A/N And here's the return of the Jacob chapters. Jeez, it's so much easier to write Jacob than it is to write Edward. I guess, that just means I should start writing more Edward. I was rather unhappy with the last chapter,(before the jasper one) but meh.

After I confessed my love to Edward, he just held me in his arms the rest of the night. None of us spoke a word. I knew he didn't want to ruin the moment and neither did I. I knew that despite how screwed up the situation was now, he was happy. There was hope in everything he did now. A purpose, where there had once been anguish. Me? I still felt as lost as ever, but I didn't dare speak my worries aloud.

I fell asleep in his arms and the next morning I found myself in my bed alone. I was relieved to see the empty space next to me...but a part of me wished that he was here to hold me through this.

It was Saturday and I needed to see Jake. I needed an explanation of what had happened the night before from him. There was so much uncertainty in my life now. So much that I can't just grasp and I needed Jake to just be there for me. I couldn't take the darkness in me, and I knew I would gain little solace in Jake's explanation, but I was desperate to lighten the load on myself.

I ran downstairs to grab a quick breakfast and found Charlie sitting down at the dining table. He was reading the newspaper and looked up at me quizzically.

"You have plans?," he asked.

"I'm going down to La Push. To see Jake." I responded. I was surprised to find that my voice was raspy and came out weakly. Charlie didn't look surprised.

"You were screaming again Bella. It was worse than I had ever heard it last night. I think it would be best if you did see Jake." He turned his attention back onto his newspaper, trying to hide a grimace on his face.

"I know," I said quietly. I wasn't very hungry anymore and just grabbed a glass of orange juice to help clear my throat before I drove to see Jake.

KPOK!!!

I go out of my truck and saw the door to the Blacks' house begin to open. He looked tired. He was wearing red shorts and just a white t-shirt, but he was still a sight for sore eyes.

I was disappointed when he didn't come running to me like he usually did, but Jake did manage to walk towards me at a brisk pace. I was afraid he was mad at me or I had hurt him somehow, but his eyes were fixed on me as he quickly filled the space between us.

He took me in his arms and held on to me like he needed me. I reciprocated by clinging to him tightly. It just felt so right being in his arms, I never wanted him to let go.

"Oh, Jake. Please never let go." I found myself suddenly sobbing into his chest. I couldn't repress anything with Jake.

"Shhhh. Bella it's okay, I never will." He hugged me tighter and I buried myself deeper into him. I didn't realize how much I had been keeping back until just then.

"I love you Jake," I said, my face still pushed against his chest. I kissed it and quickly positioned my head back to its resting place.

He said nothing, but continued to caress my back with his hands. I wasn't worried about the silence. I just needed to tell him how much he meant to me. I didn't expect anything back.

"Bella...we should talk."

He took me back to the beach were we always seemed to come back to. I never released my hold on him on the way there. Even when we drove in silence, my hand gripped his tightly and his gripped back. I didn't need words with the comfort of his hold on me.

We stood by the solitary beach in silence. I was pressed up against his chest and he was playing with strands of my hair. I put my arm around his neck and pulled him down to me. I placed a chaste kiss on his lips

"I love you," I repeated. I loved hearing those words come out of my mouth.

Jacob tensed pulled away from me fractionally. Now I began to worry.

"Please stop saying that," he said.

I felt my heart sink. I had come to Jacob needing so desperately to make sense of the world. And I gave him my love because I knew that If I professed my feelings for him, that it would be a start. It would be what grounded me.

The ground beneath me crumbled and my knees buckled. Jacob held me up, leaning me against his body.

"I'm sorry," I whispered. I couldn't lose Jacob now. Even as fresh tears began to fall, I hid my face from him trying not to push him further away.

"Bella. You don't understand. I need to explain to you what happened last night. Listen to what I have to say and then tell that you still love me." His face buried a dark look.

"Jacob..."

"Bella. I've been lying to you. I've been keeping this secret and I never told you. I'm a monster Bella. You saw last night. I've wanted more than anything to tell you but...I didn't want to lose you."

I looked up at the pained expression in his face. He avoided looking me in the eyes.

"Last night, I missed you. I wanted to see you so badly. I ran down for a visit when I smelled him. I couldn't contain it, I just felt so much. I saw him through your window. The one who caused you all that pain. You were in his arms Bella and you were crying. I couldn't take it."

"So you attacked." I helped him find the words to complete his story. He looked ashamed.

"I'm sorry Bella. At first I thought you weren't safe. You could never be safe with his kind. I pulled him away and he didn't even move. When you told me to leave you alone...I thought. I didn't think I would be seeing you much after that. I mean, it's not like you called me..."

"Jacob I'm sorry I didn't call you, he just surprised me. I need you! I don't care what you are. You aren't a monster. And no matter what you say, I love you Jake. I love you."

He still wouldn't look look at me. I knew he couldn't understand how I felt. I was so over labels or surprises like this. I had to show him that I didn't care.

