Yeah, wow, I got this part written in one sitting. But I feel like I super rushed it…I usually take days on these things cause I'm so busy.
So yeah, it may be rushed. X.X I promise it's worth reading; I finally got to a good main part!
Nothing about today was good. Nothing. Sakura sat in her fourth period lunch, twirling around her water bottle, and resting her hand in her head. Quite frankly, Temari thought the Haruno was extremely depressed. She was slumped over, spaced out in class earlier, and was totally withdrawn. She hadn't even touched her lunch yet; only a few sips of water. Tenten hinted at it, and by now, everyone surrounding her knew something must have been wrong.
"So, Sakura…" The Haruno glanced up at her blonde haired superior. "You gonna get a good date for homecoming?"
She shook her head, looking back down. "I don't even think I want to go."
"Oh, but some guys already asked you! And there's probably more gonna ask too!" Her green eyes met Tenten in a bored, yet gloomy manor.
"I'm just not into it this time. Forget it." Her head fell back down. She just wanted to think and be left alone, she really did. Ever since yesterday's news with Kakashi, all she could think about is what to do. She did feel rather indifferent, knowing he didn't feel anything towards her. But somehow, though there almost was nothing there, she had to find some way into his heart; to belong somewhere in his life. Agh, but HOW!? What in Sasuke's life is missing besides a fucking girlfriend? I can't take that place…no way. I want to ask Kakashi…but I've bugged that man enough for the time being. Maybe-
"What about Sasuke?" Her head perked up towards Temari; hearing that name hit some sort of specific brain nerve to listen in. The blonde smiled; maybe this would work.
"What about him?" Sakura asked rather intently. She had to know what was going on to have them playing around with his name.
"I was thinking…maybe if we get Sasuke to go to Homecoming with you, then maybe you'd go after all."
Just the thought of it made her stomach churn over a dozen butterflies. She'd always get that feeling, thinking of the Uchiha in a fond manor, or on that certain level showing some soft of love. It drove her a bit crazier inside, seeing how they weren't so close anymore. "Oh, I couldn't. I mean, he can't like me that way. Sasuke is Sasuke and…there's gotta be someone going with him already."
The fourth year just grinned; Sakura was red, flustered, and nervous at the thought of it. If she did ask, Sakura would have her dream date, and possibly the relationship she's craved for so long. How couldn't she benefit? Besides, it wasn't evident to Temari, and the other three girls that this is what she wanted, badly. "Why not try? He went last year with no one in specific; you should have gone last year. But this year you have fallen for him more than ever…so why not just take the risk? It's like your asking him out of nowhere; I'll be doing it."
"OH! And me!" Tenten waved her arm in the air. "Believe me, something this huge I GOTTA help with!"
The rosette couldn't say much else. Perhaps taking this chance would show something through? Maybe this could prove her teacher wrong that he's not just testing her or curious. Sasuke could just be waiting for her to do something like this; maybe it was that sort of test? "Well, okay…" She snapped to serious suddenly, "But do NOT shove it on him outta the blue! Like, ease it onto him or something!"
The female with buns smiled widely, standing up, "Ma'am yes ma'am!"
Temari pulled her back down, looking at Sakura. "Look, we'll do what we can. I won't blow this for you though, so calm down. And Tenten's pretty good with this stuff."
Everyone at the table went quite after that last comment. It was a moments pause, just to gather thoughts. Ino hadn't spoken a word this whole time, nor had Hinata. The Hyuuga wanted to join in, but was a bit occupied reading; she wasn't good with such things. And Ino knew she didn't have a chance, compared to Sakura. She knew perfectly well what used to be between Sakura and the Uchiha. He'd always failed to notice Ino, since she really didn't even care to try.
The rosette unscrewed the waters cap, taking a small sip. Her eyes remained concentrated into the table as she thought. Sasuke…what if I do end up going with him? Perhaps he's just been waiting for me to take a chance as a test…to actually show some sort of new emotion for him. If I take a risk for the first time…if I try…he's just gotta accept.
Clutching her books tightly as she walked down the hall, the pressure and fluttering in her gut grew more as she approached the theater. Temari had art last period with him; Sakura herself didn't know if he'd given an answer to her. She didn't know if the fourth year had even asked him. This left her on the edge of confusion and wonder; had she asked? If she did, was it a yes or a no? Or maybe he'd just hold off?
Oh, what if he wants to tell me himself!? God…that'd be the best ever!
She entered the theater, trying not to look around too much for him. If the rosette did catch his eye, she assumed, he'd hop down off the stage, or approach her, asking her himself. Sakura could feel the chills running up her back at the image of this happening. The possibility it could happen anytime soon.
But around him, just him, she was incredibly shy. In the past, they could talk forever and it didn't really mean too much to her. Just getting a glance these days gave her the light as a feather feeling, or frozen in shock, wide eyed stance. It only meant so much to her because, now that'd she realized she really lost him, her love for him just grew more, as did the small things he did towards her.
Sakura set her things down in the usual spot, looking back on the stage for Sasuke as she went back for the doors. No one was up there yet. She saw him earlier, so she knew he was around; all she had to do was wait for his body to float into the room.
Sighing, and trying to calm down from being so worked up and nervous, she started the few stair climb. Only, when she reached the top step a few feet from the door, a raven carrying a cello stepped in. Her heart heaved so heavily, she froze and looked right at him. It was more screaming at her in alert so split, but she ended up doing the complete opposite. To why this happened, Sakura had no clue. As she stood there, he happened to give her a small glance before continuing down. The look was meaningless; she quickly scurried down the hall and turned into the instrument hall to get her things. She felt extremely stupid for watching him and staring like that.
