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Kanan keyed in the code to Teyla quarters and hurriedly entered, removing his shirt as the door slid closed. Teyla was already there. She sat on the bed, her eyes and head averted down to the floor. She didn't look up to see who had come through the door, but Kanan guessed she knew who it was already. He was the only one that had the code to her Quarters, apart from the Colonel the sadatan and the scientist, but they had no reason to visit her at this time. Teyla rubbed at her injured arm and it was only when Kanan had softly called her name, in which she looked up, showing the nasty bruise that had started forming round her left eye. Kanan cringed; it must have been from where Keleb struck her' he thought, silently wishing he could kill the man in the most painful way possible.

"Oh sorry Kanan I was thinking" She said sadly, Kanan saw a wetness in her eyes, easily noticeable on the woman Athosian against her mocha tanned skin. He strode over to the bed, sitting beside her. He ran a gentle hand down the side of her face.

"About what?" he asked, watching as she closed her eyes, when he ran his fingers along the bruise on her face. She sighed.

"Just things" she put simply.

"Are you alright?" Teyla nodded then forced an unconvincing smile.

"Of course I am why I would not be?" she asked. Kanan looked at her sternly.

"Because you have been crying" she looked at Kanan, knowing she could trust him and tell him everything. She rubbed her arm again; it still throbbed painfully from where John had grabbed her, digging his finger nails in to her already painfully deep wound.

"John and I just had an argument" She said, Kanan's expression grew angry.

"Did he hurt you!?" he shouted, rising from the bed.

"Only with words" was her simple reply. She felt the tears threatening to show themselves again. She looked up at him.

"But I am starting to think he is right, in what he said" Kanan looked at her, confused

"What if they are gone Kanan, what if I couldn't protect them?" Kanan sat back down again. Putting a strong arm around her neck. Careful not to knock her wound. She relaxed against him, listing to his heart beat through his naked chest.

"As I told you before Teyla, you are a great leader and if they are indeed gone…" he looked down thoughtfully, holding his own tears back. "We still have each other and I will never let anything happen to you" His arms wrapped tighter around her and he held her as she cried.

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Rodney McKay stared down at the computer screen, tapping madly at the keyboard. A half eaten sandwich lay on a blue plate beside him accompanied by a mug of fresh coffee. He smiled smugly as he won yet another game of solitaire. He took a bite from his sandwich and then looked at Colonel Carter who had been silently watching him from across the briefing table.

"What" he said with a mouthful, bits of bread and Sam didn't want to know what else came flying out from his mouth and landed on the table. The Colonel rolled her eyes and tried to unsuccessfully hide a smile. Rodney frowned then went back to playing his game.

Ronon sat beside him, staring blankly out of the window. His eyes fixed in an icy gaze. He seemed dead to the world, lost in his thoughts. Then there was John. He sat furthest from anyone else, no trace of a smile on his face. His eyes were red and puffy, his skin pale and his expression, expressionless. He had not said word since he had been called for the debriefing. Occasionally he would tab his pen angrily on the notepad in front of him, mumbling what sounded like curses under his breath, but then he was silent. The door chimed and the whooshed open, reviling a Teyla on the other side. She cleared her throat as all eyes rested on her.

"Sorry overslept" she explained sheepishly and took her seat. Surprisingly she did not take her normal seat next to the Colonel, but sat next to Ronon instead.

"That's quite alright Teyla" Sam Carter said with a smile, then picked a folder up from off the table.

"Now tell me about your latest mission?" She ordered, taking a seat at the head of the table. Silence. John hadn't been listening to a single word, he had been to busy looking at Teyla out of the corner of his eye. The bruise on her face was nasty. Almost black ad then he thought back to the night before, how he had grabbed her injured arm, the way she had looked at him, her eyes pleading and filled with pain. Filled with distrust. Since she had walked in to the briefing room she had not once looked his way.

"Colonel?" John heard someone call him and snapped out of his thoughts.

"The desert planet?" Carter repeated

"It was the geni what else, the came the tried to find out the location of Atlantis but they didn't quite conquer. Teyla got shot, Ronon got angry, the bad guy got away and then we all came home now can we go!" Sheppard shouted, startling everyone by his sudden ferocity. The room was silent, even Ronon looked up wide eyed. Carter broke the silence.

"John are you felling alright?" She asked. He nodded.

"I'm fine, I just didn't get a lot of sleep last night" he said quietly, averting his gaze to Teyla. The door chimed once again and it opened to revile Doctor Keller. She walked in with a smile on her face.

"May I borrow Teyla please?" she asked innocently.

"What for?" Teyla asked the few words she had spoken since she had come in to the room.

"For your…you know what. I have to test you to see if the… thing is ok." she replied, Teyla frowned then looking down at her stomach a light bulb went off in her head.

"Oh yes right" Teyla looked at Sam for permission to leave. She nodded.

"Go ahead; I think we are just about done here. Oh and remember the party tonight" Sam winked. The Athosian got up from her seat. Nodded her head respectively at the Atlantis leader then turned to follow the doctor. John shot up from his seat chasing after her.

"Teyla!" he called, she came to a hesitant stop. John jogged up to the two women, he looked at Keller.

"Could we have a minute please?" Keller nodded then started for the infirmary. He turned to see Teyla glaring at him.

"What?" she said sharply, John swallowed.

"We need to talk" Teyla rolled her eyes.