"Jake. Do you love me?" I asked. He still refused to look at me.

"Yes." He answered shortly. I felt my heart flutter, but not enough.

"Then tell me."

He turned to face me slowly and ran his fingers from my hair to my cheek.

"I love you."

His eyes smoldered when he said those words. I felt weightless and for the time being, all was well.

I put my hands behind his head and dragged him down towards me. We looked at each other, just staring into each others' eyes momentarily, and then he kissed me. His kiss was deep and more passionate than any other I had ever received from him. I finally broke us apart when I need to breath

"I-. Love-. You-," I gasped out each word with every breath I took.

"I love you too, Bella Swan," he smiled and placed his mouth on the edge of mine. He refused to part lips and only moved to kiss the corner of mine to allow me to breath.

"So uh...You're the wolf-man?" I asked nonchalantly as I slowly parted with him.

"Well, not just me. The guys too," he was starting to sound more confident in himself as he spoke.

"Really? When did this happen?"

"Well, not too long ago. It was before I first saw you again. It was really rough for me when I first found out."

I frowned and he couldn't hide the worry in his eyes.

"I wish you would have told me...You can tell me anything."

"Like you told me your ex was a vampire?"

"I'm sorry...It was just hard."

"I know Bells," he rested his chin on my head. "I'm just glad we don't have to keep hiding stuff anymore."

"You knew all this time? I don't see why you couldn't have just told me." I began to wonder how long he would have kept his secrets secret if Edward had never come back.

"Bella, I wanted to, it's just that we weren't really allowed to tell anyone. It's not really safe for you to be with me, but I refused to let that keep you from me." He gave me another kiss and touched my nose with his index finger.

I loved that fact that he chose to be with me no matter what.

"Well, don't some of your guys have wives and girlfriends? Unless they're all like you too?" I hoped not. I couldn't keep up with that. I was tired of feeling totally inadequate by just being human.

"No Bells, that's different." He shrugged uncomfortably.

"How so?" I pressed on. If the other guys were seeing girls who were normal, then what made them so different?

"They've imprinted."

"Imprinted?"

"People of my kind...the werewolves," he paused at the word to gage my reaction. I didn't so much as blink and he continued. "It's a rare thing among us, but it's been happening to a lot of the guys in the pack. They imprinted. It means that they've found their one true love and all it took was one look at them. When a wolf has imprinted on someone, they can't refuse that person. It's a deep connection. You can't keep them apart."

"Wow," was all I could say. I thought for a while and a question popped into my head. "Hey Jake?"

"Yes," he looked at me nervously.

"Have you imprinted on me?"

"...no," he answered morosely. I tried not to be affected, but I couldn't help but feel disappointed. "But, it's really rare Bella. A lot of us aren't meant to imprint. I love you and I know I couldn't live without you. Isn't that the same thing?"

He looked worried and I knew that he loved me, but there was still a lot I needed to know.

"You said that not everyone imprints...and that imprinting means that the wolf has found their one true love but,...what if those who don't imprint just haven't found their true love yet? What if those few who do are just the lucky ones that have?" I swallowed a lump in my throat. I felt like I was already losing Jacob. Someone was already meant for him and it wasn't me.

"Bella! Please don't say that! I love you Bella. Only you. There is no other one for me. Don't do this to yourself," he had said 'don't do this to yourself', but his eyes were saying 'don't do this to me' "You can't tell me that what I feel for you can be anything but true love. Don't leave me right when I've managed to finally grab a place in your heart."

"I'm sorry," I entwined my hands in his. "It's just that, I would never survive losing you. Not you."

He kissed me again deeply and all my second guessing melted away. He did love me.

"So why are the Cullens back?" He couldn't hide the worry in his tone.

"No reason," I said keeping my voice light. "They're just visiting. I honestly don't even know how long they intend to stay this time." I tried to hide the pain in my mind. "They're my friends, Jake. Please understand that."

"I could never understand Bella," he said shaking his head.

"You won't try keeping me away from them, will you?" I was serious. I would probably avoid Alice, Jasper...and Edward to be with Jake. But it would kill me if he wanted me to.

"I doubt I could even do that," he mused. "I trust you Bella." He looked into my eyes searching for something.

"I promise I'll call you when I'm with them. I swear it." When. I said when because I knew there were no ifs about it. I would see my vampires again. I knew that promising him I'd call was the only thing that could comfort him if I wasn't going to break my connection with the Cullens. I wasn't ready to.

"That's all I wanted to hear." He placed his hands on either side of my head and kissed me right between the eyes.

A/N So, a lot of you wanted Edward, but this chappy was all Jake. Sorry, but next chapter will probably be Edward. Saturday is for Jake and Sunday is for Edward. Monday...well Monday, Bella might be in for a dilemma. I already thought of what's coming up, so It'll be a lot easier for me to continue writing the next few chapters.