She kissed him back for what seemed like an eternity before reality settled in and she pushed him away

"What are you doing?" tears blurring her vision. Her fingers came over her swollen lips, no she didn't want this did she?
Years ago, hell even a few months ago, she would be ecstatic if he had come confusing his undying love but now she wasn't as sure.

"Why now Bosco?"

"Why not now?"

"I don't think I can do this"

"Do what? Of course you can do this, I'm here now"

"It's not always that easy" she had to put distance between him and her, she went to the far end of the living room.

"This time it is"

"No it's not"

"And why isn't it?" he said rather calmly which sent a whole new scared feeling into Ashley's chest

"BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE IF I WANT TO BE WITH YOU!" there she said it, something that had been on her mind for the last few months.

Do you always have to tell him everything
On your mind?
You know that too much honesty can be
So unkind

She could actually pin point the moment he lost it, and for the first time she actually believed him, when he had said she meant everything to him. She had and now she had gone and broke his heart. She was no better than Yokas and Cruz, at least she hadn't cheated on him.

This was for the best, she had a solid reason for not wanting to get back together with him, then why did she feel dirty and despicable? The one hundredth and sixth way to make Bosco and Cruz pay came flashing back

Rip out his heart and stomp on it

She had twisted it, ripped it out, stomped on it and fed it to the wolves. She'd sunk to a new time low. He'd confessed he loved her, and what did she do? She told him she didn't want anything to do with him.

"Can I see her?" came out in nothing more than a whisper, giving evidence what she already knew.

"She's at a babysitters now, how about you come back around noon?" if she could take back what she said she wasn't sure she would, it made the pain more bearable instead of dragging the pain on and in months telling him. This was for the best.

And every time you throw him to the floor
Why are you surprised to see he's breakable?

He nodded, not seeing any more reason to stay he left.

You always try to find what's holding him
Away from you
But do you ever see your anger standing there
Right between you?

And that was why he didn't confront her till now, he always self-consciously knew that she would say that. But even if he did know that it still didn't make it any easier, he had some serious thinking to do, even more than he thought he ever had to do. What was he going to do know that Ashley and Lilly wouldn't leave Vegas; you always had to take every possible scenario into effect. He had two weeks to decide what he was going to do.

She sat with her knees up, in her special spot with a cup of much needed coffee, staring at one point until the early morning hours, and realizing a new day had started. She took a sip of the coffee, forgetting that it would be cold by now, the bitter taste in her mouth reminded her quickly. She didn't move though, she just dumped the contents of the mug on the grass next to her. She also sat down the mug on the grass and continued to stare off into space.

"Where were you last night?" Greg came up beside her, pulling up a chair next to her and handing her a coffee. Which she didn't take so he dropped his arm and held it for the time being.

"Something go wrong with the date last night?" still getting no response to her he said something that usually got her going

"Last night was slow, so we brought in some purple monkeys and had hot passionate monkey sex for hours"

"I didn't mean to" she whispered, so low he thought he imagined it

"You say something?"

"I didn't mean to" her voice higher now, still staring at a blade of grass that hadn't moved. She turned to him, tears streaming down her face

"I really didn't mean to Greg" he hadn't seen her cry often except when she was pregnant so he knew what ever she hadn't meant to do was a big one. He reached over and took her in his arms, her sobbing into his shirt.

"Did something happen between you and Bosco?" she nodded into his shirt.

"I'll kill him"

She laughed through her sobbing

"No you won't" she hugged him tighter, she could always count on him to help her through what ever came her way.

"You ready to talk about it?"

"No. This is something that needs to be done on my own"

"Then why do I still feel like killing him?"

"It must have been all that monkey sex you had last night, wasn't Sara jealous?" boy did he feel embarrassed. He thought quickly

"No she was too busy to notice she had the leader of the pack named Bubba"

"Well at least she had somebody"

"She wants to talk to you seeing as how you weren't in last night"

"I gotta go pick up Lily" she stood, bent over to pick up the mug. She disappeared into the apartment and returned moments later to be met with Nick and Greg.

And every time you throw him to the wall
Why are you surprised to see he's breakable?

I'll go pick up Lily for you" Greg said an he left, he was a lifesaver one minute, and a spear in the neck the next. She noticed how both coffees were left on the table.

