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I got up the next morning feeling rested, for once. No nightmares stalked me in my sleep and I did not wake up screaming like usual. I unwillingly rolled out of bed and dragging my feet the entire way, went to the bathroom. After taking a shower, fixing my hair and my make up I decided I was decent enough to go to school. As I walked down the stairs I recalled last night's events. The northern lights were absolutely gorgeous, never before had I seen anything like it. I must of had a smile on my face when I entered the kitchen because Charlie nearly fell out of his chair when he saw me.
"B-bella." He stammered "Good morning."
I looked at him like he was crazy and found myself a bowl of cereal.
"Good morning, Dad." I said conversationally.
Charlie didn't say anything but continued to scrutinize me all through my breakfast. It made me a little uncomfortable, but I decided not to say anything to him. He was probably just shocked I actually smiled or showed any emotions today. There more I thought about it, the more I was surprised. What had happened to make me all of a sudden, well not happy, but not sullen and depressed.
Jacob.
I went out with Jacob last night, and had a good time. Maybe his perpetual happiness rubbed off on you if you really needed it. And if anyone needs happiness, I do. I mean, its not like I WANT to be so depressed over Ed- him. I still can't say his name, too dangerous. Maybe spending more time with Jacob will help me. I decided to go see him after school. Distracted by my thoughts, I reached school before I realized it. My insanely loud truck no longer drew the attention it used to, but I still parked in one of the last rows.
I walked into school and noticed Angela standing by her locker on her own. Odd, I thought, isn't she going out with Ben? I walked up to her and asked her about it.
"Oh, yeah me and Ben are still together, he is just off on vacation with his parents." she informed me.
"Oh, I see. Hey - Angela..." I began
"Yeah?"
"Sorry."
What was I supposed to say? Yeah, sorry that for the last, I dunno, six months I've been completely unresponsive and depressed. It is just that my vampire boyfriend who said I was the first and only person he has ever loved told me I was just a mere human to pass the time. I also will no longer be able to turn into a vampire myself and spend eternity with him. So I hope you understand why I've been acting so incredibly weird lately. But last night I went out with a Sophomore from LaPush. Jacob Black, remember him from the bonfire at the beach? Well he showed me the northern lights for the first time and it was like a bucket of cold water got dumped on my face and I suddenly woke up. I am still depressed and everything, just not as bad. But I'm trying. So please forgive me?
Yeah, because that would go down real nice, especially the part about him being a vampire and me wanting to become one. Thankfully though, long explanations are not necessary with Angela. One of the reasons I like her so much.
"It's fine Bella, you have been through a lot. I'm glad you are doing okay now."
"I wouldn't say okay, just better." I replied.
"Better is still good, Bella."
Together we walked to class, making small talk. I noticed that she smiled a lot when we talked about Ben, she must really like him. When we reached the classroom Mike noticed that I was engaged in a conversation with someone so he naturally decided to jump in.
"Hey Bella, what's up?" he said conversationally.
"Nothing really Mike. How about you?" I asked him politely.
And without further ado he launched himself into a tale of what he has been doing in the past half a year. It's good to back. I thought. Still as I've said before, I had a long way to go before I was completely healed, but maybe with Mike, Angela and especially Jacob's help I could be.
"Better is still good, Bella." the words replayed themselves in my mind, and I had to agree.