A/N: This is the shortest chap In this story (at least I think so) :D But I like it. And I don't think Kiba would write so much in his Diarythingy right now (lol).
Well, read and enjoy :D
I hope that mom or Hana won't find this. I'm gonna hide it under my boxers, 'cause they would never touch my boxers.
… Damn… I should just go and hid under a big rock or something and rot for eternity.
I practically raped Hinata. I didn't know if she wanted it or anything, I just continued. I couldn't stop myself. I just love and want her too much. Dammit. I don't know what I should do, I mean… I can't undo it in any way, and I can't give her back her virginity. I wish I could talk to someone about this, but who? I don't know any grown ups I trust like that. And I can't talk to mom, 'cause she would totally kill me, Kurenai would do the same and The Hokage is an old fatty bitch. Dammit. And I can't talk to Shino, 'cause he would look at me with those scary eyes you can't barely see through his sunglasses and then say that I have myself to blame and that I shouldn't disturb him with my problems.
I maybe should talk with Hinata… To tell her that I'm really sorry, and that I'll make it up to her in any possible way. I don't wanna lose her as a friend… She means too much to me. I wanna tell her I'm sorry, but I don't know if she wants to talk to me… When we walked home now this morning, we didn't speak or look at each other. We even kept a distance in about 19 feet, she first, and then me.
I wonder how she feels… I wish that I could undo it, but I can't.
Why do I always mess up things like this?! Why?! I don't understand! Dammit!
I really should talk to her… But what should I say? I'm not even sure of what I did or said to her, so I don't know what she thinks of me. I think that I could've confessed to her, but I'm not sure… I actually hope that I confessed to her, 'cause then she knows why I slept with/raped her. I gotta talk to her soon. As soon I've figured out to say.
I hope she don't hate me… If she does, I don't know what I'll do… I don't care if she loves me or not, as long I can have her as my friend.
I think I'm gonna go take a shower and think it all over…
Kiba