A/N Hmm, not much of a reaction...Oh well, I'm doing this for myself anyways and I already had this chapter made. I didn't really like the last chapter anyway. I was too lazy to actually re-read the forest scene cause I'm saving it for when I next re-read the books lol. Anyways, this one was fun to write. Oh yeah, if you haven't noticed yet, my style when I write, i always use the same paragraph for dialogue of one character. You will never see dialogue from more that one person on the same paragraph.
OCTOBER - - - - - - - - - - - - JANUARY
"Bye Dad! I'm going out with Angela and Jess!" I ran down the stairs, stumbling on the last step. My head was just about to smash into the railing until a strong arm caught me. My heart stopped. I don't know why, but my reaction wasn't from fear of my almost concussion.
"Careful Bella," said Charlie holding me up. His expression dimmed briefly when he saw the disappointed look on my face. Charlie always caught my rare displays of silent anguish, but I always manage to compose myself before he gets a bring them up. "So, uh, where are you girls headed to?" I was glad this time was no different.
"We're going down to Port Angeles. For dinner and a movie." I grabbed my coat and had to end my conversation with Charlie while I ran out the door. "Gotta go dad. They're waiting for me in Jessica's car."
The car ride consisted of Jessica talking about herself and Mike. Of course she did that all the time, so I had to nod and pretend to care about things I had already heard a million times before. Angela was quietly gloating at me with her exclusion from the one-sided conversation. She always seemed to take advantage of me being around by throwing me into to the the conversation before Jessica could get to her. She was the first to speak in the car which was unusual, so I knew of her devious plan and threw her a look. Angela had not so subtly said 'Ummm, Jessica. Have you told Bella about your plans with Mike next week?' Stupid, cunning, quiet girl. It was a long ride and I wished Jessica would have driven faster.
We arrived at the movies earlier than expected despite the slow driving, which Angela insists was already over the speed limit. I still wasn't sure what we were watching, Angela bought the tickets online and I didn't really care to ask. Jessica was already walking inside when I caught a familiar face. I couldn't quite place it. He was really tall, had his black hair tied back in a ponytail and was surrounded by a group of guys. They were from the La Push reservation.
"Jacob?" Was this the younger boy who I had talked to that day on the beach?
"Bella?" He looked at me and so did the other boys. I felt a blush creeping up on me. "Bella!" He was running to me and soon my feet were off the ground. I was caught in a bear hug by his enormous arms.
"Jacob. Can't Breathe," I choked out panting. He released me apologizing, and I blatantly scanned his body as my neck bent down and craned directly up to take him in. "Wow. You grew a lot." He was wearing cutaway jeans and a simple white t-shirt. He had gained muscle mass too. I could see that instantly.
"Yeah. Haha." Jacob grinned which reminded me of when I had last seen him. It's nice some things haven't changed. "I missed you so much. You haven't been down to La Push lately." Disappointment quickly shot across his face very much like it did on mine sometimes. I couldn't help but feel bad.
"Oh. I'll be sure to visit you again."
"Really? How about next week!" Jacob was ecstatic and I felt a smile creeping up on me. It was weird. I never smiled like this before. Or at least I can't ever remember feeling this elated.
"Jacob!" Someone from the group of boys called out to him before I could answer. He was tall and looked older than the rest. I immediately had a dislike for him.
"Sam, I'm just talking to my friend. This is Bella." Sam glanced over in my direction and back to Jacob.
"We're leaving." The pack of guys started walking away. Sam was still eying Jacob.
"But-"
"Now Jacob." Sam cut him off. Jake started to follow.
"Bye Jake...," I whispered sadly even though I knew he was out of earshot. He left without even saying goodbye. Why did it hurt so much? I felt a chill and I was about to hug my stomach to comfort myself, but Angela grabbed my hand. I didn't even notice her.
"Come on Bella," she said pulling me gently inside towards an impatient Jessica. "We're going to miss it." She looked at me worried, as if I was I were reminding her of something she didn't want to see.