This Monday just wasn't her day.
Shaking her head, and trying to ignore the pounding in her chest, Sakura got her instrument, staring off though. If that's all he did…nothing's changed. There's no way Temari got the chance to ask him then. She exited the storage room, rather relived she wouldn't have to face something like this so soon. I'll have to wait tomorrow till lunch to get my answer…
Tuesday had already came; a new school day. However, Sakura was at her locker, gathering her things to go to English then lunch following after. And all she did last night besides her homework was think about Sasuke, and how things would turn out. She hadn't gotten a chance to see Temari or Sasuke yet; they did have study hall first period together, so she assumed the blonde asked.
The rosette's mind daintily drifted on and off the subject Sasuke Uchiha as she gathered her things slowly, but gracefully. Last night she was also imagining what dress she'd wear to homecoming, and how it'd go with his tuxedo so well. She planned to stay after Biology today to talk to Kakashi about the whole situation right now; he'd write her a pass to study hall anyway. If she hadn't gotten the news yet on his answer, he'd probably say something like (when she told him about asking Sasuke,) "Think about all perspectives of this. Hold offs, yes, and no. He could have a date, or may not be going." Sakura knew this much, too, but couldn't see why he'd say no. It was fine if he said no because he had a date, and probably if he wasn't going. She'd swear to rid or the girl he was going with, but she doubted anyone had asked him.
The Uchiha was just any other guy after all.
Sakura shut her locker, and put the lock on, turning to go down the hall. But she happened to catch an aqua-marine eye drifting into hers. Temari's eye. Quickly, she caught up to her friend. "Temari! Did you ask?!" The blonde refused to look at her friend.
"Yes, I asked."
The Haruno was ready to hit the ceiling in anxiety. "And?!"
She tried to pull ahead, "I'll tell you in lunch. Go get to class and concentrate on that reading check of yours."
Leaving me on edge I see. Alright, I see how she wants to do this… Now literally ready to jump from a cliff for the answer, Sakura giddily made her way into the English room. She was in such a good mood to await the answer, she knew she'd get over a one-hundred on this.
A shattering noise sounded as the Haruno entered the lunch room, slamming her books on the table. She pulled her chair out, sitting down across from the blonde female.
Temari cringed slightly, knowing Sakura wanted the answer right now. If she could, she'd hold off for the rest of her life on divulging such information. She'd try and stall as long a she could.
"Hey Sakura!"
She smiled widely at the Hyuuga, "Hello Hinata! Fine day isn't it?" The tone sounded, and Sakura started to eat the sandwich she'd brought in her lunch. Temari started talking with Tenten and Ino, and Hinata went back to reading like she did yesterday.
The rosette swallowed her food; she was going to ask her friend what the outcome had been. Every nerve in her body was on end, her stomach churned with a bitter lightness, and her cheeks tinted a slight pink. She was completely excited to hear the decision. "So, Temari…"
The blonde paused from her conversation, looking right into the green eyes across from hers. They twinkled with delight.
"No."
Temari watched the twinkling stop; the green eyes turned dead neutral; confused. Sakura wasn't to sure if this sharp no meant she refused to tell her, or worse. If this was his answer. She was certain she didn't understand. "What-?"
"Sakura, he said no."
Everyone at the table fell silent, watching the emerald eyes die. Temari didn't think the outcome would be this bad, not even this close. Just from her eyes and the sudden loosening of the body, it looked as if Sakura had been crushed from the inside. As if her heart had been ripped from her body, thrown on the table, and chopped into pieces before her eyes. The guilt build inside the blonde, watching Sakura's head drop slightly as she went to sip from the water.
She wasn't even talking at this point; not even a simple 'oh' came out. Everything the Haruno had left from the day before had just been destroyed inside her.
She sipped on the water before capping it and staring down to finally soak this in. Sasuke…said no. He…he really…-no. So nothing is there; he doesn't…want to go with me. I…I just put my heart on the line…for the first time…and he crushes it. I just…from that time…to now. I can't…believe it…
Sakura's hand found its way to block her eyes, just to stare at the surface beneath her. It was just in time to. The oversized tears began to fall from her eyes, some down her cheeks, other right onto the table. Still, everyone was silent, taking in her reaction. Even Ino felt sorry for her friend, though none of them could really comprehend what Sakura was feeling on the inside. None of them had tried to chase after a lover and take a chance for the first time, only to be shot down.
Never had Sakura cried like this in her life. Never had she felt so depressed and grieved so badly. The tears made her face a mess, widely rolling down in every zigzag and as quickly as they could. Even the snot from her nose was seeping out. But she let it do so; she didn't care if she couldn't breath, or what she looked like. All she cared about was the fact he said no.
Temari wasn't saying anything at all; it meant he didn't have a date, and that he most likely was going. He just didn't want to go with her. Rather he did it to crush her, or just because he never really felt that way she wouldn't know.
Hinata attempted to try and hug he friend, only to be shrugged off. More sadness overcame the Haruno; her friends could hear the clogged nose sounds of trying to breath, and the crying noise someone made when they inhaled or breathed. It was that bad.
It was amazing to all of them how a simple no from someone could crush a person's hopes and dreams entirely; so send such a huge message out of, 'I don't feel the same way as you do. And I won't return that feeling of love to that delicate heart of yours.'
DX Chapter end. Sort of a cliffhanger there, yeah? Hope it was worth reading.
TT-TT you can't help but feel bad for poor Sakura.
