Yippee heres another ch. i didnt think i would have another for awhile but i finished my homework so im super happy. next one wont be for about a week. srry this might ot be the ch. you wont but i cant make it to easy for tommy. plz R&R. thanx to everyone who has so far. i own nothing of instant star.

You Make Me Wanna YELL

As soon as Jude got into his car she knew she had made a mistake. She should have just called Sadie rather then subject herself to this type of torture. Studying him out of the corner of her eye, hoping he wouldn't notice, she couldn't help but admire how good looking he was. If only he was ugly, then she could deal with it, or if he wasn't so sweet sometimes. But no, he was both of those things and that's why she liked him, well until he'd slept with her own sister.

Turning to look out the window all she could do was hope the ride home was super quick and that he didn't feel the need to discuss what she'd seen. Sadly though her hopes would not be fulfilled .

"So Jude you've been evading me all week. Don't you think its time we talked?"

"What, me evading? No I haven't been avoiding you I've just been really busy, you know with the music and school and everything, and there isn't anything really to talk about is there? I mean I'm fine, I'm even not mad, so we don't even have to talk about it" Jude said as she rambled on trying to make sure he couldn't talk.

"Yes Jude, there are things to talk about," Tommy said with a bit of a sigh. He'd been dreading this talk to but he knew that he had to try and explain to her, try to get her to forgive him. Even though she said she wasn't mad at him, he knew she was, she couldn't hide anything from him, he just knew her too well.

Looking at her now he knew he'd hurt her, and deeply by the looks of it. Sighing again he knew he just had to dive in, like ripping off band aid. Do it fast and it wouldn't hurt as bad.

" Jude about what you saw with your sister and me. Well it wasn't what you think not really."

"So then you didn't sleep with her then? Cause it really looked like you did from my point of view unless your telling me I was hallucinating ."

"No, I mean we did sleep together, but it didn't mean anything. I didn't really want to be with her. She just attacked me. She was drunk and I was just trying to get her into her bed to sleep it off. I didn't think you'd appreciate me taking her to your party as drunk as she was. She took off her clothes while I was trying to find her something to changing into so she wouldn't go to sleep with her dress on, and started kissing me. I just… reacted."

"So what your saying is you accidentally slept with my sister, is that right? Well you know Tommy it takes two to have sex so you must have been willing at some point" Jude pointed out, starting to raise her voice and knew that she'd lose it soon if she didn't get control of herself.

"And if she was so drunk then you just took advantage of her. Do you know she thinks you two are dating? That she thinks that you love her? Are you going to put her straight or just keep stringing her along, so that just incase you need a little roll in the hay you'll have someone willing and waiting?"

"No Jude please listen to me, its not like that." he pleaded hopelessly "I was well really um aroused and Sadie just well I just lost control. I didn't mean for it to happen. I don't want Sadie, I want you Jude. I was thinking about YOU the whole time. You have no idea what the sight of you in the tiny little dress did to me. I wanted you so badly. Look I know your young and all and I shouldn't have these types of feelings for you but I do. Do you think you could give me another chance? Please? I really am sorry I hurt you."

"No, you know what Tommy, you could have all the chances in the world and you still wouldn't get it right. You think I can just forgive you for sleeping with MY SISTER, when she was drunk no less. And you have the GALL to say its MY fault because I looked too good in a dress. No Tommy this one is completely on you."

"Jude I didn't mean it like that. I'm not blaming you for anything. I'm just trying to explain why what happened, happened. Can't you find it in yourself to forgive me, at least enough so we can stay friends?"

Hearing Tommy act like she should just be able to get over it just like that made Jude snap. Out of no where she started yelling and shouting at him saying " Stay FRIENDS? You want to stay friends. You can go screw yourself Tommy. I've had it with you trying to just charm your way out of every mistake you make. All you've done since we've met is make a mess of my life. I actually LIKED Jamie, I might have really been able to be happy with him, but no you came and just ruined everything. That's all you do!!!!!! Ruin everything that makes me happy. Making me promise to forget the kiss we shared at my 16th birthday? Do you know how much that hurt me? To have to try and pretend like nothing had changed between us." Jude now having completely lost it, started sobbing, and having enough, asked him to pull over. When he refused, she threatened to just jump out of it while he was driving if he didn't.

Knowing that he had lost control of the situation Tommy pulled over to the side of the road, while looking at Jude, who had tears streaming down her face. He hadn't known he'd hurt her so much, was so sorry he'd caused her pain.

Taking one last tearful look at Tommy, Jude got out of the Viper and started walking home. Luckily they hadn't been to far from her house, because it started raining as soon as Tommy drove off. Jude knowing that she'd said too much, just gave up. She knew that she wouldn't be able to deal with Sadie at the moment, so she figured when she got there she'd just sneak up to her room and lock the door, and hopefully Sadie would leave her the hell alone.

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Tommy around this time was sitting at his home trying to think of a way to make up for all the pain he'd caused her. He knew he'd have to set Sadie straight, if only so Jude wouldn't think he was stringing her along. Now that was not one conversation he would be looking forward to. He knew from previous experience that Sadie did not handle rejection well. After that he would just have to try and win back Jude's trust. She wouldn't be willing to even see him as a friend unless he did something drastic and very soon. The question was, what could be big enough to win her back?