"And how are you this morning Nick?" Ashley asked with false emotion

"Oh you know not to bad, I got dumped last night"

"Didn't know you were dating anyone"

"It really didn't get off the ground" this is the part where she told him if he liked her go after her. But she knew who he was talking about, as much as she wanted him to, it wouldn't be fair to get him tangled up in this.

"I'm not going to choose" because either way she did, she would hurt someone who didn't deserve to get hurt.

"Between him and me?"

"Ya its not fair to either of you"

Tell the world that he's breaking your heart
Go tell the world nothing's ever your fault
Go tell them all

"How long you staying in Vegas?" Ashley asked the person sitting beside her.

"Two weeks"

"How would you feel If I came back to New York with you?" she watched Lily at the top of the jungle gym sliding down the slide.

"I would say how soon can we leave?" he chuckled "I'm kidding" he added quickly seeing her face fear stricken.

"Only for a visit" his shoulders sunk a bit, and disappointed overflowed into his baby blues.

And every time you throw him to the floor
Why are you surprised to see he's breakable?

If you tried to be early, you were always late, Ashley was about five minutes late after spending almost half an hour looking for her keys. She had meant to get here early so she could find out what Sara wanted, but the god's had other ideas, she was thankful she didn't have to drive Lily over to Lisa's house, Bosco had offered to watch her. Which meant all he would have to do is be there, if Lily ever woke up. Lily never did she was a sound sleeper just like her father. A blow horn right beside his ear couldn't have woken up, she knew that cause she had tried one day.

Grissom was handing out assignments as she walked in, they all looked at her but Grissom pulled them back to him.

"Nick and Greg, triple homicide, Warrick a jewelry store robbery and Sara and Ashley a drive by shooting"

"Lucky" Greg tells them both as he and Nick walk out together, Warrick follows Sara out.

"Grissom?"

"Yes"

"I just wanted you to know that what happened last night will never happen again, it was irresponsible of me"

"It's alright, Greg told me what happen" her knight and shining armour

"Don't you have a drive by to get to?"

"Yes sir"

"Last night you didn't see anything did you?"

"Other than the fact that you were sitting on his couch in one of his shirts nothing, oh he does need to water a few of his plants" she glanced over to the older woman beside her, who insisted that she drive, she'd worked with Sara a couple of times and every time, Miss Sidle always got the keys and was in the vehicle before Ashley had even grabbed her kit. She was panic-stricken.

"I'm not going to tell anyone" Ashley told her reassuringly

"Why would you do that?"

"Do you want anyone know?" she asked stupidly,

"It's just anyone else would be jumping at the chance to gossip about"

"What ever happens behind closed doors, stay's there" god knows she has skeletons in her closet that were better left untouched.

"Your okay with it?"

"Why wouldn't I? I'm not in love with Greg, and sorry to hurt your feelings but I'm not interested in you either, I don't swing that way. Although there was this one time…" she tried off, noticing Sara's face again

"I'm kidding" maybe she should try and scare people more often cause it was fun looking at them, when they thought she was crazy.

"Can I give you some advice? Well its kinda really a favor"

"As long as I can give you some too"

"Sure"

"Okay shoot"

"When you're with Greg could you kinda keep it down? You're kinda loud." Her face reddened.

"How loud?"

"Loud enough that I can understand what your saying. Oh Yes, Don't Stop Loud" the older woman's face turned to a deeper shade of crimson.

"Don't worry I'm the only other one on the floor in the daytime, its just you never know"

"I'll try and keep it down"

"Alright what's your advice" Ashley glancing out the window seeing that they were almost in the neighborhood, outskirts of Tranytown. She was glad that both of them had guns.

"Nick's a really good person"

"Behind closed doors Sara" she was not in the mood to talk to her about Nick or any other person in her life at the moment. Something's were better left unsaid. Sara stopped the car, they were here no time to talk. She was staying alive! Haha she really had to stop this, she wasn't far from getting committed. Or just get some sleep so she wouldn't do that, when was the last time she slept? Hmm.. she couldn't remember.

"Nick is just a really good person" Sara said and then left her to go process the scene. The truth was she already knew that.

