Chapter 14

In your arms, forever I'll be

I refused to open my eyes, I was so tired and I knew when I woke up I would have to leave Edward. That was going to be difficult. "Bella," he whispered my name but I refused to open my eyes. I tried to calm my heart rate, but trying made it accelerate. I tried to force a snore, or some other sleeplike quality that would make him think I was asleep.

My fake snore came out more like a snort, and he started laughing shaking the bed. Then I couldn't hold it in my eyelids fluttered open and I started laughing too.

"you are too hilarious Bella." he mused. His eyes were dark topaz, he was going to need to hunt today, I knew especially if we were going to be alone for quite awhile before my change. I smiled at that thought. Technically we weren't alone now, we were never truly alone. He ruffled my chocolate tangles. "you need to shower, love."

"oh so now I stink?!" I forced searching his face hoping he would break back into laughter, I felt all tingly I wanted to laugh more with him. He was right when he said before that in this house they could be themselves. He was truly Edward when we were here. No boundaries, with the exceptional boundary that only effected me. But either way this was him, and only him and I loved it.

"of course not, but you did go swimming yesterday and came home and went straight to bed so I figured you would want a shower." he was so caring, I looked down. We were both still in our bathing suits. I felt very self conscious at that moment. I pulled the blanket up to my chin and rolled over.

"no I just want to sleep." he was under the covers with me and his arm was soon around me. He pulled my closer and turned me to look at him. We were so close and he was a bit hungry it made me nervous for him, this must be torture for him. I blushed deep scarlet.

"I don't know why you're hiding, your completely gorgeous." I blushed deeper my face was blazing. "may I compare thee to a summers day?" he whispered. I knew he meant the sun as he quoted one of my favorite poems. He loved the sun, he loved the warmth and in comparing me to that, that meant he loved me too. Of course I knew that but still, he thought I was beautiful. Me ms. Plane Jane herself, Isabella Marie Swan. Come on talk about ms. Generic USA! But still…

"I cant compare to Rosalie or Alice." I encountered, "or any other vamp girl for that matter."

"you're right, Bella." I knew I was right but maybe I heard him wrong. I hope I did. "they aren't even -686,790,875,644,567,688,090,952,000 that beautiful compared to you." I wasn't sure that was even possible, those girls were more beautiful then models and he thought I was that much more gorgeous then them. It was shocking. I didn't even know that number existed, and I couldn't repeat it for my life.

I blushed, "I'll take that shower now I think," he kissed my forehead and nodded and in an instant he was gone.

"you guys will see each other tomorrow." Alice rolled her eyes at Edward and I. my eyes were tearing up, I couldn't help it I was really going to miss him today.

"I know." we both muttered staring into each others eyes.

"you can go hunting." I told him kissing a purple circle under his right eye.

"I don't wanna." he whispered playfully. His thumb made circles on my lower back and I squashed myself closer to him, he didn't object thankfully.

"you are aware I'm going to look different next time I see you." I told him, Alice assured me that I was going to look completely gorgeous but I wasn't to sure how he was going to react.

"I know," he murmured smiling. "Alice is having mental hysterias, you better go. I'll hunt if it will make you feel better." he squeezed me tightly molding us together for a moment.

"mental and physical hysterias. She is hyperventilating." I forced a sad giggle, and blushed deeply thinking about something embarrassing so he could see that deep blush that he loved so much. "when you're feeling okay, I feel okay. Right now you don't feel very good. You need food just as much as I do. Maybe I should be just as pushy as you are." he sighed agreeing with me letting me go after pressing his icy lips to mine.

I eyed Angela curiously, "what about Ben?" she looked down sheepishly.

"well, we kinda.." Jessica squealed. Lauren gaped at her wide eyed. Then what she had said dawned on me. Eh my goodness! they had done…

"yeah.." Jessica was giggling, we were all sitting in the sauna in white towels sweating bullets. The room was filled with a deep fog to where we had to squint to see each other. Angela was sitting extremely close to me so I could see her clearly, apparently I'm not the only one who looks like a tomato when she's embarrassed.

"soo…" Lauren pressed, I felt bad for Angela this was obviously a touchy subject for her.

She blushed deeper, "it was…" both girls were staring at her deeply, I blushed for her then as I saw her look down I wondered if she was ashamed of it, I would have to ask her later when we were alone.

"so Jess, how are you and Mike?" I looked at her, pink fluttered across her flawless face.

"its horrible." she glared at me, ever since Edward had left and I was depressed she had been very angry at me. When I did things like that, that embarrassed her she gave me the death stare. It cut a deep hole inside me. "we barely even kiss, he's still completely obsessed with you Bella."

I felt bad, I could see Angela feeling sorry for me when Lauren popped into the conversation.

"what about you and Mr. Edward-completely-perfect-Cullen?" I tried to keep my face the same, but blush crept over my skin making it sizzle a bit with fire.

"well, we kiss a lot." the three girls squealed, "but that's as far as we've gotten. He is very old fashioned." I exhaled knowing I disappointed them.

"old fashioned? How can you stand that?" Lauren shot.

"I like it, the way he is, is what I fell in love with."

"love?" Jessica questioned, staring at me. Like she didn't already know.

"mmm huh." I murmured and this time Angela was the only one who squealed. "he does the most romantic things for me though." I told them.

They moved in closer to me, beckoning me to continue. "well, just yesterday he had Alice get me all dressed up and without me knowing it she slipped a bathing suit on me and he took me to the most gorgeous cliffs and we went swimming." I told them about yesterday, leaving out the part about me falling and thinking I was dead.

They 'oooo'd' and 'awhhhhhh'd' waiting me to tell them another adorable Edward moment. "he sneaks through my window every night after Charlie goes to sleep." they gasped and giggled slapping me playfully.

"for how long?" Jessica said between playful giggles.

"every night for the past year plus a few months." I giggled. So much for a 'girls day away from Edward' all we were doing was talking about boys.

"eh my gawd!" Angela managed between gasps and giggles. "and how does he manage that?"

"he walks down to my house and sneaks in through the window." I laughed loudly shaking.

Lauren and Angela gaped at me, "and Charlie doesn't catch you two?" Jessica questioned, what is this an interrogation. Am I on candid camera?

"only once, in the morning on the weekend. that's when I told him I was engaged."

"how did he react to that?" the steam had rose so I didn't see who had said that. I leaned my head back against the head rest.

"he flipped out then got all calm and gave me his blessing. But Renée disowned me, she hates me and isn't even coming to the wedding. Can you believe that? I thought I could die. If Edward would have let me, I would have." I forced a laugh, but tears formed instead I touched the dial and turned up the heat and leaned back and let the black mist swallow me.