A/N Holy Hell! I honestly had so much difficulty writing this chapter. I couldn't decide on how I wanted it to progress. Reading the comments helped a lot and I didn't make this chapter as depressing as the last two. Writing emotion takes a lot of energy. Poor Eddie. Oh yeah, a lot of you folks seem to be confused as to whether or not this story is ExB or JxB. Well, I'll state it now. I do have a pairing in mind, but like I told to some, that can change. I tend to change things depending on how the story continues. I try to make things as believable as possible. If there was a point in the story where I think to myself "Hey, Jasper and Bella could happen" then I'd make it happen. Well, no I wouldn't but that's only because I also use the reviews to help decide. Right now, it's pretty much a tie between Edward and Jacob when it comes to reviews. It's all circumstantial. Jacob wasn't even SUPPOSED to be in this story. I pegged him for about only two chapters...we're on like what? 12?
P.S sorry I took so long posting chapters. I'm so friggin tired, I forgot to update earlier this morning. Seriously, I did not sleep at all last night. I couldn't stop reading The truth about tomorrow by Sarah Dessen. By the time I finished, It was already time to go to school. God I love good books.
"You broke me." My voice was filled with all the pain of the long months before.
The trembling stopped and I felt Edward's body stiffen behind me.
I sobbed quietly to myself. I wanted to just collapse and feel the hard floor pressed against my face. Instead I was locked in a hard, steel prison, not able to feel the comfort of being alone.
He was still holding me in his lifeless arms, saying nothing and doing nothing.
I tried to compose myself. I took a deep breath and wiped the tears from my eyes. Slowly, I let myself turn around while still in his hold to look at his face.
He wasn't looking at me, his eyes were fixed on no specific location as if he were zoned out. His face was void of any emotion. He was just...frozen.
He left again just a few moments ago, and I told him not to leave and he returned. Then I told him he broke me.
He couldn't leave me right now, I had told him not to, but what could he do? I didn't know what I wanted. Not yet. But I also couldn't just leave him like this. I had to break this cycle we had going. I didn't know what to do...so I decided to just start with the truth.
"Edward," I whispered, looking up at him. He did not give any indication that he heard me. "Edward, I still..." I put my hands on either side of his face to get him to look directly at me. He did, but his expression was still blank. "Edward...I lov-" I saw a glimmer of life flash back into his eyes, as I spoke, but I was interrupted.
"Get away from her!"
We both turned to see something crouching on my windowsill.
"Jacob?" I said alarmed.
His body shook and his breathing came in short bursts. He was growling like an animal, and he didn't even acknowledge me. His attention was on Edward and only Edward.
Edward didn't move. He was still in his lifeless stupor.
Before I could flinch, Jacob's quivering form shot from the window and into my room. I saw patches of fur ripple into his growing muscles as he jumped. There was large, snarling wolf in my room in place of Jacob. I didn't even register what was happening when the large auburn wolf ripped Edward away from me and carried him out of the window. Edward not even trying to fight back.
I saw Jacob was taking Edward into the woods and I ran out of my room trying to follow. I didn't care if Charlie heard me leave. I shot out the door and ran as fast as my legs could carry me.
I felt myself starting to panic. I wasn't sure what was happening or who I should have been worried about, but I knew that I couldn't have just stayed in my room wondering. I wiped the tears from my soggy eyes so that I could see were I was going.
I heard a loud crashing sound as I ran through the trees and saw Edwards motionless body laying limp across the ground. The wolf was standing a few feet from him already in an attack position. I screamed out as I ran towards the two, but they didn't hear me. I saw Jacob pounce on Edward without any resistance. The wolf held one of Edward's legs in his mouth and was shaking it violently, about to rip it off.
"Stop! Stop!" I cried as I reached them.
Edward was just laying there doing nothing to protect himself. I ran up to the wolf and grabbed on to its fur trying to pull it away.
The wolf released Edward and turned around quickly. It's paw was already up in the air about to swipe at me. I closed my eyes bracing myself for the impending blow.
"Bella?" I heard my name and opened my eyes when I realized I wasn't feeling any pain.
Jake was standing in front of me, there was no longer any wolf. Jake grabbed me in a tight hold and I hugged him back. I wanted to feel whole again, like I always did in his arms.
