Chapter 5

Secrets

The silver Volvo went slower and slower until it completely stopped, I was sobbing. How could this happen? Is Billy insane? What about Sam?! He is the leader of the pack will they go after me if he says so? Would Jacob hurt me? Or even kill me? I didn't want to even think about that. What about Carlisle and Esme and tiny Alice, and even... I couldn't even bring myself to think his name. Oh! Suddenly I felt his presence he pulled me onto his lap I laid against his cold chest sobbing. I breathed out slowly.

"what is it Bella? What did he do now?"

I opened my mouth prepared to tell him everything, but suddenly I felt a strange thing that I had never felt before when I was with him. I lied. "he doesn't except our engagement." lying made me want to cry more. "I didn't really expect him too but we were having such a great time swimming and.." I couldn't go on.

"its my fault love I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have.." I put my finger on his freezing icy lips.

"no shh! Stop blaming yourself Edward everything isn't your fault. It doesn't matter I suppose. He is going to hate me as soon as I make the change so he'll probably never ever be my Jacob ever again. And YES I made the right decision. So don't even try to pull all that crap on me, I love you and I want to be with you for forever and all eternity."

He breathed out, I was glad that Alice couldn't see the future of the werewolves because otherwise that lie was completely pointless.

Once I stopped crying he slid into the drivers seat and drove us home. He sighed, "our flight is in an hour. That was the soonest we could go and Charlie says to leave as soon as possible, the sooner the better."

That was confusing but fine. "so we're not going home?" I fidgeted in my seat.

"stopping by my house to get our things, is that alright love?"

"yes, I am going home." I murmured to myself, although I was sure he could hear it. "its fine Edward how long are we staying with Renée?"

"just the weekend. You do remember that the wedding is in two weeks right?"

I stopped breathing. I totally forgot, awh crap. "don't worry, Alice has a beautiful dress picked out for Renée."

I smiled and sighed, oh well. We pulled up to the house, it still looked beautiful in the hard rain. "wanna play a game?" he asked excitedly.

"sure. What game?"

"dodge-rain." I laughed he picked me up and he ran, and sure enough I made it into the house perfectly dry.

"Bella! I'm going to miss you this weekend." she bit her lip, and hugged me.

I sighed, "what's wrong Alice?" awh crap was Billy an exception to her vision thingy? If so I'm so screwed.

"nothing Bells, your mom is going to flip. That's all." I could still see something in her eyes, I just couldn't identify what it was.

I sighed again, well I knew that mom loves Edward. I smiled and hugged her back. "chillax sis, man you psychics are going to be the death of me!" she laughed and kissed my cheek.

"you really think of me as your sister?" she whispered in a sing song way.

"I always have Alice, you excepted me so easily. I love you for that. You're my best friend." I squeezed her tightly.

"come on Bella lets go or I'll have to drive really fast to get there on time." I shivered.

"bye Bells." she laughed.

When we got off the plane it was dark and Phil and Renée came to meet us. There we were hugged to death. It was good to see my mom. Edward and I agreed when we went out to dinner tonight we would announce our engagement. The thought made me hyperventilate.

"Bella you look so pretty! doesn't she look gorgeous Edward?!" Renée mused.

"yes she does, Renée, she gets her looks from you." what a suck up.

Edward and I slid in the back seat of Phil's red mustang. "so where too kids?"

"howa bout that Italian restaurant that you like so much dear?"

"perfect!" I hadn't talked to Phil lately, but I didn't remember that he was this…enthusiastic.

We made it to the house so Edward and I could change. "what should I wear?" I turned to him, he gazed up at me dazzling me again.

"something your mom gave you maybe?" He suggested.

"Thank you! Have I ever told you your the best?"

"many times,"

I got out a turquoise sun dress that my mom gave me. I slipped it on and spun around. "you look amazing. Completely beautiful."

I kissed his cheek, "thanks. So its not too much?"

"for me to bare, yes. But considering the condition absolutely not."

We sat down, the restaurant was really beautiful, Italian food on the beach. Amazing. Edward looked amazing and godlike under the full moon and candlelight. Mom and Phil were sharing spaghetti and Edward was fiddling with his ravioli. I guess he only ordered it not to be rude. He stuck a piece into his mouth, I laughed at his reaction. He looked like he was going to throw up, his face flushing which was extremely hard to do considering he was already snow white. "something wrong with the ravioli Edward?" Phil asked.

"no," he paused. "just nervous I guess." he dropped the bite off the fork back onto his plate.

"why are you nervous Edward?" Renée looked concerned.

I eyed him. "I have some news I'd like to share with you, well its not only mine.." his musical voice trailed off.

"its mine to, well here's the thing mom. You know that I love Edward a lot."

"and I love her." he added.

"well a couple months ago he did something pretty drastic."

"its very natural for me, I knew this would happen the second I saw her Renée, as I'm sure you know." he added.

I couldn't read her face, it was shocked and confused at the same time. "he purposed to me mom. And I said yes."

"Isabella may I speak to you in the little girls room for a moment."

"of course mom." I eyed Edward, Phil was already scooting over beside him.

"so son," Phil started, I'm sure this is why we were leaving.

Even the bathroom was elegant, and beautiful. Mom ran all through the bathroom shooing anyone who was inside. "what are you thinking young lady?!" she shouted.

"what?" I was shocked.

" You're only eighteen and your engaged! Oh Bella! You were so responsible!"

"I still am Mom! I'm still the same Bella!"

"no you're not. I don't approve of this!" she shouted.

"Charlie does!" I counteracted.

"well if you haven't noticed darling Charlie and I are not married so I don't have to agree with his decisions."

"I thought you would be happy for me mom, not being cruel."

"you think I'm being cruel. My only daughter is throwing her life away to a well dressed, handsome, rich man she barely knows. In fact I've never even met his family!"

"I do know Edward MOM! His family is amazing too and I don't care if he is rich or any of that mom love is deeper than that! And so is he!"

"why are you doing this darling? Are you pregnant?!"

"Oh my GOD! Mother I am not pregnant! Edward can't even have children, and what if I was pregnant?! Would you hate me then? Would you disinherit me?"

"I wouldn't disinherit you Isabella Marie, but I'm not coming to the wedding. I will allow you to throw your life away but I wont be a part of it."

I was sobbing now, "what?! So you're just going to not go to your only daughters wedding?! This is the only wedding I'm ever going to have!"

"no, I'm not. I will except him and be nice to him but I'm not going to be there and don't expect visits from me. And you can't guarantee that he will be the only man you'll ever marry. I married twice."

"but I only love Edward, he is the only guy I ever want. He is my air my spirit, he is my life. He is everything I will ever need. Mom I really want you there."

"no end of conversation." she straitened her hair out with her hands.

I stood in shock at the woman who nursed me and loved me, who was suddenly transformed into some other person all together.