god i meant to post this yesterday but ive been feeling crappy and i started watching the Brave One, which is by the way an aesome movie you should watch it, so i didnt realyl have time to edit it till today so heres the next chapter wont be to many more after this, since theirs not really much more going to happen and i dont want to drag it out. PLZ R&R the more i get the faster i review. thanks to all whove reviewed and espiceally letitrain810 for the song idea which really fits everything perfectly. i own nothing of Instant star.

Regrets

Tommy's POV

Crap, crap, crap!!

I pushed myself up so I was leaning on my elbows, and stared at Jude, trying to figure everything out. She was just so different from everyone else I'd ever met. She could be funny at the tensest of times, get me to relax and have fun when all I wanted to do was pull out my hair. At other times I want to pull her hair out, like when she's being stubborn about one of her song's and then all of a sudden she says something or does something and I'm just not mad anymore. I had always known that if we ever got together that it would be good but what we just shared was amazing, mind-blowing in the best of ways, but she's only 16, she can't now what she wants and I just took advantage of that, even though I knew I shouldn't have.

I know now that I really do need her, that I won't be able to just give her up, but what if she doesn't want me anymore? What if, despite what we just shared, she hates me for all I've put her through? Or worse, what if she's right, and she's better off without me?

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Jude's POV

Shit, shit, shit!!!!

How the hell do I get out of this one? Thanks Tommy, had an awesome time, lets never see each other ever again, okay?

On one hand I want to stay with him and date him but on the other hand he's just such an ass, and technically he's dating Sadie, at least she said he was, but she has lied to me before. God this is all so confusing, I should probably just get him out of my apartment so I can get ready for the show.

"Tommy would you please get some clothes on and leave my apartment?" I tried to make it sound like a order but I'm pretty sure it came out sound like a question. I just want him gone!!!!!

"Look Jude I can't just go we need to talk about" he waved in the direction of me and then back at himself "this. I've been trying so hard to stay away from you, to try to keep it a platonic relationship, but I just can't any more Jude I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sleep with Sadie I just had a moment of weakness, and I didn't mean to get mad at you or anything. I've just been so frustrated." All I could do stare him in disbelief. He wanted us get together now!!! After everything he's done he just expects me to forgive him after everything he's done? Rejecting me at my 16th birthday party, sleeping with Sadie, ignoring me, and then later acting like it was no big deal!!!!

"You know what Quincy? You can just go screw yourself!! Or is it Sadie your screwing today? I'm still not to sure about that one. You think you can just come in here and seduce me and everything you've done wrong will just go away? Give me a break, I'm not one of your brainless bimbo's who believe everything that comes out of your mouth like it's the holy grail." I knew I sounded bitter but I'd just had to much of him and all of his bullshit. I may love him, but I'll get over it now rather than have my heart broken later. Not caring if he saw me naked or not, considering what we'd just done I got out of the bed, picked up the clothes I'd need for tonight, went into the bathroom and locked the door. I just hoped he'd be gone when I got out, or else I just might lose it and attack him with a toaster or something.

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Tommy's POV

I know I deserve everything she said but I couldn't help but hope she'd be able to forgive me. Even though I knew our ages would be a problem I couldn't help but care about her, more than I've ever cared about someone before.

After what she'd said I was surprised when I saw her jump out of her bed and start picking up the clothes she'd need, as if she didn't care that she was naked right in front of me. I couldn't help but stare at her. She had such a nice little body, and I found my eyes going from her face to her breast, done to her legs and then starting up from the top again, while she looked like she wasn't even aware that I was watching her. I was tempted to go up to her a try kissing her again, just to and see if she felt anything for me, but I had a feeling she wouldn't be to receptive to that idea.

Guessing that she wouldn't be to happy if I was still here when she came out, I looked around for my clothes which were scattered around her apartment. Well since I'm already here I might as well have a look around. As I looked around I couldn't help but admire her apartment. It was obvious that she'd just moved in, since there was practically nothing in the apartment but it had just a good feel about it, and it was in a good neighborhood. After looking around and finding all of my clothes I walked over to the door about to leave when I remembered about locking her door. Did she want me to lock it behind myself or just leave it?