"I have had enough of talking" she said, then started for the infirmary. John slammed a hand in to the wall beside her, so she couldn't go anywhere. She sighed heavily.

"Teyla I am sorry for last night, I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't mean to say those things. I was angry and drunk and…" Teyla cut him off.

"I don't want to hear your excuses John, because they are all lies. You have been treating me as If I was nothing more than an animal and now you can't bare the fact that I have actually found someone. He is the only one that understands what I am going through, the only one I can trust." She shouted, John looked down at her, his eyes watery and his mouth open.

"You can trust me" he said in a quiet whisper. Teyla looked him in the eye.

"Can i?" he was silent. She pushed his arm out the way and started down the corridor, her heels clicking crossly on the floor and her hair waving angrily behind her.

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Teyla gazed out over the ocean. Letting the wind play with her hair. The moons shone brightly in the sky, the waves whispered lullabies as they crashed against the tall walls of the city, making Teyla sleepy. The wind was soft with an icy chill, tickling her neck. The sky was darkening and the night was rapidly approaching. Tears lay unshed in her eyes her hands tightly gripped the rail in front of her, and her jaw was clenched strong and tight. The sounds of the night festivity were drowned by the thoughts that screamed in her head.

'What if I failed them? What if they are all dead?, will life ever be the same again?" Such thoughts, such feelings ran through her mind and heart as she stared blackly across the ocean. Strong arms wrapped around her, and she couldn't help but smile as she realized what it was. She tipped her head backwards and rested it on Kanan's chest. One of his hands instantly went down to her stomach, well the other rested lovingly on her shoulder.

"Why are you not having fun at the party?" he whispered in to her ear, his chin resting on the top of her head. She covered his hand on her stomach with hers and closed her eyes.

"I can not celebrate, not when they are out there" Kanan sighed, turning Teyla to face him, a stern look on his face and said.

"So you are not going to have fun until they are found?" leaving Teyla speechless. He was one of the few people who could leave her without words. He gazed down at her.

"Teyla, you have to rest once in a while. Now come in and enjoy the party, i believe it is for a ceremony one earth that is called Christmas?" teyla nodded, rolling her eyes.

"Yes it include lights, presents and a man in a big red suite" she explained, sating the later with a frown. Kanan smiled, extending a hand towards Teyla, she gratefully took it and let him lead her to where the party was.

Music blared through the mess hall, people danced and shouted, laughed and drunk. Ronon had never seen Atlantis so laid back before, it was nice. She thought of how her own people celebrated midwinter and sighed. They used to light a fire, which burned for two days and two nights, it used to burn bright. It would gather the people from the village and bring them together. Every waking moment was sped dancing, singing and sometimes drinking. Teyla looked over at the table of marines who had a huge glass the size of McKay ego of beer on the table. 'Guess some things never change' She thought to herself, laughing.

"What's so funny?" She hears Sam Carter ask from beside Rodney and snaps out of her thoughts, only then realizing she had laughed out loud.

"Nothing" she said gently putting a long arm round Kanan's neck and looking down at him. She was perched on his lap, with her back to Ronon, who was sitting on the arm of the chair. Jennifer Keller sat on the arm beside Kanan. Kanan's arms were wrapped tightly round her. He was smiling and for the first time, so was she. Same poured a glass of sparkling white liquid and passed it out. She poured one for Teyla and as she reached out to grab it she heard Jennifer clear her throat beside her. Glancing down at her stomach yet again. She politely declined the drink.

"I wonder where John is" Carter said, as she placed the glass down on the table. At his name Kanan tensed up, as did Teyla.

"I don't know, it's not like him to miss a party." Teyla said, her expression turning sour. She felt Kanan's grip on her get tighter at the very mention of his name. She didn't know why she was so angry at him; after all he had only said what she had been thinking, but he had no reason to hurt her, to get aggressive. Her arm still hurt, along with her heart. For the rest of the night, she just sat there, listening to the earth people talk about what the best Christmas they had was, what was the worst present they had ever gotten and what they had always wanted for Christmas. The conversation was heart warming and somewhat amusing and couldn't help but laugh when McKay had told the story of his insane aunt Mary who had somehow gotten him a poisons snake for Christmas. Talking about family made Teyla's heart clench, but she ignored it. Both the Athosians and the Atlantins were her family, and she wasn't giving up on either one of them.

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Kanan leaned heavily on Teyla, as she practically dragged him through the hall way to his quarters. He was clumsy as he walked tripping over his own feet more then once and nearly bringing Teyla down with him. She sighed heavily, rolling her eyes as he started singing again. He was indeed a man of many talents, but singing defiantly wasn't one of them. He stopped singing suddenly and came to a halt in the middle of the corridor, pulling Teyla in to his arms and hugging her tightly. She might have been the sober one but he was the stronger. A surprised squeal escaped her lips as he effortlessly picked her up and swung her round. She laughed as he set her down and looked down at her drunkenly. "We will go to your Quarters" he demanded, trying to stand up to his full height but swaying as he did so. He kissed her, completely missing her lips and getting her eye instead. She closed them with an amused smile.

"Bed" was all she said, he raised his eyebrows.

"With you" he tried seducingly but it came out as more of a slur. Teyla shook her head and sighed playfully.

"If you must" then dragged him away, with a little giggle.

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Well there you have it the next chapter. Trust, me when I say it is gonna be getting a little darker, believe me.

Some Teyla and team whump ahead

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