Lily wandered into the Great hall ahead of James she spotted her friends in the middle of the Gryffindor table and headed over to them.

"What was that?" Emily asked the moment Lily had taken her seat.

"What was what?" Lucy enquired only mildly interested, as Lily glared at Emily.

"Well, James Potter just asked to have a private word with our Lily." announced Emily boldly and gaining Lucy's full attention "It must have been important because he seemed to be on a mission, he didn't even acknowledge my presence… It was like I got sent back in time…"

"Sent back in time?" laughed Lucy, "what makes you say that?"

"Remember when he used to fancy Lily and he just seemed to forget about everyone and everything whenever she was in his vicinity."

Lucy giggled, "Do I? Who could forget? He actually trod on me once trying to get to her! The bloody git nearly broke my toe… hmm, but that hasn't been for years, I'd even go so far as to say his attitude towards her has been downright frosty since fifth year. What do you think brought the change on… you don't think he fancy's her again do you?"

Emily looked at Lily slyly, "I'm not sure, but it sure seemed that way."

"How odd… I thought he was really happy with Kim, and they make such a cute couple."

"I don't know she seems like a bit of a ditzy slag to me."

All through their conversation Lily just held her tongue and watched them, horrified but knowing that they were just trying to get a rise out of her, but she couldn't stand it anymore, "Shut up, the both of you, there's nothing to tell. There's no change in feelings, he still loves Kim, he just wanted a quick word, is that against the law now… are Co-Heads not allowed to talk to each other? We've been getting on well recently… not too well of course just… you know… getting on as two friends should… get on."

"Um Lil, you're rambling, are you okay? Did James say something to upset you?" Lucy asked with seeming innocence.

"No, no, we're fine, just perfect."

"Perfect eh?" Lucy smirked.

"Stop it!" Lily said, running an aggravated hand through her hair, she really didn't need this right now.

"Fine," Emily said shoving food in front of Lily suspiciously but effectively ending the conversation, knowing they were about to push her too far, "but I still say something fishy is going on."

"There's nothing," Lily said in a curt voice whilst staring at the plate that had been put in front of her not feeling even remotely hungry anymore.

Emily and Lucy nodded their heads in acceptance and dropped the subject, before going back to their food grinning.

Nevertheless Lily's unusual behaviour didn't escape Emily's notice. Nor did it escape her notice that when James entered the room and kissed his girlfriend, Lily seemed to be forcing herself not to look.

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It was with an uneasy stride that James entered the Great Hall for breakfast. He was in uproar on the inside, he thought sorting things with Lily would elevate some of the guilt he was feeling. He thought by talking to her he would have been able to put his feelings to rest; that they would disappear.

He had thought wrong.

When he saw Kim sitting with his friends he had a moment's hesitation, before shaking himself and walking up to her and kissing her passionately.

He pulled away when Sirius and Remus began making retching noises.

She giggled, "Goodness, good morning to you too. You alright?" she asked, smiling shyly at him.

"I am now," he said forcing a smile onto his face and slinging an arm around her petite shoulders.

As Kim continued her usual morning conversation, James zoned out a little bit, and scanned the table for Lily.

This wasn't going to be so bad. So what if he felt a little confused, things would be fine. Lily didn't want anyone to know anymore that he did. She could keep a secret. He would just have to avoid her when Kim was around for a little while, but he told himself sternly his avoiding her had nothing to do with the way he felt about her, it was purely out of respect for Kim.

His plan, however, failed at the first hurdle when Sirius grabbed Lily as she walked past where they were sitting. "Sit down, Sweets," he said, obviously thinking it was okay for her to eat with them now that it seemed that James and Lily were friends.

James was shocked at the speed with which Sirius had accepted Lily. Had he liked her all along? The thought made him squirm a bit. Sirius had purposely not been openly friendly with Lily because James couldn't be around her, and in return for Sirius's loyalty James was keeping things from him.

He stared at her while she talked to Sirius, he watched the way her lips moved and the way she tucked her hair behind her ear nervously because she could feel his stare on her. He was replaying what had happened over and over in his mind in some weird mix of punishment and guilty pleasure, and he was pretty sure she knew it too if the blush rising in her cheeks was anything to go by.

This was insane, they had only just agreed to never talk or think about it again and yet it was the only thing on his mind.

"Sorry Sirius," she replied looking around the group her eyes landing on James, "I was just on my way out, but I'll talk to you later." Her eyes lingered on him a moment longer than they should have, just like after the party, but then she was gone.

He watched her all the way out of the hall completely oblivious to everyone else. Until he felt Sirius punch his upper arm, "Hey James, mate, are you even listening to me?"

When all James did was turn blank eyes on him Sirius asked: "What is the matter with you? You can't still be hungover."

He looked around to see everyone watching him worriedly and gave a forced chuckle, "It's nothing, I just remembered I don't have my Charms book, I best go get it." He lent across the small distance between himself and Kim to give her a kiss, "I'll see you in class, babe."

"Okay but-" Kim said but he was already gone.

Sirius looked to Remus and said in quietly confused voice: "But we don't have Charms today, its Sunday."

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Lily had felt a sharp pang of jealousy, when she saw James swagger up to his girlfriend this morning, but luckily the shock of realizing she was jealous of Potters' girlfriend soon extinguished the anger she had been feeling. Which was definitely a good thing because she had been about to do something truly stupid like walk up to them and pull out all of Kim's hair.

What was wrong with her, she had her own boyfriend. One kiss from someone you can only just stand, shouldn't throw you're feelings into chaos like this she thought grumpily.

So she had decided she just needed to get out of there and as such had left her friends under the pretence of wanting to find Jacob.

She was walking down the corridor when she felt a tug on her arm and suddenly instead being alone with her thoughts she felt the press of hot, soft, delicious lips.

She responded immediately opening her mouth to him, her arms wrapping themselves around his neck and pulling him closer to her. He tasted so good she groaned mentally. She had almost forgotten how good it was. Almost.

When he pulled away she asked breathlessly: "Why did you do that? What are you doing?"

"It's been driving me crazy, I had to know. I lied earlier, I thought I could forget about it, but I haven't been able to think about anything else, and I wanted to do it again just once, to see if it was any different when we were sober. I had to know if anything had changed, if it was just the alcohol."

"Was it?"

"No," he groaned running his hand through his hair roughly. "You?"

"….No," she said deciding to be truthful, "but it's irrelevant," she whispered staring earnestly into his eyes. "So we have a little physical chemistry, is it really all that surprising? There's no doubt you're good looking and a brilliant kisser, but that's not enough. We don't even get on. I don't think either of us are stupid enough to throw away what we've got, for something that is most likely to turn out to be hormone induced."

That said she smile sadly and walked away.

And he let her.

AN:

Ok there you go! I seem to be on a bit of a role this week, 2 updates! I think that deserves a review (nudge nudge wink wink)

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