The movie we were watching was called 'Dead End'. It was some drabble about the undead. Zombies or vampires or something. I scoffed at myself. Everyone knew vampires didn't exist. The movie dragged on with Jessica or Angela letting out a scream every once and a while. Everyone in front of us looked back every time that happened. "We had to sit in the back...," I thought sarcastically.
"That movie was so scary," Jessica declared as we walked back to the car. We canceled the dinner plans since Angela and Jessica, mostly Jessica, had stuffed themselves with nachos and hot dogs. I wasn't particularly hungry myself.
Just as I was about to step into the passenger seat of Jessica's car, I heard someone calling my name, quite loudly. It was Jacob. He was alone which made me smile again. He was running towards me from across the parking lot and when he finally reached me, his breathing was still even.
"Hey Bella," he said in a fancy meeting you here tone. "Do you girls mind if I drive Bella home tonight?" He was addressing Jessica.
She looked annoyed. I could tell she was about to protest the idea of him taking her friend away, but Angela cut in.
"Sure! I have to get home soon and it would take Jessica longer if she had to drop me off first and head back to Bella's." Jessica seemed to buy her reasoning and slid into the car. I was amazed at Angela's quick response. She was almost too eager to get rid of me. Jacob seemed pretty happy though.
"So, where is your ring leader," I asked bitterly as we started walking back towards the movie theater.
"Awww, don't hate Sam. He's a good guy. He is just overprotective." I was annoyed at Jacob who was intently defending his friend's rudeness towards us.
"What, is he afraid I'm going to hurt you," I asked playfully. Jacob just shrugged and mumbled something incoherently. I couldn't help but laugh. It felt good to laugh.
"So you never told me your decision yet," said Jacob, purposefully changing the subject.
"Decision?" I gave him a wondering look.
"I invited you down to the rez next week didn't I?" Jacob looked hopeful. I felt queasy at the thought of being there.
"Would I be welcome?" I asked not sure how I would be treated if I got there. Judging by the reactions of his friends, not very well.
"Bella, you'll definitely be welcome." He frowned slightly at my apprehension. "I'm sure you'll love the guys once you get to know them. And once they get to know you," he added.
"Then sure Jacob, I'd love to come over." He was smiling just as widely as I was. I was actually anticipating going there. I hadn't felt excited about anything since coming to Forks. I have just been going through the motions really. Something always gnawed at my gut, giving me a feeling that something was missing. I never could figure out what though. Maybe it was Jacob? Ever since I moved in with Charlie, all my memories seem to mesh together. Everyday was the same routine. Not much to distinguish one memory from the other.
Just then my stomach rumbled. "I think I'm hungry." Jacob just laughed at me. I never ate much these days. I never had the will to eat. I could never tell I was hungry until my stomach decided to speak up.
"I could always use a bite to eat," Jacob said patting his flat stomach. He grew up, not out. I was a little jealous. Jacob walked me to a McDonald's. He ordered me a shake, a burger and fries. Jacob got the same, but times three. I was astounded by how much he could put away. I giggled at the sight of him finishing his second meal while I was already putting my tray away.
Jacob grabbed his last burger insisting that I not wait for him to finish. We walked back to his car while he was still eating it. It didn't take him long. We stopped at his car. I didn't know much about cars, but there was something special about his. Then I remembered.
"Jacob did you make this?"
"Yhewa" He nodded for emphasis. He was still chewing his last bits of food, but did his best to answer me.
I squealed and hugged his waist. I was earnestly happy for him. He hugged me back, careful not to touch me with his hands. Him holding me felt right. A pang of guilt got to me and I suddenly felt emotionally winded.
"Waz rung?" Jacob was swallowing his food in one big gulp and looked at me concerned as I recoiled.
"N-Nothing. I'm not sure," I answered honestly as I got in the car.
