Okay guys, I'm not dead but I am sick!

School sux and I am missing a ton of work! I was gone for two days and right before Easter break all these stupid teachers had to assign the biggest crap load of work imaginable! Grrr! Well, I'm not particularly happy today but, I wanted to get this one shot up of NEJISAKU!

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You died on a Friday. I remember, as will I always.

Friday was your favourite day. It was when we went on our first date, when we were married…..and when you gave birth to my children. I found it ironic every important event happened on a Friday but, you just smiled and said: 'Life is full of ironies.'

I didn't believe you then but, now I do.

We're still standing around you're grave. I can tell Naruto's trying not to cry, he couldn't stop during your funeral, I didn't know if he was aware of it but, his hands kept clenching at his heart. But I suppose it was because you were his heart.

You always thought he would see Hinata and finally become aware of her love for him but, just as I secretly knew, he never made his move. So Kiba did. You were completely astounded and shocked, but I wasn't.

Naruto didn't surprise me but, Sai and Sasuke did. Tears absently fell from the Uchiha's eyes, dripping onto his dark shirt as he stood next to me, staring straight ahead at your picture.

He loved you. He still loves you and, for once, I allowed him.

Sai never looked at your pictures as he placed the flower before the shrine. I don't think he'll ever be able to. It seems he resorted back to his emotionless self, completely content with becoming numb and bland as he once was.

It never occurred to anyone how your smile and laugh painted the colourless lives of those you touched. Your teamates and I were no different.

Kakashi and Yamato stared down at your grave, both blaming themselves for not being able to save you or stop what happened. I know they tried and I know you didn't let them. It was always your nature to protect your precious ones before yourself, something I find so commendable yet bitter and hateful at the same time.

If you hadn't been so kind and caring you'd be here right now. We'd be at home, making love like we always did after missions. We'd be taking care of our children and watching the sunset from our bed. You always loved to do that. You'd trace little designs on my bare chest as I would mold your body to mine, possessively content to keep you all to myself and never move.

I could never sate myself with just one round of love making. I saw and knew every inch of your body like my own, as you did mine and every time I saw you naked and under my body, you were a goddess. Whenever I kissed you, I savoured the moment and with as much care as I could, I loved every inch of your body. I loved your warm embrace after our nights of passion and enjoyed waking with your loving body wrapped around mine.

But, when they came to tell me the news, everything shattered. I was so angry with you. How could you leave me? Why didn't you hold on a bit longer?

I'll never stop asking those questions, to which I'll never know the answers.

I can still close my eyes and see your beautiful face. Those gorgeous and captivating jade eyes I loved so much lighting up with a gleam of mischief whenever we were alone. You were always so passionate, whether it was about your patients at the hospital or us, you made life important for everyone.

You were our light.

But, now you're gone. And never coming back.

I remember standing in front of your grave site, watching the large casket be lifted by your teamates and hoping Naruto wouldn't drop it with his tears. Our daughter stood by my side as I held our son. Sakura, he's too young to even know who you are. He slept through the whole thing, our bright little boy: that was what you used to call him. He will only know your pictures but never you.

But, our daughter will remember you and your funeral. While you were gone, she crawled into bed beside me, taking over your place and sucking her thumb as she slept. She reminds me so much of you that it kills me when I look at her. Kaorra tried to run to you, screaming for you.

"Mommy! Mommy!" she screamed. Her identical emerald eyes held a sadness and fear I never knew existed. Lee caught her, pulling her back as she painfully cried out.

"Mommy! No, mommy wake up!"

Lee tried to quiet her down but, she continued to call out. I let TenTen take our son and took her into my arms, her little arms beat against my chest as she tried to run to you but, I held her. She is one of the only remants I have of you and I'll never let her go.

She cried and eventually, TenTen and Hinata took our children to eat. It was when they were leaving, our son started to cry. I guess he realized you weren't holding him and never would again. But, Kyoto's cries were not because he was hungry or tired but, because you weren't coming home. He knew. Even as a baby, he knew his mother was gone and never coming back.

Now, we're still standing at your grave. The dirt hasn't even set but, it will be muddied with our tears. I can look across the faces of your teamates and see nothing but destruction. When Sasuke came back, you six became a new and unique team but, now that you are gone: there'll never be a team again.

You were what kept them going, what kept them together and, now that you're gone, none of them can say goodbye. They refuse to believe the body they just buried is yours…as do I. They refuse to leave because they think you'll walk back through the gates with a huge smile on your face, satisfied that you finished your mission and you can see your family again.

But that's never going to happen.

Right now, the clouds are setting in. It was beautiful day and I wish you could've seen it. You would've wanted to take the kids to the beach and play all day and, even though I would've said there was too much paperwork to do, you would've persuaded me. I secretly loved those days. They were the only days when being a ninja never crossed our minds.

You always made me forget.

I can't leave. Neither can Sasuke, Naruto, Yamato, or Sai and especially not Kakashi. He let his student die and he'll never forgive himself. Naruto will never laugh the way he used to and Sai and Sasuke will completely shut down, hoping with all the higher ranked missions they take they can die and see you again. Yamato will disappear into the ninja regimes, hiding his pain behind the ANBU mask until he dies. And Kakashi and Naruto will remain, walking through life with no hope or comfort.

I don't think you realized how much we all loved you. You meant the world and beyond to us and with you gone, everything seems to have lost its colour and sparkle. I know you always became frustrated when Naruto or Sasuke or even I would save you on a mission, you said you weren't some damsel in distress and proceeded to give us a piece of your mind. Occasionally that little 'piece' was accompanied by a furious fist, landing all of us in the hospital.

But, we nonetheless saved you anyway. Because, no matter how strong you got, we were always going to protect you. You could hit and scream all you wanted but, nothing would change.

We made love before your mission. You were more passionate and sensual than I ever remember and, now that I think back, I wonder if you knew. Did you see your death? Did you know? I wish I went with you and it would've been me lying in the ground, not you. Your beautiful and wild spirit should never be buried or killed. That was what I loved most.

You were the strangest woman I ever met, your impetuous personality coupled with such rare beauty was indescribable and, like your teamates, I fell in love.

"Sakura chan…." I heard Naruto mumble through his tears, the old term of endearment never subsided. He always loved you and so did the others.

Did you know?

Friday.

This was your favourite day. I used to love spending each Friday with you, whether it was at dinner with our children or in bed, lying in our own lusty bliss but now, I hate Fridays.

Collectively, we decided to walk away, each touching the cool stone of your grave marker. We'll never forget you and we'll always love you.

I was the last to walk away. For one last time, I looked down at your name and gave a small smile.

Wherever you are Sakura, please watch over us. I hope you heard me and any other prayers given that day, for you will never leave mine.

"Goodbye my love."

I'm sorry it was so sad! I'm not feeling well and have enormous frustrations with school! I'm sorry (dodges tomatoes and kunai!) but I just...yeah. I have two one shots of Itachi and Sakura I want to post and I don't know which to finish. Both are REALLY happy! So look forward to that and I have a few HAPPY oneshots of NEJISAKU that I will post.

Severe cases of writer's block have occured but, I will get through it.

Thanks and REVIEW! I really enjoy reading them!

SLYVIA-

Going to bed!