in dirty clouds around his head, the fact that he was lying in the floor, partially covered by bricks, when just a minute before he was standing there, behind a pillar, in front of a bomb. Well, being in an explosion was not as bad as it sounds once you are dead. Of course, his mind was thinking of the thousand of things that could be broken, parts of his body that will never work, as he had lost the ability to heal.

-"Great! Bloody fantastic!"- He thought -"What now? What else can happen to me? Will I be punished to be a talking head for the rest of eternity?"

The idea would have given him goosebumps if his skin wasn´t already dead. He tried to move the legs and they were working, and the arms didn´t seem to be broken, so, all in all, it was not that bad. He was a bit trapped, yes, but not broken, so, he was lucky. Then he remembered the seconds before the bomb exploded, he had heard the others talking about bombs. God, no!, there had been more bombs, What had happened to them?

Of course, for Jack it was not a problem, even if the bomb had killed him, he would come back and be as young, strong and dashing as ever. Life was certainly not fair, from Owen´s point of view. Ianto was a lucky bastard, he tended to survive almost anything. Well, he dated a cyberwoman and survived, he fed Myfawny everyday and had never been eaten alive. Besides, his blood circulation worked just fine. Yeah, life was definitely not fair. And Gwen was not in the building so she was safe.

Owen´s mind didn´t want to contemplate the last option. She was far too important to even think about it. Tosh had to be okay, it was unacceptable to think that something had happened to her. But she had been there, with them, with the bombs...God, no!

He wanted to shout her name, call her, make sure that she was safe, as well as to know where were the others, but the dangling glass was scary enough to keep him quiet. If he moved or made a sound he might end up as Doctor Harper, "the amazing talking head". He wondered what would Jack do with him then. Maybe leave him in the autopsy bay forever, to check on the newbie´s work, or next to Ianto´s diabolical coffee machine, or maybe, if he was a good boy, next to Tosh´s keyboard. Tosh...Tosh...God, she couldn´t be dead, no, that was not possible. She didn´t deserve that, the darkness, the fear, the nothingness that waits for you once you are dead. Owen closed his eyes. He needed her to keep on fighting that darkness, but it was not just for that selfish reason that he wanted her to be safe, but because he didn´t want that nigthmare for her, unless...well, if she was going to die, he should go with her. Maybe if they did the journey together it wouldn´t be that scary. They could walk hand in hand through the darkness. Perhaps there was a light at the end of the tunnel after all. He smiled. Her eternal positivism was starting to affect him. She made him believe everything was possible as long as they were together. God, Tosh had to be alive.

But then, if she wasn´t dead...Where was she? He couldn´t hear her cries, probably because she was in the other side of the building. Where was Gwen? They needed help, and soon. What if she had internal bleeding? What if she was in too much pain? Broken bones were painful, and some injuries were tricky. He was getting more and more nervous.

-"Think about something else, Owen" -He told himself-"If I move a finger this will be the end. No more legs, no more arms. If I move, I will be nothing more than a head and nobody likes brainy guys".

He tried to relax, opened his eyes and thought about his past, and heads, and brains, and Katie. He remembered how he lost her, how his love was not enough.

He had made so many mistakes since then, he had escaped everytime he felt something for someone, he had avoided love, only Diane had hurt him again, but now, even that seemed ridiculous. Being there, unable to do a thing, trapped, waiting for someone else to do something, was just like living that episode of his life all over again. Tosh was under the rubble, maybe dying somewhere, nearby, but too far away from him. He couldn´t save her, just like he was useless when Katie needed someone to understand what was going on in her head. Owen felt the pain, it was hurting, tearing him inside out. He was sick of losing the people he loved, the ones he care about. If she died, this time, he would not try to go on with his life, mostly because he was already dead, so he made up his mind. If this time, he was unable to save the woman he loved once more, he would go with her, into the darkness, he would not leave her alone. Not this time.

Just a possible glimpse into Owen´s mind. Hope you like it. Thanks for the reviews.