I was distracted during the ride home while Jacob talked to me non-stop about what he wanted to do when I got to La Push. It wasn't the same type of rabble Jessica did, I was actually involved in the conversation. Jacob noticed me unconsciously glancing at his speedometer and asked me why I was so anxious.
"Aren't we going a little slow?" I glanced out the window.
"I'm already ten miles over the speed limit Bella," he chided. "It's not safe to be going so fast especially here where it rains non-stop."
"You're right," I reprimanded my self. Why did I care how fast we were going? Stupid stupid Bella. "Sorry."
"Don't apologize." He laughed. "I didn't realize you were such a thrill seeker." I shook my head and laughed along with him.
He stopped outside of my house and I saw Charlie peeking out the window. Jessica must have called. I didn't want to go inside yet. I turned to Jake.
"Hey Jacob," I got his attention and I was looking into his deep, innocent eyes. "It's only Friday, would it be okay if I went and visited you tomorrow instead?" He was still looking at me and I wasn't sure what that meant. "Never mind then," I rushed out, not wanting to spoil the night. "You must have other things to do, forget I mentioned it," I smiled back at him trying to hide the uneasiness in my eyes.
"Bella, I would LOVE it if you came tomorrow!" He practically yelled this at me. I was beaming. "I didn't want to wait for a whole week, but I was sure you would already have better things to do."
"Nope, nada," I said smugly. He walked me to the door and gave me another bear hug before departing.
"See you tomorrow Bells!" He was really excited and I loved that he was. It did a lot for me to feel wanted.
"Was that Jacob Black?" Charlie asked incredulously as I walked in the door.
"Yeah, I'm going over to visit him tomorrow if that's alright." Charlie put on a big grin.
"Well, I'm glad you're spending more time with him. He's a good kid." He smiled warmly and looked back to me as if he forgot something. "Oh yeah, Jessica's on the phone. I put her on hold cause I saw you coming." I thanked him and ran to the kitchen to grab the phone.
"Hey Jess." I sounded cheerful, but I was already coming up with excuses for how to end the phone call if she ended up talking too long, which was always.
"Oh Bella, I'm so sorry," It took me an instant to realize what she was apologizing for. "I can't believe Angela would do that to you. Making us leave you alone with that strange boy."
"Oh Jessica, it's okay, he was an old friend."
"Don't try to make me feel better. I saw that fake smile you had to put on when he was around. I could tell you didn't want him to be there. You never have to smile like that when you are around us." I chuckled inwardly. Jessica had it backwards. I heard a someone yell Jessica's name on the other line.
"I'm coming Ma!" I was almost deafened by her response. "Oh I'm sorry Bella, my mom needs me to help her rearrange her beanie baby collection. You have to tell me all about what happened when we get back to school. Bye!." The phone clicked shut and I rushed to my room.
I wanted so bad for it to be tomorrow already. I was tired and needed sleep too. Before hopping into bed I ran up to my open window and closed it tight making sure to latch on the lock. It was a habit of mine to open it up on sunny days so the rays sparkled in my room. I was never able to sleep without locking my window first though. Even so, my dreams were always miserable. Charlie told me that I screamed sometimes at night but I didn't like to think about it. Sleeping was always an obstacle for me and there was nothing I could do about it. I always woke up crying or shaking, so I never tried to remember what I dreamed about. I was content letting my dreams only haunt me during the night. I knew if I lingered too much on what my subconscious was trying to force on me, I would break and I wasn't read for that to happen.
Okay that was it. As you read, Bella has done her best to repress memories. She's mostly in denial right now. I'm excited to write her reaction when the cullens return. I keep reading stories about how Edward returns and Bella just forgives him. I don't like that. I like Edward and all, but I like seeing him tortured over what he did. Bella shouldn't forgive him so easily. Oh yeah, here's a little preview of what I expect to happen.
-removed-"You broke me." My voice was filled with all the pain of the long months before.
Lol, okay maybe that wasn't for you, I just wrote that so I could remember my idea and use it later. Sorry, I removed the rest of the spoiler.