Author's Note: Aw, sorry I haven't written in a day or two, I was busy with problems with friends and school and such. But here's another chapter, a pretty long one, compared to my others, I hope you enjoy it. Read and review, it means a lot to me. The story already has over 500 hits, which amazes me. Keep on reading it! You will notice that some chapters have song lyrics at the beginning. Those lyrics are just there to describe the chapter, and won't be appearing every chapter, just some.

Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi. Awwww. And Rilo Kiley owns the song "I Never," whose lyrics appear in the beginning of this chapter. R&R!

Chapter Six: I Never

I'm only a woman of flesh and bone
And I wept much, we all do
I thought I might die alone
But I had never met you, so baby be good to me
I've got nothing to give you, you see, except everything, everything, everything, everything
All the good, And the bad
Cause I've been bad, I've lied, cheated, stolen, and been ungrateful for what I had
And I'm afraid habits rule my waking life, I'm scared
And I'm running in my sleep for you
But all of the oceans and rivers and showers will wash it all away, and make me clean
For you

So let's take a loan out
Put it down on a house
In a place we've never lived
In a place that exists
In the pages of scripts and the songs that they sing
And all the beautiful things
That make you weep but
Don't have to make you weak

Cause I never, never, never loved somebody the way that I loved you.

Six weeks later

I stretched my legs out as far as they could go, and felt my big toes cracking the second I bent them. The noise of the two simultaneous cracks made me cringe – the sound of bone-on-bone action. My hair was all over my face, so I blew a few pieces out of it and sat up in bed, leaning my back against the wooden headboard.

Looking to my right, I saw Sean, still sleeping quietly, no snores like the ones he usually emitted. He looked peaceful, and stirred after a few seconds. Opening his eyes, he smiled sleepily and placed his hand over mine. I felt his thumb rubbing it gently, and he asked, "Sleep well?"

We both exchanged big, knowing smiles. My sleep had gone well, but what we had done before bedtime was even better. For the past few weeks, we'd been seeing a lot more of each other, which was a good thing and a bad thing. It was good thing because we were in love, but there were more cons than pros. Every time I saw him, it had to be somewhere kind of far from any place that Ellie might catch us, or at my apartment. I was also still feeling horrible for Ellie.

"So," he said, changing the subject, "Should I come back over tonight? Or should I go home to Ellie? Hm…Emma or Ellie, Emma or Ellie. I pick Emma."

It made me happy, but also sort of aggravated. Ellie was his wife; he couldn't just ditch her every night of the week to hang out with me. "Sean, why don't you hang out with Ellie tonight? She's probably lonely, considering you've been at my place every night for the past nine days."

He sat up next to me and kissed my forehead. "I love you more."

It was what I had wanted to hear for the longest time…so why did I feel uneasy? Sean was making me ten times as stressed as I usually was, with his adultery and false promises, saying that he would leave Ellie in a little while, he just had to give her more time to realize that their marriage was falling apart. He'd hoped that she would divorce him, so it wouldn't look like he was the bad guy. But in the past month, Ellie hadn't budged. In fact, she'd barely even noticed that Sean was gone, apparently. Her behavior hadn't changed, and he was starting to suspect something.

With a slightly queasy expression on my face, I looked him in the eyes, trying to tell him that it was time for a serious discussion. He seemed to understand, and focused his attention on me, raising an eyebrow in curiosity. "Do you ever think we should stop this whole sneaking-around thing?" I blurted out, regretting the fact that I'd said it while at the same time giving myself a mental pat on the back for being honest with him.

He looked at me incredulously, almost as if he couldn't believe that I would doubt our relationship. He pressed his lips together and sighed. "No. We can't. You know I love you. And I know you love me, so why stop?"

"Because you're married, Sean. You have a wife. I don't want to just be your girl on the side, your affair. I want to be first, I want to be your only girl. Obviously, I can't have that when you're with Ellie, so we should probably let this whole ridiculous affair go."

Well, now his face was even more bewildered than before. Surprisingly, he laughed. It wasn't a hearty laugh, but not a nervous one either. Just an unsure one. "I've made up my mind, Em. I'm going to leave her tonight, okay? So that means you'll be my only girl. You're much more important to me. I love you."

Smiling, I congratulated myself for standing up to him in the first place. Because it had gotten me my Sean back. My feelings of sympathy towards Ellie vanished quickly, and I found myself wishing I could see the look on her face when Sean would tell her the bad news. I threw myself onto Sean, showering him with kisses, when his phone rang.

"Hello? Yeah. Uh, alright, sure. 8:00…fine with me. See you later, bye." He hung up quickly and smiled so wide I thought his teeth would fall out. I gave him a curious look.

"That was Ellie," he said, answering my mental question. "She wants me to have dinner with her tonight at The Dot. I'll break it off with her there, it's the perfect opportunity. It's a public place, so she won't shout at me or anything; it'll be much more peaceful."

"Good luck."

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At 1 a.m., I was sleeping soundly, having a dream about a tree that could talk, when I heard a loud noise coming from my living room. My eyes shot open, and I grabbed the bat that was lying next to my side of the bed. Whoever it is, is gonna get a mouthful of metal, I thought, trying to reassure myself that it was just the wind. Too bad all the windows were closed, and wind didn't make loud noises like that.

Stumbling blindly into the room, I flicked a light switch and saw nobody there. That's weird, I thought. But then I realized the noise was coming from my door. Someone was knocking. Wow, Emma, put the bat down, way to get worked up over someone knocking…but who would knock on my door at one in the morning? Groaning, I realized it was probably Jay. I'd have to pick the bat back up if it was, because I wasn't in the mood for his bull tonight.

Opening the door, I saw Sean. "What are you doing here, it's one in the –" I tried to speak, but he walked inside with a dark look on his face, no humor or laughter involved. What the hell was going on? I was getting really freaked out.

"Emma," he said abruptly, and the tone of his voice frightened me. Not angry, not sad, but a calm tone tinted with worry. "I can't see you anymore."

"What? Why the hell not?" I yelled, running over to where he stood in my kitchen, leaning on a chair for support. "WHY not?"

"I can't. I'm sorry. Listen, don't call me anymore, it's not your fault. Bye." And with that, he whisked himself away and out the door, leaving me standing there alone.

What in the name of God just happened…?

Flashback

"So, why were you so in the mood to have dinner?" Sean asked, trying to force a laugh as he pretended everything was alright. "Trying to fatten me up?"

Ellie giggled, and he was reminded of how cute she could be. "No, just wanted to talk," she said through a mouthful of bean soup, blowing on it to cool it off.

He took a sip of water from the clear, tall glass set down in front of him. This wasn't going to be easy to break to her, but he had to say it. "Listen, El, I've gotta tell you –"

But she held her hand up to signal for him to be quiet. "My news first!"

"Alright," he said, nodding grudgingly. "Your news first."

"Sean…I'm pregnant."

He dropped the glass, and it shattered into a million little pieces all over the floor. "Oh my God…" he whispered.

A/N: Like? Dislike? R&R. And by the way, kerrbear7 was right when she reviewed, Ellie's pregnant. XD As you probably figured out from those last few sentences...haha.