Beep…
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God… That beeping is annoying…
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Where… Where am I…?
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…Why can't I move…?
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I feel… So heavy… So very… Heavy…
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I feel numb… I can't… Feel my body…
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Oh Hiei… I'm scared…
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I could feel my eyes opening as if from a very long and heavy sleep.
Someone gasped.
Too much effort… They closed again…
Beep…
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I'm so… Alone…
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Why aren't you with me Hiei…?
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I struggled to open my eyes again, this time they opened all the way.
At first everything was fuzzy then it began to clear up.
"Where… Where am I…?"
"The hospital…" someone answered.
I turned to see a red headed boy sitting in the chair next to me.
"Who… Who are you…?"
He smiled sadly. "My name is Kurama. I was a friend of yours before the… before the accident…"
"Accident…?"
He nodded.
"What… What about…" I couldn't remember his name… I couldn't…
Oh god…
I started to cry.
Kurama kneeled down next to me.
"Sh… it's alright… it's okay to forget…" he murmured. "Hiei… his name was Hiei… and he loved you very much…"
I cried more this time.
The doctor came in and asked to speak with Kurama. I didn't care… I was hurting all over again and it was nothing a doctor could fix…
Hiei… Oh god… He was gone… Hiei's gone…
Kurama said there was an accident… Did he die in the accident…?
Why can't I remember!?!
Kurama walked back in and sat next to me again.
"The doctor says that you need to know something…" He sighed. "I don't think we should tell you know, but I guess it would be better to tell you sooner rather than later…"
I looked up at him.
More bad news… I just know it…
"Before the accident… You were pregnant… about two months along…" He looked away from me for a moment then looked back. "Moon… your baby…"
"It's dead isn't it…?"
Just like Hiei…
"Actually… It survived…"
I nearly fainted. "H-how…? How could it have survived? I've been unconscious haven't I? I couldn't have fed it, it should have died!" I cried.
"They don't know how it survived the accident… but once they realized it was still alive they tried to figure out other ways to feed it while you were unconscious…" He pointed to the tube in my stomach.
I wanted to vomit seeing it there…
"How long has this been going on…?"
"Two months…"
I nodded and looked out the window.
"When you're stronger and eating more they'll be removing the tube and let you start eating for yourself and the baby… then we'll be able to go home…"
I turned back to him. "Home…? Us…?"
"Your home Moon… I'm staying here until you get better…" He smiled sadly at me.
I don't think that smile was the smile I use to see… I wonder… what happened…?
I watched him leave nodding when he said he would be back with some food and turned back to the window.
Who really was he…? My friend…? My brother…? What happened to me…? What happened to Hiei…? Why couldn't I remember anything…?
Was I ready to bring a baby into this world…? This world that I couldn't even remember…?
…Will it love me…?