"I knew we should have hidden his sword better…" I heard a guy snap
"I knew we should have hidden his sword better…" I heard a guy snap.
"It was only a matter of time before something set her off…" someone replied quietly.
"That's not true! She might not have ever remembered!" the first person hissed.
"I think she needed to remember… She loved him… They loved each other… That's his baby she's having… She had a right to remember…"
"She almost killed herself! How is that something she needed? I'm going to get rid of that sword so she can't ever remember that day ever again."
"No…" I murmured. "Don't… please don't…"
"Moon…?" It was Kurama.
"Moon you nearly killed yourself with that thing!"
I opened my eyes part way and stared at the person who wanted to throw away the one thing that had actually helped me remember someone.
"Yuske…?" I mumbled.
"What…?"
"You're such an asshole…"
"You tried to kill yourself!"
"He was my love!" I cried; my voice cracked.
"You forgot for a reason!"
That pissed me off. "Get out…"
"But-"
"GET OUT!!"
Yuske left.
I rolled over and started to cry again. "He died because I couldn't get up… because I couldn't save myself…"
Kurama sat on the edge of the bed. "He died because he loved you and wanted you to live…"
I cried more. "I need him… I want him here…"
He lied down beside me and stroked my hair. "Shh… it's alright…"
I hiccupped and cried more. "What am I supposed to do…?"
"You have to live and be happy… You have a baby… You need to live for the baby and be happy too… That's what Hiei would want…"
"Oh Kurama…" I began to cry all over again as Kurama made soft shushing noises to put me to sleep.
I woke up with the light streaming through my window.
My eyes were puffy and swollen. I rolled over and stared out the window.
How am I going to do this…? How am I supposed to stay happy knowing Hiei died for me…?
I sat up and a wave of nausea hit me. I stumbled to the bathroom and threw up.
My baby… How could I forget about my baby…? My baby needed me… the baby needed me alive… Needed me happy and healthy… And I needed my baby… I needed the baby more than anything else in this world…
As I walked down the stairs I tried to fluff out the new dress the girls had gotten me. My stomach was to large now for my other clothing and I felt awkward in this dress with leggings under it.
"You look lovely Moon!" Yukina said smiling.
I blushed, I felt so weird in the dress and her compliment made me just feel weirder. "Thanks Yukina. Where is everyone?"
"The boys are outside; I guess they'll be building the shed first and Keiko and Botan are visiting Koenma."
I nodded and headed to the kitchen for a glass of water.
As I sipped the water I heard the front door open. "I'll be back in a few minutes, alright?" Yukina called from the front of the house.
"Don't worry! I'll be fine by myself for a little while!" I called back.
With that the door closed behind her.
I quickly set my glass down and went back into the storage room. Everything looked pristine; as if nothing happened in there last night.
As if no one knew I had been in there and had totally lost it.
I went to the back corner and found the sword had been haphazardly hidden behind a box conveniently labeled 'junk and stuff'.
HA! Like that's going to stop me!!
I lifted the sword, carried it to my room and proceeded to hang it on the wall. I went to my closet to see if the coat that belonged to Hiei was still where I had hidden it. It was.
I sighed; I could smell the sent that belonged to Hiei, fire and spices. I fought the urge to take it out of the box and wear it, I wanted my baby to be able to smell what their dad smelled like so I needed to leave it there… The smell would be gone before the baby was born if I wasn't careful…
The only thing I didn't have hidden away was the necklace. The small heart shaped ruby hung from its silver chain half heartedly.
"I know how you feel…" I murmured to the necklace. I sat down and ran my finger over the small stone. I sighed heavily.
"Moon…?" Someone knocked tentatively on the door.
I'm here… I'm awake…" I answered as I slipped the necklace over my head.
The door opened and Kurama walked in. "How are you feeling?"
"Fine, I feel fine." I replied. "Just a little morning sickness… That's all."
"Have you had anything to eat?"
"Not yet; no."
"Well come on down, I'll make you some breakfast. What would you like?"
"Just some toast and orange juice."
"You're going to need more than that Moon…"
"I know… I'm just not hungry yet…"
"Well… Alright… Come down when you're ready and I'll make you a good breakfast."
"Thanks Kurama…" One day I'll need to thank him for all his kindness…
Why does that sound familiar…?
When Kurama left I leaned back onto the bed and gazed up at the ceiling, absent mindedly touching the necklace.
Suddenly I sat up. Doesn't Koenma keep all the memories people loose in a room somewhere at his castle…?
I'm sure he does, I don't think he just gets rid of them.
Quickly I walked to the window and stared out…
Wow that's a long drop…
I may have made it before, but I wasn't carrying another person…
I wish there was an easier way to get down…
And just like that a little cloud popped up in front of me.
Okay… Can those things read minds or something…?
Tentatively I placed my toe on the cloud to see if I'd fall right through.
Nope. Sturdy as a rock.
Quickly I climbed onto the cloud and sat down.
Here goes nothing.
"Uh… Take me to Koenma's castle… Please…"
It didn't move.
Geez! How did it get here the first time? Just because I wanted something to get me to the ground easier?
Can't it just take me to Koenma's castle instead of putting me on the ground??
"HOLY CRAP!!" I shrieked as the thing suddenly took off.
Within minutes I was outside Koenma's home.
Well… Here goes nothing…
I looked around for any guards then slowly opened the front door. Inside the front hallway was huge. Every step I took echoed down the hallway.
Well that's just great…
I slipped out of my shoes and looked around.
Hundreds upon hundreds of doors lined the hallway.
Great… Just great… How the hell am I supposed to find the door that leads to the room with all the memories? As if it had a sign on it indicating what it was.
…Speak of the devil…
To my left there was a large plain door that had a sign that simply stated 'memories'.
That was easy.
Quietly I ran over to the door and placed my hand on it.
Here does nothing.