DOLLS
sigh! Alright! Gotta go look up some nursery rhymes to twist around and give weird meanings to! Enjoy!
Granted, he never had enough time to dream. Never enough. But his soul was weary, waiting to fall, so a little bit of rest would never hurt.
He supposed he should have dreamed of Rukia. Because that was normal. Not because he had feelings for her. But because he was trying to save her. She was the cause of all this stress and bloodshed. So shouldn't he dream of her?
But instead he dreamed of other things. He was starting to hate sleep.
Black claws tore at his skin. A blue tongue lapped up the blood. His reflection flashed him a deranged smile. "Blood is red, twisted tongues are blue. I love you so much..." the smile widened, showing blood stained teeth. " and I hate you too..." he kissed him, leaving the taste of his own blood in his mouth, pulling his haori off his shoulders.
"Well I hate you. I don't know you!" his reflection slapped him, glaring until his eyes seemed to flash red.
"You don't remember me yet. But you will." his white reflection kissed him again. So familiar. He wanted to drown in this feeling. So close to just drowning... "beware the jabberwock, my love! The claws that catch, the jaws that bite! Beware the jabberwock, my love."
He would gladly be eaten by the jabberwock, if only so he could get away from this monster.
He went to challenge Byakuya and save Rukia as soon as he woke up from that dream. He didn't have time to think, dream, sleep or live. Always with more important things to do. He felt an intensity that he could not deny. But he knew something, without having to look.
His lips were slightly swollen from kissing.
His fight with byakuya seemed endless. And he'd fought his hardest, the way he always did. But somehow, his hardest didn't seem to be enough. 'Move. Move dammit, move!' but his body wouldn't listen. His heart felt like it had stopped breathing, and his lungs had stopped working, and his brain was melting.
Pain coursed through his veins, reaching every single inch. "Alice King needs my help. I will give it wether he likes it or not." the feeling that his body wasn't his own swept into him, the way power had, the night Rukia was taken.
It was really a horrible feeling.
His hollow laughed, crushing Byakuya's Bankai. "You hurt My sweet Alice, and that's a sin I will never forgive. I'll show you my demons, Alice!"
"And just who are you?" Byakuya asked in a frigid tone, glaring at him down his nose.
"I had a name..." the hollow replied. "But my Alice King's forgotten, so I guess I'm no one. So it doesn't matter!"
He felt like he was being played around with. Inside of this senseless inner world, he felt nothing but pain, and saw nothing but darkness. This place, every time he visited, reminded him of somewhere he'd been before. Or this place, for that matter. He always felt at home here, and he didn't know why.
He sat in there, trying to fight his hollow's iron grip on control. Something crept up on him while he wasn't looking.
A soft skinned hand wrapped around his neck. A woman's voice whispered "I still love you...even though you killed me..." in his ear, the hand tightening. She screamed a minute later, and those soft pretty hands were replaced with cold pale ones.
"See what I have to go through? do you see what your heart is like?" his hollow whispered. "So guilty and naive, my sweet little Alice..." he wrenched control from his hollow, because he was so caught up in his pain.
He felt like a doll, just being toyed with. There were no such monsters in his heart.
"Isn't that what you'd like to believe, sweet King? You're always going to be blind. You're always going to be mine."
Well he would fight that if he had to. Blind, he could live with. But that monster, that insanity? That was something he could not deal with.
"You're my pretty little doll, wether you like it or not." here, the hollow smirked. "And you used to like it, before..."
Something struck home with him then. Something slammed into him, and for a moment, and just a moment, everything made sense.
How fleeting moments like these are.
OWARI
wooot! An actual story! I gots two test tomorrow and I haven't studied! You guys are lucky I love you so much! I forced myself to update instead of study. Guys, wish me luck!