Chapter 4
Only The Beginning
When we got into the house he carried me up to my room and laid me on the bed and put the covers over me I started murmuring about if you give spiders food they'll go away, god I hate the side effects of the medicine, but what can I do I have to take them all. I turn towards Edward and tell him "I need to make an appointment with my doctor about the medications I am taking and I need more scripts." He nodded and I turned away and fell asleep again I knew that I was worrying Edward but he needed to know that I wouldn't be on this earth much longer and there was only one thing he could do about it, but I wasn't going to ask him to do it because that would put unnecessary pressure on him and I couldn't do that. I can live the 2 months to the fullest amount but after a while there is only so much I can do after a curtain point in time. I have always wanted to go to Paris, London, Italy but now I can't oh well. I made up my mind but I would have to make a call before I do anything. I ask Edward for the phone I said I was going to call the school he said okay since I was not delirious at the moment he gave me his cell phone a Cingular Blackberry I dialed the number and asked to talk with the principal she said okay hold on one moment.
When the principal came on the phone I asked him if he could call an assembly tomorrow because I would like to talk to the school he said okay I thanked him and said goodbye. Edward looked at me questioningly I told him he would just have to wait until tomorrow. I told him to get me my chloral hydrate (AN it is a heavy sleeping pill) in was on the kitchen table in a green pill case. He was back with it so fast that I hardly realized he had left although that could be the drug's I took the pill dry since he didn't bring me any water. I was asleep almost instantly and I didn't wake up until the nest morning I saw that Edward had already left probably went to see if Alice had a vision of what I was going to do today at the assembly. I changed into a different pair of clothes something more formal since I was making my will this afternoon I had everything planed I just needed a witness I decided that the witness should be Jessica since I wasn't leaving her anything she was a bitch to me although I think that will change after the assembly. When I was ready I took some of my pain medicine I came out the front door I told Edward to pack up my wheelchair I was going to need it today since I was having some pain he said okay. I noticed that he agreed with me on a lot of things lately but what could I do I can't control him.
By the time he had packed my wheelchair I was in the car with my seat belt buckled. I must have fallen asleep because Edward was shaking me awake I told him to get my wheelchair got and set it up he did but it took him longer since there were people around so he couldn't do it at vampire speed. When he was done I sat in it and put a blanket on my lap he rolled me into school and into class as soon as the bell rang the principal came on the intercom and announced there was to be an assembly today and all grades should proceed to the auditorium. I told Edward to roll me there and put me on the stage then go sit in the audience he seemed put out but didn't argue. I thought what happened to the Edward who fights with me when I was being stubborn, although I could probably get this Edward to do anything not that I would take advantage of that.
When I was on the stage I waited patiently to be introduced so I could start the principal came onto the stage and said "student there is a student who would like to do this assembly and considering the circumstances I aloud the request so without further ado Bella Swan." I rolled myself up to where they could see me I looked at them they were all so happy they didn't have a care in the world while I had the world on my shoulders I was dying I began. "Everyone as the principal has already said my name is Isabella Swan I have to tell you all something but first I want to thank those of whom are my friends for there support but I'm getting ahead of myself I asked for this assembly so I could tell you all at once you see I have leukemia and for those of you who don't know that is cancer in the blood" I pause there are quite a few gasps and a lot of whispering. I wait for them to stop then I continue, "I am telling you this because in less then two months I will be dead, you see I have had this cancer before but I was able to fight it. But not this time it had progressed to far for kemo I am also telling you this to prepare you because in a few weeks you might not recognize me but I want you to know how much you guys' friendship with some of you has meant to me I can only hope that this time people won't shun me because I have cancer, or talk about me behind my back and I must stress that you do not put any stress on me because that 2 months in a maximum not a minimum and I don't think my body will react to the stress put on it. I take one more breath and say " thank you for listening to what I have to say because this is only the beginning of the short life I have left I may sometimes not seem coherent so I need you to bare with me I just what to live to the fullest so no extra help unless I ask for it I am going to miss you all."
I roll myself off the stage and over to where the Cullen's were sitting I smile at them I say I need to talk to Alice for a minute I roll myself away from them knowing that Alice had following behind me I look at her and say I'm really sorry but I need your help I have to go to the bathroom but I cant get up by myself anymore I was so hard this morning I thought that I would just skip today. I felt so embarrassed but I didn't let it show I told her that all she needed to do was take me into the bathroom and help me out of the chair, Alice looked sad probably because she realized how bad off I was now that I ws dying and we all know it. Alice did help me and she didn't seem upset that she had to help me off the toilet when I was done.