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John Sheppard stared a Teyla, his mouth open in startled shock. His eyes travailed down to her stomach, only then seeing the small bump that had developed over the months. How could he have not noticed it before? He asked himself.

"Pregnant?" he repeated, at Teyla's nod he cleared his throat, suddenly feeling uncomfortable.

"How… far along are you?" he asked, waving a wary hand towards her stomach. There was an uncomfortable silence before the young Athosian said anything.

"About three and a half months," she said, John rose from his seat, his eyes averted down to the floor.

"Why didn't you tell us?" he asked, trying to control the anger and frustration he now felt towards the Athosian woman.

"It was a hard time, Doctor Keller told me right after we arrived back from Athos, I knew you would take me off duty and that would mean to stop the search for my people." She explained. Not once looking at him.

"We would have kept searching Teyla, you would have just had to sit back." He said but was jumped when Teyla suddenly abruptly "Exactly, I would have had to sit back. I am held responsible for my people and not searching for them because of my condition would brand me a coward!" She shouted. The two friends were quiet. Teyla sunk down in to her seat again, her head falling in to her crossed arms on the table. Small shaky breaths came from her as she calmed down, Sheppard swallowed hard. She looked up at him through watery eyes.

"I thought when Kanan came through the gate, everything was turning round… but now that he is gone, I am alone again." Sheppard cleared his throat and rubbed the back of his head.

"I can't deal with this right now," he said and turned to leave, he turned his head give Teyla a sideways glance. A hurt expression played across her face.

"I'm sorry," he said, Teyla nodded her head, her eyes once again averting down to the floor. He sighed then left without so much as a second look back.

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When morning arrived, the team sat together for what seemed like the first time in weeks. Ronon was seated next to Teyla, who was opposite Rodney. John sat next to the scientist as he cleaned whatever he had left on his plate. He was sure Rodney was talking to him, but he was concentrating on something else. He felt an ache in his chest, as he gazed upon her upturned face. The team had been in the mess hall for over an hour and a half, and Teyla hadn't looked at him once. Thoughts that tumbled in his head screamed at him, telling him that he had over reacted the night before. Telling him that he should be happy for his Athosian, Telling him he had not acted like a friend and more like a jealous school boy. He sighed and squinted against the bright light that streamed through the window, making a rainbow of patterns on the mess hall floor. A cherry voice from behind him made his thoughts wither, as he looked up from the floor. Kanan came through the door, a smile etched upon his face. He was still pale, and bruises and cuts still masked his face, but he was happy and ready to face the morning.

"May I sit with you?" He asked politely, Teyla smiled sadly. 'Same old Kanan,' she thought to herself. Kanan took a seat on the other side of Rodney, who still set a goal in leaving nothing on his plate. He set his tray down, which held nothing more then a square of butter and two pieces of toast. He started spreading butter on to his toast then looked up, his expression thoughtful He dropped his knife and waved a hand in Teyla's direction.

"Hey did I ever thank you, for saving my life?" He asked, for the first time, Teyla looked up from the floor, nodding her head.

"No," as her simple answer. Kanan smiled.

"Well thank you" he said, with a charming smile. Teyla had lived for that smile. It was the gift that always greeted her when she came to stay on New Athos. The sight that met her in the morning and the sight she remembered when she left to go back to Atlantis. Teyla hadn't realized she had been staring at the man until Ronon elbowed her gently in her side. She shook her head and cleared her throat.

"Your welcome."

Teyla bowed her head, playing with the food that was left uneaten on her tray. She gazed up at Kanan, wishing somehow she could tell him what he meant to her, what they had together, but she couldn't, and it broke her heart to know that he didn't not love her anymore.

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