JEALOUS

"this is narrated by SORA, who is falling for Matt but she just can´t accept it because her ex made her heartbroken so in this chapter his ex comes back and she is getting confused by it, he was her very first love, they dated for almost 8 months, Sora didn´t expect to fall so deeply for him or at least that´s what she though, af all her friends only Mimi knew about her relationship, she felt guilty because she was giving fake hopes to Matt, she wanted to move on but she wasn´t sure if she should fall for Matt, she and her ex shared an appartment, they had a good relationship and one night the unexpected happen, they went to thier rooms and sleep, in the very early morning he made his suitcase and left her without any explanation, she had being very depressed for this, she told Mimi about it and she tried to consolate Sora at times but it wasn´t enough, she returned to her house and hide everything that made her remember him, she never come back to the appartment but at times she would drive near and stay inside her car looking unconsolable at the building"

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"After Mimi had talked to me on the phone, I had to go to buy bread before I made dinner. I had almost forgotten to buy it. I would not forget myself if I didn't."

-I can't believe I almost forget to buy the bread at the bakery, cooking sucks!" I cried out, angrily

"I was about to miss the bus, I could of gotten in the metro however I could of gotten to Tai´s house and ask him for a ride. However, when I called he was not at home. No, I think I will take the bus and besides, the metro is far away from my house and I did not want to bother Tai.I was about to cross the street when I saw couples around the streets, all of them holding each other lovingly, too lovingly that it sucked."

"Watching those couples kissing reminded me of my ex-boyfriend; it really got me upset. I could not believe that I was still mad at him. My thoughts of my idiot ex left my mind when suddenly, as I was crossing the street, I saw something that caught my eye; it was Matt with a girl. I got so jealous that I could have set all Odaiba and Hikarigaoka on fire. I did not understand why I got angry. I mean Matt was my best friend. Was I falling in love with him? It could not be."

"It will be so strange if I did," I blushed.

"I went back to my house to make dinner. My head was filled with many things but Matt was in every though. I had made a delicious alphabetic soup and spaghetti. My parents called their flight home so I ended up having dinner alone with Piyomon, I could not believe I was jealous that girl.I was about to go to bed when my phone rang; it was Matt. The beat of my heart rose promptly with an uncontrollable rhythm as I saw his name on the caller I.D."

I answered the phone hearing his sweet voice, "Hey Sora, how are you?"

"Hi Matt, I'm fine, just bored. How about you, how are you?"

"I'm good too, so what's up?"- he asked friendly

"I was about to go to sleep but here we are." - i said yawning

"I'm sorry I didn't want to bother you, you should go to sleep," -he said sounding ashamed.

"Forget it, what are you doing?"- i said giggling

"I'm studying with Tai."- he sound bored

"Studying for what?"- i ask worried

"For philosophy; we have an exam tomorrow, remember?"- he said giggling

"But philosophy exam is not tomorrow isn't it?" I asked with a worry voice.

"Yes it is. Have you studied?"- he asked and laugh

"How am I supposed to study if you have my notebook," I said angrily.

"I'll give it to you tomorrow, besides you are smart. Do not worry; you will have a good grade, as always Also, I want to be prepared. You know the teacher hates me."- he knew i know that very well

"Ok, you have a date don't you? I saw you near the bakery with a girl," I jealously said.

"No, she is Tai´s cousin Becca; I just helped her make his boyfriend jealous that's all."- he said laughing

"I though she was your girlfriend," I said with a relief

"I'm in love, but she does not even know it."- he said it indirectly and i was blushing

"Who is she?" I asked nervously.

"You," he said laughing.

"As if, tell me," I demanded.

"No, I'll tell you when she knows it, ok?"- he said and giggled

"Ok. Hey, I have to go to sleep, see you both at school," I yawned my voice sounding sleepy.

"Okay, bye," Matt hung his phone.

That night, I had a dream like no other.

"I was in my apartment doing chores out of nowhere, I saw my ex-boyfriend in front of me. I was so happy to seeing him even though my heart felt hatred for him for leaving me, I ran to his arms, cheerfully. My arms went through his body as if he was a ghost. He hugged me but I did not feel his touch at all. He began to tell me that he was still in love with me. He got into his knee and proposed to me. I said yes, I felt so pleased. The dream changed and all of our friends were at the church, the bishop asked me if I accept Jason as my future husband. I had refused and said no."

I turned around and ran away form the church. When I had left the building, I saw Matt in his car.

I was speechless.

"He said to me that he knew he needed to be here, that he loved me so much to let me go. He got closer to me. Our bodies pressed together, our lips almost touching. Matt was about to kiss me then Jason appear with a gun and said that no one will ever humiliated him like that. He aimed pointing the weapon at me, the click of the gun when off. I felt that the bullet went through my heart. I cried out when Matt got in the middle of it, saving me.I woke up, sweat streaming down my body and face. I could no longer sleep that night. I lay on my bed looking up at the ceiling; I could not stop thinking about Matt I also could not understand why I dreamt about Jason. All those feelings that I had kept inside, all of those tears I have cry had a new meaning.I did not know what it was; I just knew it was something different. Everything confused me, why was I was running away with Matt if I was in love with Jason? I could not accept the fact of Matt and me together. It freaked me out."

"I finally got up from my bed at 4 a.m. I dressed nicely and went downstairs. At my way out from my apartment, I picked up my keys. I had decided to visit my old apartment where I used to live with Jason.I opened the apartment and turned the lights on. Everything was there and untouched as I left it, except for something.I walked inside my bedroom and on my bed, there was a sign written with beautiful tulips. It said: "I've always loved you Sora, please take me back." There were also lit candles around the room. It was so stunning. I was crying as I had never cried in my entire life; all of the memories of Jason were playing in my mind like a slow movie."

"I heard a voice from behind, I turned around and there, standing in the doorway was Jason."