A/N Hmmm...I'm not sure how I feel about this chapter...

Get angry. Stay angry Bella. He can't hurt you if you stay angry. You can't feel the pain as much when you're angry.

I saw him step out in front of me. The moonlight was shining off of him and he took my breath away. His skin glistened and he looked like a dream bathed in a pale light. His face looked so vulnerable and just looking at him made my stomach queasy.

He must have come back with Alice. That's why he was here. I knew this visit meant nothing to him, but still. I needed to hear it from him.

"What-Why are you here?" was all I could get out dumbly. Maybe this was just a dream?

"Bella...I had to see you. I can't do this on my own. I thought I could, but I can't." His voice came with difficulty. Every word he spoke was velvety smooth. It threatened to bring back every memory I had let fade away.

'Give me back my soul! Give me back my heart!' I screamed internally. I reminded myself of why I was so angry at him, careful not to confuse it with the hurt. I had to keep focused.

"I'm sorry Bella. I never would have come." He didn't want to come. I knew it. "I made Alice promise to stay away but she didn't listen! I had to come back because she did. Alice was a fool. I came-"

WHAP!!!

I slapped him without thinking. All that anger I was calling forth was doing something to me. I can't believe I slapped him. Edward I'm sorry! I wanted to cry, but I just couldn't let that anger go.

I refused to let myself feel the pain. How dare he say that about Alice anyway! She was my friend, and she didn't leave me all alone. If it were up to Edward, he probably would have left me for dead.

"Don't you dare say bad things about Alice," I growled at him. The anger from my voice was more from him leaving me than him insulting Alice. "She came here for me. She actually cared. I can't say the same about you."

I grabbed the hand I slapped him with unknowingly, and instinctively began to comfort it.

He grabbed my hand in his and started rubbing it. His touch was even colder than Alice's. Usually his coldness didn't affect me, but I had to force myself to keep from shivering. I tried to pull my hand away, but he wouldn't let go. I doubt he even felt me tugging it away.

He stared into my eyes. His beautiful topaz eyes were glowing. Their color was rich and even more jewel like than ever. Yet they held so much pain.

"Bella...I love you. Please...Please say you forgive me." He was gripping my hand even tighter and it began to hurt. I pulled at it and he released me.

He said he loved me. Could I believe that? If I did, could I forgive him? I knew the answer to both of those questions, but it's just been so long. I couldn't risk giving him the power to hurt me again. I could let him love me and Icould forgive him, but I could not trust Edward Cullen.

I couldn't break my gaze from his. I didn't want to. I could feel my grip on what was real fading. I was sinking back into his eyes. Was he trying to dazzle me?

"I...," I was about to slip out the words I knew he wanted me to say.

NOOOOOOO!!!! The anger screamed inside of me. How dare he try to dazzle me. It all can't just go away. It's not supposed to be this easy. He can't do this to me!

I tried to break from his hypnotic gaze. I had to say something else. Anything else just to keep from falling back into this trap. I pulled out the words from the very surface of my mind.

"I hate you," I muttered without thought.

His eyes widened in horror. He turned to the window, facing his back to me.

"Edward, I'm sorry!" I was shocked at what I had said. I just had to keep myself from getting hypnotized by him. I had to think rationally. I didn't mean to speak those words...did I?

"Edward, Edward please, I don't hate you! I could never hate you!" I cried at him. He still wouldn't turn to face me. "I-I...I don't hate you Edward."

I grabbed his shoulder and turned him back to face me. His eyes were closed tightly and his face...His face was contorted in a way I never wanted to see it. I felt terrible for letting such pain befall him. He was taking in deep breaths and refused to look at me. What was he afraid of? Did he think I was lying? Did he really believe I hated him?

I had given him anger and spite, but not hate. I had done all I can to keep myself from being vulnerable around him, yet that's what he was.

I feared that the reason he didn't want to look at me was because he was afraid of what he would see in my eyes. He didn't want to see hate in them.

"Edward look at me. Open your eyes, please." He opened them slowly and I could see that there was a new fragility in him. "I didn't mean what I said." I grabbed his hands in mine. Only a few goosebumps prickled on my skin.

He fell to his knees while still holding my hands intently, as if he didn't want me to leave. He rested the side of his head against my stomach and breathed in deeply.

"Bella. I never wanted to leave you. I always loved you and I never stopped. Please just believe me, I thought my leaving was necessary. Bella, don't you see? You deserve a normal life with someone who can give you warmth and even a family someday. I saw...I saw that you were happy, but I couldn't stay away. I'm sorry Bella. I'm sorry for interfering with your happiness, but I'm weak. I couldn't keep my promise. I love you Bella...I just wasn't strong enough for you." He was sobbing into me. There were no tears, but I knew the scope of his feelings. I felt them too.

I could no longer be angry at him. It was dying out and hearing his words revealed other emotions I had been pushing back. My protective wall was gone. I couldn't avoid it any longer. I knew why he left me and it was stupid, but he truly wanted me back...

This time it was me who had to turn away from him. The black hole came back to me full force. My chest wracked with pain and I had to grab my chest tightly because I could feel it all over again. I was shattering.

Tears flooded my eyes and I crouched down, feeling like I was about to double over. Edward was here. He was here! So how could I still feel so much pain?

His arms wrapped around me from behind. He pulled me in close and laid his head in my hair. I found myself not wanting to pull away...but I remembered the last time I was in his arms. He had kept me from falling to pieces, but now I still felt like I was falling. There was no security to being in his arms anymore. I sobbed harder, I felt so lost. If he had never come back, I never would have felt this way.

Did I regret him coming back? It was too early to say, but all I knew was that I was that I was hurting and he was too.

He turned me around to face him, but I took at step back.

"I'll stay around as long as you'll have me Bella. I love you." He outstretched his arms, begging me to take them.

"Edward, I can't!" I turned away again. The black hole was eating away at me. "Four months! Four months you left me Edward! You left me alone." I cried mercilessly, but didn't look at him. I didn't want him to see me.

"I understand why you hate me..." His voice was so hurt, he was almost babbling just like I was. He still thought I hated him and there was nothing I could do to convince him otherwise. I knew that if I looked at his expression right now, it would destroy me. "I promised it would be as if I never existed. I couldn't even do that much for you...I shouldn't have come Bella. I was stupid and weak. I don't know what I was thinking. I won't ever forgive myself for hurting you a second time. You would have been better off If I had just stayed away like I promised. I should have just stayed away."

I felt a cold wind and suddenly he was gone.

"Don't leave me again," I whispered to myself, still sobbing.

Before I knew it Edwards arms were wrapped around me and his face was buried behind my neck. His whole body was was trembling not wanting to let me ago. I knew he was hurting just as much as I was, but still.

"It hurts Edward." I grabbed over my chest where my heart should be. "It hurt when you weren't here. It hurts even now when you are. I don't know what to do." Edward tightened his hold on me.

"You broke me." My voice was filled with all the pain of the long months before.

The trembling stopped and I felt Edward's body stiffen behind me.

A/N Okay so I just thought you should get a bit more in depth knowledge from Bella's POV. I won't be doing that next chapter for what happens in this one. The next chapter will progress regularly and I don't really have any specifics for it right now. So i figured, did you guys enjoy the Edward chapter? Would you want me to do the next one in his POV or stick with just Bella?