okay heres the nect chapter. srry it took awhile but eglish exams started and are a week long so im tryin to focus on pasin em'. hope you like this chapter. please R&R. thanks to all have reviewed already.

Ch.5

"damn, damn, damn, DAMN!!! How could I be so stupid?to actually think that Tommy cared for me. If he cared he wouldn't have slept with my sister AND kept the selling of G-Major a secret from me. I mean, I could have forgiven him for the G-Mayjor thing but nooooooo, he just had to go and screw up everything again, like he always seems to do. Ho-ho-how c-could he do this to me" Jude ranted out loud slightly breaking down at the end, as she tried to figure out where she could go.

Not over to Jamie's, since Kat was staying the night. No she would not appreciate that, probably accuse me of trying to steal her boyfriend again, even though I'd stopped thinking of him in that way long ago. I can't go to Speeds cause I broke up with him so I'm just screwed. How the hell can I have no place to go? How had I gotten to a place where I couldn't rely on my own friends?

Thinking it over she decided she'd had enough. Enough of trying to help Sadie when it was a losing battle, enough of having to take care of the house all by herself, enough of Kat hating her guts because of something she had no control over, enough of pining away after Tommy when all he did was hurt her over and over again. He'll probably come after me, beg my forgiveness.

"should I forgive him?" Jude asked herself out loud trying to come up with a solution.

"Yes" she wouldn't let him and Sadie make her bitter, its not like I was dating him or anything, but I wont forget. I cant let him keep hurting me like this.

"I'll get my own place!" it came to her all of a sudden.

She was 16 after all and could get her own apartment, all she had to do was get her parents signature and since she'd perfected forging theirs when she was younger it would be a problem. She had all the money she needed what with record sales. with her own apartement she wouldnt have to deal with Sadie's daily dramas. if Sadie was old enough to sleep with Tommy she was old enough to take care of herself to.

Suddenly she felt happy. She knew what she was going to do with her life. She would move out and live on her own. And deciding, she'd had enough of guys. All of them were just complete assholes not caring for anyone but themselves any way, so I don't need them. I can take care of myself all on my own.

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"Tommy come back to bed, please, we can have so much fun." Sadie was saying a bit drunk still.

Looking at her, Tommy felt a burst of disgust, some for her but also a hole heck of alot for himself. how could he have just down.. that with...her. At the sound of her voice Tommy felt a sudden burst of anger.

"Is that all you can think about? Your SISTER just walked in on us and your not the least bit worried?"

"Nah, Jude and you aren't dating so I don't see why I would. Its none of her business who I date. oh-my-god I'm dating little Tommy Q!!!" Sadie screeched happily at the end, as though it finally hit her what she and Tommy had done.

"No, uhuh, we are not dating, no way. What just happened should not have happened. I'm sorry Sadie but it shouldn't of. You must think nothing of Jude's feelings at all for you to act like this."

"oh, Tommy don't be like that we know we both wanna be dating so lets just do it, Jude can take care of herself."

"Sadie I knew you were selfish but I didn't know that you were like this to your own sister. I've gotta go find Jude and explain, try to get her to forgive me, forgive us, if she can."

With that said Tommy quickly walked out the Sadie's room, and left their house so quickly he didnt here her quietly whisper "we will date, you'll see."

He stood outside for maybe 10 minutes trying to think of where Jude might have gone and came up clueless. Would she even talk to him after what she'd seen?