"Bella...Bella! I would never hurt you! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." He began stroking my hair trying to soothe me.
"That wolf. It was you." I blinked incredulously and pulled away to look at his face.
"We'll talk about that later. I promise."
He kissed me swiftly and suddenly started to blush. I wondered why he was blushing, but then began to myself when I found out why.
Jacob Black was naked.
I had been in his arms, holding him in a tight embrace and I hadn't even realized. He quickly grabbed a pair of shorts that was tied around his leg and pulled them on. I tried not to watched and directed my gaze past Jake and onto a beaten Edward.
"Edward!" My eyes widened as I turned my focus on him. I ran to him, tears filling my eyes once again.
"Bella stay away from him." Jacob's eyes darkened and he began to crouch down, still in his human form.
"Jacob no! Please don't hurt him. It's okay!" I tried to reason with him before he could bring out the wolf again.
"Bella, it's not safe."
"Jacob please! He would never hurt me. Just leave us alone for a while. I need to talk to him."
"Bella..." Jacob looked scared and unsure and I did what I could to quell those fears.
"Trust me." I looked straight into his eyes and they were laced with hurt. He had trusted me to call him and I didn't. I hoped that there was still some left between us.
Jacob transformed, bringing back the wolf inside of him, but I wasn't scared. He simply looked at me sympathetically and darted back deeper into the forest.
Now I was able to give my full attention to Edward. I knelt beside him taking in the damage. He looked so defeated. His leg didn't look too bad, only the fabric of his pants was ripped. I was grateful he was okay, but he still wasn't acting like it.
"Edward, are you hurt?" I asked just to be sure.
"No," he sat himself up and looked at me. The sorrow was returning in his face and he buried it in his hands. "I could have lost you again...I saw him...The wolf raised his paw at you and I did nothing. He could have hurt you Bella!"
I was relieved to see some emotion back on his face, he was back to normal now. Or close to it. I pulled his hands away and placed them on his lap.
"Jake would never hurt me. And I told him that you would never harm me."
"I already have," he said dropping his gaze.
I didn't know what to say to that. What he said was true, and I wished I could have consoled him, but I still ached.
"Why didn't you fight back?" I asked trying to avoid anymore heavy subjects.
"What?" He looked at me with his golden eyes.
"You could have at least defended yourself."
"I-I didn't want to hurt him. He loves you Bella. I heard him thinking it. When he attacked me in your room, he was really frightened. He was scared that I was taking you away from him." He sighed. "I refused to fight back because I knew it would hurt you if he got hurt. I know how happy he makes you."
"I see..." I didn't know what to think about what Edward had said about Jacob loving me, but I felt like I needed to talk to him soon.
"Do you love him?" Edward asked me completely out of the blue. I hadn't even been together with Jacob that long...I wasn't sure if I loved him yet. I tried to search myself for the answer. I needed to answer Edward truthfully, but I didn't want him to hurt him. There had been enough of that going around this evening.
"Yes," I answered knowing that I did love Jacob. I needed him and he needed me.
Edward closed his eyes for a moment and opened them back up, looking at me determinedly. I knew right then and there that he was going to give me the power to break him this time.
"Bella." He took a deep breath to steady himself. "Please. I need to know...before he came into your room, you were going to say something. Please, will you say it to me again."
"Edward, don't."
"Please Bella! Just do it for me and I will never bother you again. I need this." He was pleading to me and I was afraid he really would leave again.
I took a deep breath and looked at his angelic face.
"Edward...I still love you."
A/N I sort of hate myself for making this into a triangle lol. And a lot of people seem to hate Edward. I hope I haven't villainized him. I just wanted to make him suffer like Bella did. Oh, and don't think that the happy couple is together already. She may still love him, but that doesn't mean she wants to be with him.
Oh yeah, if a chapter isn't deep enough, such as this one, you can ask me to write it again in another POV. I'll do it, only if its something requested by a couple of people though.
Sorry If I don't update everyday this week. It's a hectic week. Somehow, I have to manage to do 20 hours of community service, and I have a lot of school poo to do. I'll try to update every other day If I can't do it everyday.