I was home finally… and I still didn't remember a damn thing…
Like… WHY were there so many people living in my home?
"Oh MOON!!!" wailed a blue haired girl.
"You're okay!!" cried the short dark brown haired girl as they both hugged me.
"Yeah… I'm fine except I've got to weird screaming girls hugging me…" I muttered.
They pulled back.
That got them off of me.
"You don't remember us?" one of them asked.
"No idea who you two are… or for that matter… who the hell any of you are."
The red headed Kurama walked in and ushered everyone to the kitchen as I made my way up stairs.
My haven… My safe place… My room…
I closed the door and looked around.
I loved the mural on the walls… I painted them myself.
The beautiful landscape was barren and the sky was depicted as night with thousands of tiny stars. Two dragons meet on one wall and share a romantic moment and twist together in the night sky on the next one. The very last one has a beautiful blood red ruby on it in the shape of a heart as the dragons disappear in the distance; one pale and bright against the sky, the other nearly blending in with the sky.
"Hiei…" I murmured as I touched the painted stone.
Oh Hiei… Why… Why did you have to die…?
I gazed around the dark room and spotted a light glitter on the table by my bed.
A necklace…
I went over and picked it up. It was a ruby in the shape of a heart.
I started to cry and I couldn't stop. Tears just kept rolling down my face. I sobbed.
It felt like my heart was breaking in to a million pieces all because of a necklace that I couldn't even remember getting from anyone.
I started sobbing hysterically crying wildly as I rolled onto my side on the floor. I pulled my knees up to my chest and just sobbed into the carpet.
"Moon…?" Someone asked tentatively at the door.
I sobbed louder and started a fresh batch of tears.
"Moon!!" the person yelled as they opened the door and ran over to me.
"Moon! Moon what's wrong?! Why are you crying?? Come on Moon talk to me!" It was Kurama who was staring down at me.
I couldn't stop now. There was so much pain inside me, I felt like I was going to break apart. I just kept holding the necklace in one and my legs to my chest with the other as the tears and sobbing and wailing kept coming from this endless pit.
Kurama saw it then. He saw the necklace gripped so tightly in my hand. "Let it go Moon…" he whispered softly. "You'll break it squeezing it so tightly… I know you don't want that…"
Carefully, Kurama pried my fingers from the necklace and took it away from me. He laid my head gently on his knees as I continued to cry.
Hours later I woke up in my bed. My clothing had been changed and I was tucked under the covers.
"Oh you're awake." Someone said.
I turned to look at a boy with gelled hair coming out of my bathroom. I turned away again.
"My name's Yuske… Mind if I sit down…?"
I shook my head so he sat gingerly at the foot of the bed.
"I have something for you… I know it's probably not a good idea to give it to you now, but I think you really need it…"
He leaned over and picked up a long black cloak and passed it to me.
"This isn't mine…" I mumbled as I tried to hand it back to him
"It wasn't at first, but it's yours now…" he replied.
I gazed at the plain black cloth and brought it up to my face.
It smelled of spices and a fire.
It smelled of Hiei…
I nearly started crying all over again. I pulled it around me and almost felt as if he was holding me again.
"Thank you…" I choked.
Yuske smiled slightly and left the room, closing the door behind him.
Why did all these people care about me…? I don't even know them… do I?
I lay back wrapped in Hiei's jacket and fell asleep…
When I woke there was a tray of food sitting next to my bed on the nightstand.
…I don't think I can eat…
As I rolled away from the food I wondered how my life was going to work now… How was I going to handle these people who say they know me and say they're friends but I don't remember any of them? How could I handle knowing that the one I loved is dead and I don't even know how it happened? How could I bring this child into my world when I don't even know what my world is like?
What am I going to do…?