Unsure I was about to go knock on the bathroom door and ask her when I realized how ridiculous I was being. I would just lock it and leave since who knew what she'd think I wanted if I knocked on the bathroom door.

As I locked the door I took one last look around her apartment and then left, since I still had to get ready for the party at G-Major.

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Jude's POV

When I got out of the bathroom, Tommy's was thankfully gone. If he had stayed I don't think I would have been responsible for my actions. I had actually been contemplating for a second coming out and attacking him with my hair straightener. Luckily I had talked myself out of doing that, along with the toaster idea, or I think people would start to think I'd lost it. He just makes me so mad, so easily!!!

Since I had everything on other than my shoes I started looking around for them, since I knew I had tossed them somewhere. Sadly, even though I looked every where I could think of I could think of I couldn't find them and I started to panic. I needed shoes, I couldn't go on stage shoeless, the media would have a field day speculating if their was something wrong with me. As I looked in my closet for some kind of shoe that might match my dress I saw them. They were completely perfect, even better than he ones I had lost. They were a really nice deep red color and had straps that were meant to be wrapped up my leg. As I tried them on I tried to think of where I had gotten them from but my mind came up blank. Then I remembered that Sadie sometimes out her shoes in my closet since she has so many of them and not enough room. I must have taken them with me by accident.

Looking down at my feet I knew they matched everything really well.

Looking at the clock I realized I would be late if I didn't get going pretty soon. Picking up my purse I left my apartment, barely remembering to lock the door behind me I was so nervous. What if they didn't like my song? What if they figured out who had inspired it? I really didn't need people to start saying that I liked Tommy in that way, even though I do.

As I got into my car I tried to calm myself down. Everything would be fine, they would love my song and if they didn't well then screw them, its not like they have the guts to go up on stage and sing in front of a ton of people. Shaking myself out of my minds wanderings I tried to pay attention as I drove to G-Major, since I really didn't need to get in an accident now.

Once I reached G-major I took a second before I got out to make my face expressionless, I didn't need to insult some big label dude by looking mad. After calming myself down as much as possible I exited my car, and walked into G-major, where I was immediately attacked by EJ.

"Jude you look fabulous, but why aren't you wearing the shoes I borrowed you? Not that the ones your wearing are any less gorgeous but I was just wondering that if you didn't want them if I could have them back?"

"Uh, I just misplaced them and didn't have time to look for them, but you'll get them back I promise." I really didn't want to get on EJ bad side since she was the one in charge of what I wear in front of the media.

"Well good. Oh, and Darius was looking for you, something about maybe going on earlier than expected."

"Oh, thanks I'll just go find him." Thank god I have a reason to leave this conversation. EJ was a really good stylist and everything, we just had completely different styles.

Looking around for Darius I found him talking to who else but Tommy. Walking up to them I wanted nothing else but to leave, run back home and hide under my blanket even though I knew I couldn't.

"Darius, EJ said there was something you wanted talk to me about?" I asked slightly hesitant, since I still wasn't sure what kind of boss he would be.

"Good, you're here Jude. Well one of the representatives here from a big label can't stay the whole night and since I want him to hear you sing I said we'd start sooner."

"How much sooner is sooner?"

"Well, actually how's right now? Just go back stage and wait for them to announce you."

"Okay."

As I walked away I couldn't stop myself from looking at Tommy who looked so yummy in a suit. I had noticed him staring at me while I was talking to Darius, and I couldn't help but wonder why. Oh well it's none of my business, I should just be ignoring him,

Determined to do just that I headed backstage, picked up my guitar from Studio 1 since I would be going on stage by myself, and waited for them to call my name.

Just as I started to let my mind wander I heard them call out my name, so I jumped up and started walking towards the spotlight.