Chapter 2: My Skin

I have another feeling. You know how sometimes things happen, and you think it's complete crap, but then something else happens, and it forces you to realize that it's going to be okay...if not better than it was before?

"Hey Meredith, I need the toothpaste." Izzie said.

"Fime fill rushing my peef." Meredith awkwardly replied. Quickly trying to finish getting ready, she almost tripped over her shoes. She glanced at the clock, and realized that they were going to be late. "We've gotta go! We're gonna be late!"

At the hospital, they all went to the locker room to change. When Meredith opened her locker, she saw a note taped on the inside.

I need to see you. Tonight at eleven...meet me at our spot.

-Derek

She was happy to know that he was thinking of her, but at the same time, she wasn't sure if this was such a great idea. There were just so many things to consider. She tried to push all of these thoughts to the back of her brain, but they kept coming back. .

It will always be you Meredith. He sat on the ground holding her, gently caressing her shoulder. You know, I wish we could stay like this forever. She rested her head on his lap, and let him continue to stroke her hair. He knew she was crying but he didn't care.

"Grey! Quit your day-dreaming and let's get going!" Today's guest resident was a total hard ass, who didn't give a damn about anything. George grabbed her wrist and pulled her into the group. As they walked down the hall, she saw Derek. He was going over paperwork. She quickly scribbled something on a piece of paper, and slipped it into his pocket as she rushed past him.

I can't wait.

-M

She turned her head to look back, and caught him staring at her. They both smiled at each other. She didn't realize it but she fell in love with him all over again. She spent the rest of the day waiting for it to be time to go. The resident didn't give her any surgeries, because he thought that she was incompetent. Any other day, and she would have kicked him in the crotch. The resident gave her a ton of paper work to do, and she decided to do it underneath the stairwell. She loved the peace and quiet she got there.

Dr. Shepard had just finished a surgery, and was looking for Meredith. After asking a few questions he found out that she was doing paper work. He knew exactly where she would be. Running down the stairs his suspicions were confirmed.

"So you found me," Meredith smiled. Without another word he leaned in, and kissed her passionately. Bringing his hands up to her face, he brought her closer to him. It was then that Addison Shepard looked down the stairs, and saw her husband making out with Meredith. She realized that now the stakes had increased, and she needed to pull out the big guns. She pulled herself away, and continued upstairs, silently contemplating her next move.

"So you'll meet me tonight? At 11:00?" He asked gently.

"I guess...If I have too..." She planted a chaste kiss on his forehead, and told him that she needed to finish the paperwork so she could meet him in time. She watched as he walked away. "Hey McDreamy," she said.

"What?"

"Do you think we'll have a good McLife together?" He stood there trying to figure out how to answer that question.

"Ask me again tonight."

She went back to work, with a huge smile on her face. By the time she finished, it was already 10:00 p.m. She hurried out of the hospital, and made her way to their spot.

"Hey Jameson. I'm heading out okay?"

"Okay Dr. Shepard." Derek packed up his stuff, and turned to leave, but was blocked by Addison.

"Hey baby," she said as she kissed him.

"Oh, hey. How are you?"

"Actually, I need to talk to you...I thought we could go have dinner and talk."

"I would love too, but I have something that I need to do."

"Derek this is really important."

"Can it wait?" he asked impatiently.

"No it really can't. I'm pregnant."

Meredith got on the ferry, with fifteen minutes to spare. She spent the next fifteen minutes looking for Derek. She realized that something must be delaying him, so she quickly got off before the ferry left. She sat on the bench next to the dock and waited for him to come. She waited for half an hour, and then it started to rain. Admitting defeat, she got up to leave. She got halfway to her car, when she noticed Derek standing in front of her, drenched from head to toe.

"We missed the ferry," she said quietly.

"I noticed," he replied numbly.

"Are you okay?"

"Not really, no."

"Do you want to tell me?"

"Not really."

"Okay...are you going to tell me?"

"Yes."

"Hey...whatever it is...I can handle..." Derek cut her off.

"Addison is pregnant."

"Oh."

"Yeah."

"I really don't know what to say..."

"I love yo..."

"Please don't say that. Please don't tell me that you love me but you can't be with me, because I don't think my heart could handle that. I really don't think I can handle this."

"Mer..."

"Don't...call me that."

"What do you want me to do?"

"I want you to tell me that we are going to be together. I want you to tell me that I'm going to get the freakin' happy McLife! What I don't want you to tell me is that you are having a baby with her!

"Meredith, I'm so sorry."

"That's what you said the last time!" She pushed past him and went to her car. She couldn't believe that this was happening again.