As I sat in the family room of my now empty home I sighed, once again, for probably the thousandth time.

Why…? Why did he have to love me…? Why did the one person I thought of my only family left have to turn out to be someone I didn't know…?

I sighed heavily once again.

This sucks ass…

"Moon…?" Someone called from behind me

"Mmm?"

"You okay…?" Keiko sat in front of me.

"Mmm…"

"Do you wanna talk about it…?"

"Mmm…" suddenly a wave of pain hit me, I doubled over.

"Moon! What's wrong?!" Keiko leaned over me.

"Contraction…" I mumbled.

"Are you okay?"

"No." I snapped as another wave of pain hit me. I stumbled into the bathroom and tried to splash some cold water in my face; I screamed.

"What's going on?!" I heard Yuske yell as he ran into the bathroom, he slipped. "What the hell?"

"Hospital…" I breathed between contractions.

"What?"

"TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL!!" I screamed.

"What's going on?" Botan asked walking into the bathroom. "Omigawd! Moon your water broke!!" She shoved Yuske out of the way and began to help me out of the bathroom.

"Someone help me! She needs to get to the hospital!"



Suddenly I was in the air then pressed against someone's chest.

"Kuwa…Kuwabara…?" I muttered, and then groaned.

"Hang on Moon!" He looked totally freaked out as he ran after Botan.

I was at the hospital in a wheelchair being rushed into the delivery room.

"Ms. Dido where's your husband?" The nurse asked as she wheeled me into the room.

I moaned and started to cry.

"Ms. Dido…?"

"Here." Kurama stated following after the nurse.

"Don't lie!" snapped Botan. "He's the godfather, Hiei… Hiei is the father…" she answered.

"And where is he? Why isn't he here?" The nurse questioned.

"He's… he passed away…" Botan replied.

"Oh…"

Suddenly I was on the bed with my legs spread wide apart on the leg rests. I screamed, panting heavily.

"Ms. Dido you need to push for me, okay?" the doctor said as he leaned over to see how dilated I was.

"Do you want the pain killer? You'll need it now ma'am." The young nurse asked.

I shook my head.

"Alright… take a deep breath and push while counting to five, then let go of the breath and start again. I'll count with you." She said as she took my head.

I nodded panting heavily.

"One… Two… three… Push!!"

I did. "Ahh!"



"You're doing really good Ms. Dido, just keep pushing!"

So I kept pushing.

And pushing…

And pushing…

"You're almost there! Keep pushing!!"

I pushed again, my hair sticking to my forehead, and tears running down my face.

"Just one more push!"

"Hiei!" I screamed as I pushed this last time.

"Whaaa!!" Came the wail of my baby.

I fell back gasping, the nurse let my legs off the rests as the doctor and another nurse took care of my baby.

"How's my baby…?" I murmured trying to lift myself up.

The doctor turned around holding my baby. "Ms. Dido" He said as he walked over to me. "You have a beautiful healthy baby girl." And he handed me my baby.

I smiled and held her to me. "Hello there Yuki…" I murmured as I touched her face gently. "I'm your mother…" I stared down at her.

She stopped crying and opened her big eyes; she had his eyes.

"I know you came in at a rough time… but I want you to be happy…"

"Ms. Dido…?"

I looked up to see the doctor looking at me.

"Her name…?"

"Yuki…" I murmured. "Blessing…"

The doctor nodded and left.

"I love you Yuki…" I whispered now that she had fallen asleep.



The nurse came to take Yuki to the nursery. "You should get some rest." She said was she left.

I think I will…

Through the following days a nurse came to teach me the correct way to wrap Yuki in her blanket, how to feed her with the bottle, how to burp her, and even how to hold her.

There was only one way I could be happier than I am now, and that's if Hiei was still with me.

But I was happy, I had my baby and she was beautiful.

"Moon, how are you feeling?" Botan ask as she sat in the chair next to my bed holding Yuki.

"I'm alright." I answered. I resisted the urge to snatch Yuki out of Botan's arms; I know she wasn't going to harm Yuki.

"Does it scare you when other people hold her…?" Keiko asked from her spot by the window.

"A little…" I admit. "I just don't want to lose her… I guess I'm afraid I'll lose her like I lost Hiei…"

Botan smiled and handed Yuki over to me, I cradled her in my arms.

"She has your hair color and your nose." Botan said as she stared at Yuki.

"Mmhmm… But she has Hiei's eyes…" I murmured as Yuki's tiny hand grabbed my finger.

"You know…" Keiko started as she pushed herself from the wall. "Kurama hasn't come in much to see his goddaughter…"

"Mmm…" was the only answer I wanted to give. I wasn't going to tell her that I had asked him not to come until he could handle the fact that I was never going to love him back.

I felt bad for Botan… I knew she loved him and I still hoped that one day he'd love her again like he had before he loved me…



Suddenly Yuki started to kick in her blanket. "Um… Could one of you hand me Yuki's bottle…?"

Keiko handed me the tiny hospital issued bottle and I fed Yuki.

"I hope to go home soon…" I murmured.

"You will soon." Botan chirped with a huge grin.

I smiled back slightly. "They said she was born small… but they also said she was healthy… why are they keeping us so long if she was healthy…?"

"Because they're doctors; they're just do what they feel is good for both you and Yuki."

"Look Moon! We're home!!" Botan cried as we walked up to the front door.

"Mmhmm…" I mumbled looking down into the carrier at the sleeping Yuki. I opened the door and stopped.

The first person I run into when I come home is the one man that I wasn't ready to see yet, Kurama.

My eyes met his and I couldn't look away; he'd hurt me badly…

Not only did he not want to let go of me, but not once did he come to visit me while I was in the hospital. I didn't even know if he came to see Yuki except from what I was told.

Finally I looked away, walking right past him and into my room; if he didn't want to apologize to me I wasn't going to talk to him either.

I closed the door quietly to my room and placed the carried on the floor. This was going to be a long, long day…

Just when I was about to go take a shower Yuki began to cry.

"There there darling…" I cooed as I picked her up. "Are ya hungry…?" I placed a bottle near her lips, she began to feed. When she finished the bottle I lifted her up and patted her back softly until she burped.

I smiled as I cuddled her against me. "You're eyes… they're just like your father's… They're so beautiful…"



I sighed and looked out the window.

Oh Hiei…