A/N Well since you guys didn't feel the need for a Jake chapter. Don't worry though, he'll pop up somewhere near the end.
I heard the voice calling out to me before I even began to open my eyes.
Jake. Alone. I recalled, not every memory, but every emotion that had been residing within me before everything went black. I winced from the pain.
"Bella! Bella wake up!" I heard a twinkling voice say to me.
I opened my eyes, feeling the light edge its way back into my vision, I saw someone crouching beside me. My head was cradled in her arms as she tried to wake me.
"Alice..." I said with barely any feeling in my voice.
I shut my eyes tightly trying to go back into nothingness. My body quivered as I willed myself unconscious.
"Bella, stop that!" Alice yelled.
I opened my eyes when the feelings didn't fade. I was exhausted. I noticed behind Alice was a bored looking Jasper. I thought they were leaving again?
"What are you doing here Alice? I thought you left?" I said, sitting myself up. I felt a wave of dizziness and Alice caught me as I tried to steady myself.
"Leaving? What are you talking about? We're not going anywhere Bella," she said.
"But Ed- he said that he was leaving me again. He was letting me go...Everyone's letting me go..."
"Oh Bella..." she looked at me sympathetically.
"What happened?" I asked feeling the bump that was forming on my forehead.
"Well, we were coming to talk to you. We were right outside and I heard a loud 'thump' coming from your room. That's when we found you. You were out for a couple of minutes."
She stared at the loose floorboard that had managed to knock me out. I followed her gaze to the plank sized hole in my floor, but she quickly caught my gaze.
"What did you want to talk to me about Alice?" I asked. I just wanted to be alone.
She caught the wariness in my eyes and sighed as she looked at Jasper with uncried tears in her eyes.
"I told you about Jasper already. He won't do anything and I practically had to drag him all the way here. I know this will sound selfish Bella, but I think you're the key. I think you can help him. I wouldn't have asked, but I'm afraid for him.
"He won't even hunt Bella! If this goes on any longer, I don't know how much longer he'll last."
"What can I do Alice?" I looked at Jasper. His face was so blank. Peaceful, dead almost. Compared to how I was dealing, he looked positively ecstatic.
"I'm not sure...I know that you went through the same thing, but you got yourself out. You found happiness. You found Jake. I was hoping that...I don't know. I thought something would happen."
At the mention of his name, my breathing caught. I hadn't really had the time to face his imprinting.
"Alice, could we talk about this later. I just want to be alone for a while," I said weakly. I could already feel the water gathering around my eyelids. I felt guilty for turning her away, but I knew there was nothing I could do to help her.
She looked desperately back at Jasper and then to me. I know she didn't want to, but she slowly got herself up.
"I'm not leaving you alone. Jasper and I will just be downstairs alright?" I nodded and she pulled Jasper out of the room.
As soon as my door shut behind them, I collapsed back into the floor feeling sorry for myself. I stayed motionless for a while, afraid to move. I was hopeless. I felt hopeless.
Was this all a nightmare? Now, the horrors that had plagued me every night were spilling out of my dreams and into reality. There was no place to hide anymore.
I grabbed the edge of my bed this time as I tried to pull myself up. I managed to get on my knees when the plank that was sticking up from the floor caught my eye again. I grabbed it and peered into the hole it was in. There were things I never thought I would see again inside of it.
My heartbeat doubled and I felt a tingle of joy as the good memories resurfaced. My heart ached for those happy times. A single tear fell to my cheek. It was a happy tear.
I looked through the stuff I found and stopped at the pictures. It was too much. I saw pictures of Edward on my birthday. He was so beautiful and he looked so happy. I missed everything. When I looked at the next picture, I couldn't stop myself from bawling. It was Edward again, but he looked apprehensive. He had "the look". At least now I knew what he was thinking at the time. He knew he was going to leave me that first time. I couldn't help but see Jake in the picture as well.
I hated the look I saw in the picture. I immediately began ripping it to shreds and then the only one left was the one of the Edward I used to have. I couldn't bring myself to ruin that one. I urgently wiped my face with my hands when one of my tears had fallen on to the picture. I didn't want to damage it.
"You ruined everything!" I yelled to the picture. I hugged it close to my heart while closing my eyes. "You ruined it..."
In the middle of all my sobbing, I felt the brush of cold fingers wipe away my tears. I still didn't open my eyes. I didn't want to talk to Alice yet. Not releasing my hold on the picture, I let her wrap me in a tight and cold embrace. I buried my face into her hard chest...she smelled different.
"I thought I told you not to shed any more tears over me."
A/N I'm tired of making Bella cry. Sheesh. But not to worry, next chapter she won't have it in her. I can't believe some thought I would make Bella hurt herself! C'mon, that's not angsty, that's just morbid.