A/N Here's a little break. I just felt like experimentin. I played with Jasper and Alice for a little bit. It was fun. Actually, I already had the next chapter written, but I just decided to write this on a whim. I guess you'll have to wait even longer for the story to progress,sorry.


Alice POV

Bella was going to find Edward in her room soon. I knew what was going to happen and I stayed with Jasper in our room. I was afraid. How much more of this can he take? I'm afraid I'll lose him to pain, guilt, distrust and emptiness. I wish I could just tell Bella that Edward would make her happy. I wish I could tell her that he would never leave her again. I could never promise that. Even I couldn't see that much into their future.

I lay in the bed with Jasper. He was holding me in his arms and I held his hands playing with his fingers. I gripped his hands in mine tight, bracing him for what was about to happen. I didn't tell him. I wanted him to enjoy feeling only the love we felt for each other for a little while before the storm hit.

I felt his hands tighten around mine. He closed his eyes. I knew this would be a bad one. Edward was confronting Bella. 'It has to get worse before it gets better,' I kept telling myself.

"Jazzy? I'm here. I'm here, don't let go."

He started breathing heavily and he clutched my hands and held it closer to his heart. I hated seeing the pain in his face. I almost hated Edward for causing such pain on the man I loved. Jasper could never blame his brother because he knew what Edward was going through, but who was I supposed to blame?

I began to kiss Jasper all over his chest, looking up to see his reaction. Every time my lips made contact with his body, his face relaxed a little. I had to keep doing everything I could to help get him through.

"I can't block it out Alice. They won't stop. Bella is holding everything in. I'm afraid." I was worried. Jasper never showed it when he was afraid, but his voice now was like a child's. He didn't deserve this. "When she stops trying to suppress her feelings, I don't know if I'll be able to handle it."

"You will Jaz. Just remember, I'm here. Hold me tight, cause I'll never let go."

He gripped me tighter. He began to tremble. He was trying to hold back a dry sob. I could feel it in his chest.

"You don't have to hold anything back. You have to let it out...someone has to."

He buried his face in his hands.

"Don't ever leave me Alice. Please stay with me..."

"Forever," I finished for him.

He had to feel twice as much pain than any of the other two were feeling. He was so strong. I had vowed to myself when this had first started that I would never be the cause of this kind of pain for him.
I did what I could to get Bella and Edward together again, the rest was up to them.

I held held Jasper's trembling body close, whispering how much I loved him when the worst of it came.

He screamed and writhed and cried. It hurt me He needed me there, but by being with him, I was also adding to his burdens. He exerted too much effort on controlling what he felt so they didn't leak out of him. He protected me by trying to prevent the feelings from going into me. They never did. I wanted to leave him alone so he didn't have to exert any effort in keeping his emotions to himself, but I was too selfish to leave him alone

I knew that he wouldn't just get better. He would just feel it less and less until it became bearable. Then we would wait for it to get worse again.

His breathing slowed slightly and his grip on me loosened. I felt his shaking stop suddenly and I turned to look at his face. It was blank.

"Jazzy, what's happening?" I was worried. Were they okay? Was Jasper okay?

"Nothing, Alice. I feel nothing."

A/N OOOoooh. How foreboding.