Chapter 11

Desperate for words, Desperate for you

Alice had let go of me, I spun around to be face to face with Edward. "how was shopping love? Di.." before he could finish I was kissing him, pulling myself closer and closer pressing as hard as I could against his granite lips. He let his lips move with mine, I was in deep true desperate love with him. I wanted to kiss him forever another day without him tomorrow. He pulled away I tried to force him back on me but he was to strong it was like trying to push a bolder out of the road, useless and painful. I exhaled loudly showing him I wasn't happy.

"go upstairs and let Alice play dress up she will drive you somewhere, let her and I will see you in an hour or so my lovely almost in a day Mrs. Edward Cullen." I smiled to the Mrs. Edward Cullen part, frankly I smile to anything that has his name in it, but I frowned deeply at the see you in an hour and let Alice play dress up part.

"what ever you say, Mr. Edward Cullen." his smile widened and he kissed me softly and then disappeared. I huffed out warm air and made it upstairs to Alice.

"well you know what to do, have at it! This is the last time we're playing dress up Alice, not counting the wedding." she looked at me confused and then her face went blank for a minute and then she grinned widely.

"you know I don't have to do that much, I've seen what you look like and it wont take much, but you will be gorgeous Bella and he is going to love it!" she dragged me to the closet and pulled out something she bought today. "I bought this for myself," she put her head down sheepishly, "but it looks so good on you. You can have it." in a blink of an eye I was wearing it I looked at myself in the mirror, she was right I was gorgeous.

The dress was black and satin it was sparkling purple and was strapless, my boobs were pushed up by my face showing a lot of cleavage. Maybe a little more than I was comfortable with. It was short, just brushing my knees. Suddenly I wish I would have shaved. She slipped on sparkly ballet flats that matched the dress and handed me a box. I looked at it. "Edward wanted me to give this to you." it was a silver heart shaped locket, "he said something about a hand-me-down?" I smiled. I opened it, on the right side there was a tiny black and white picture of Edwards parents, I gasped they were gorgeous. Of course look at their son. But wow, for humans they were beautiful. On the left side there was a picture of Edward and I, he was kissing my head and it appeared as if I was asleep. I looked very peaceful and surprisingly pretty. They must have brushed my hair down and added a little make up before taking this picture but it was very pretty I loved it. It was very spontaneous. I put it on. Alice had to help me with the tiny clasp but it felt good on, like the ring it felt as if it was meant to be there. Alice started working on my hair and makeup in vampire speed and when she was done I was stunned. This couldn't be me.

I looked at myself in the mirror, my hair was tied up in a purple ribbon and a few curly strands came down to match my face. I had light pink lipstick on and dark purple eye shadow and dark mascara. I was like a Goth princess. Despite the fact that I was too pretty to be Goth. Alice smiled triumphantly. "well we better go, Edward will be getting impatient." I slipped into 'Bumble Bee' and we were driving at the speed of light I blinked and we were somewhere I'd never seen before.

It looked as if we were in the middle of a forest. "time for the blindfold, you're walking from here princess." I looked at Alice. What is it with her obsession with blindfolds? Did she really think I could walk by myself? I don't even know where we are or where we are going. I couldn't even walk with full eyesight let alone blind.

Soon it was dark, stupid blindfold. Suddenly I was in icy arms, these arms didn't belong to Alice. I was in the arms of my angel.

"you look beautiful." he whispered tugging on my dress.

"where are we, Edward? Please, I want to see." I put my hands up to the blindfold. In a split second it was off and so was my dress. I opened my mouth shockingly. Then looked down. Eh my gawd! Why hadn't I noticed that before? Alice had slipped a bathing suit under my dress. One we got at Victoria Secret today. If it wasn't for the padding and push-upness of it I would have noticed. I looked at Edward he was shirtless.

At that moment I couldn't decide if this was a dream or a nightmare. Then I looked around. Yup this was definitely a dream. I looked in awe at my surroundings. We were on a waterfall. There was a nice little boat down at the bottom of it with a picnic blanket and food on it. Then it dawned on me, "Edward do you want to know something about me?" he looked at me, his liquid topaz eyes got wide.

"like a secret?"

"exactly like a secret." I smiled at him and kissed his cold chest, looking back up at him.

"you know I'm always interested in things about you Bella. Tell me."

"I hate swimming." my face turned upward in a huge grin. I thought about wiggling away and being devilish to him and hurt his feelings just to tape them back up with kisses, but I changed my mind as fun as that sounded I liked being this close to him with his shirt off. He was unbearable, too much to bare.

"too bad." I opened my mouth to disagree with him but too soon we were floating off the cliff. What's with the guys I know and throwing me off cliffs? Its very rude.

The water was warm and that's when I noticed it was sunny out. I surfaced searching for Edward, he was no where to be found. I looked everywhere then suddenly I huge freezing gust of wind flew over me. I looked up and Edward was swinging on a rope swing and plummeting in a cannon ball at least a foot away from me. I screamed and tried to swim away before I was covered in water.

Before I could even consider surfacing I felt something cold and slimy brush my face. Of course your first thought would be, FISH or SNAKE! I did think that, but would a fish or a snake be kissing my lips? I hoped not that would be weird, plus it would make Edward jealous. I laughed at the thought of him wanting to murder a fish or snake because they were getting a little to happy with his fiancée. We surfaced still kissing.

I let go laughing and catching my breath spitting water at him. "do you want to try.." so many thoughts were rushing through my head at that moment, is that why he brought me here? I was considering going back on my word and just doing it right then and there. I was wide eyed and my cheeks were probably as purple as my dress, I wonder where my dress had gone? "Bella? Are you listening to me?"

I opened my mouth to reply, but just shook my head no.

"do you want to try the swing?" I let out my breath, I'm so stupid. I don't know why I always get off into my own little fantasy world.

"sure." I forced a smile. He bought it thankfully. I didn't want to have to explain what I was thinking to him, not right now. Not while we were together. Not the only time I got to spend with him before the wedding. This and tonight was going to be our last moments together as fiancée's. the thought made me happy that we would be husband and wife soon enough but it also made me sad that I wouldn't be able to call him my fiancée any more. Weird.

He helped me climb up the rocks, okay he carried me up the rocks. He showed me how to work the swing and then I held on, stuck my foot in the noose and pushed off. A scream escaped my throat. It wasn't a scared scream, this was exhilarating. It was like running with Edward but not as fast and not quite so breathtakingly terrifying. Just as instructed when I got right into the middle of the water I let go.

A scream of horror escaped Edwards lips. I had let go but my leg was tangled in the noose at the bottom of the swing. I was hanging upside down and swinging my head flying toward the cliff edge. that's when I knew I was going to die.