Bosco sat in Ashley's apartment looking at the photographs, so much he missed out on. That was all about to change he would, make her see that she belonged with him in New York. But how? That was the question, how do you get a stubborn woman to stay in a place she left? He could make her remember all the good times they had together. But with the good would bring the bad. And that's exactly why Ashley moved away.

He glanced at the clock, Ma would have his hide if he called this late, but chances are she was still awake having coming home from work. They were three hours ahead of Vegas so it would be around 2:30 in New York, better late than never.

The voice on the other end sounded wide-awake when it answered

"Hello?"

"Hey Ma it's me"

"Ah Maurice, is everything ok?"

"Everything's fine, just calling to see how you are"

"That's a trick question, I'm an old woman Maurice, my bones and joints ache and arthritics is starting to set in" He could always count on his mom to take any conversation and turn it about herself.

"So how is Lilian?"

"Lily's fine, she's even more gorgeous than in the pictures"

"You were always like that too"

"And how is her mother?"

"Ashley's doing great, she's a wonderful mother"

"I never doubted that but somehow I sense there's more to it than that"

"She wont leave Vegas, she's coming back to New York for two weeks with me, but then her and Lily are going back"

"And you don't want that?"

"Of course I don't! If that happens I wont see Lily again"

"There are things called pictures, letters, telephone's, and email"

"It's not the same Ma"

"So what are you saying?

"I really don't know"

"Well it was about time I got out of the city anyway, it's making me feel old, some sun would do me good"

"What are you saying Ma?"

"I'm saying what ever you think I'm saying"

"What I'm thinking is that your saying 'Vegas here I come'"

"I always knew you were smart, you should show it more often" never fails every chance she gets, she always teases.

"Ma"

"Alright I take it back, you did after all snag a good woman to have your child"

"Yeah I did. Who would have thought that I Maurice Boscorelli, would have a kid?"

"Not me that's for sure, I was getting worried"

"So how is the city?"

"You've been gone for two days, it's the same as it was two days ago, cold"

"It's nice and sunny and warm here"

"Be careful what you wish for"

"And what am I wishing for?"

"That I'll come out there, you know I got some money saved up, wouldn't hurt to see if I could double it"

"Don't get any bright ideas"

"All I'm saying is.."

"I think if you showed up too, Ashley would think we're crowding her"

"I never thought of that"

"Well I better let you go Ma"

"Call me in the morning"

"Sure thing Ma"

"Give Lily kisses for me"

"I will"

He sat the phone on the coffee table in front of him. This was all so new to him, he didn't know if he could do it, help raise a kid, that he knew nothing about. He couldn't really help raise her if he was on the other side of the country could he? He could he really give up everything he had in New York and move here? What did he really have in New York anymore beside Ma? A job he now hated, cause Ashley took all the fun out of it when she left. People who couldn't stand him, some even feared him. Seriously was it really worth going back out there?

But would Ashley really give him another chance? It was only a kiss, a kiss he forgot to mention on purpose. But was his really so bad compared to what she had done? She had failed to mention she was pregnant, and that she saw him kissing Cruz. She had fled the state never to be heard from again. All for one stupid little kiss that shouldn't have happen. But it did. He was thinking with a lot of buts, could he be starving for sex? No that wasn't it.

"Daddy?" Lily rubbed her eye with one hand while, holding a pig and blanket. Now he knew how Lily slept, in a big kids bed, wasn't that a decision they should have decided on together? He didn't think Ashley would like it too much if he second-guessed her. He had to hand it to the kid, one look at him and she knew who he was. He didn't really care as long as she wasn't calling anyone else Daddy.

"Yes pumpkin?"

"Mommy?"

"Mommy's gone to work is it okay if I stay here instead?" he saw the little girl trying to get a grasp on what he said, she finally nodded.

"Do you wanna watch some TV with me?" again the girl nodded, he held his arms out to her, she went to him willingly. He could get used to this.

They were still on square one with their case as both Ashley and Sara left. Ashley had made sure Sara had left before her, so that way if their was anything to be found out they could do it together, no one having the upper hand on things. She left right after, she watched Sara get into her car, just to be sure she followed the older woman to her apartment, get out of her car and climb into a waiting car. She followed that too, knowing exactly who's car it was. So this is how they were pulling it off.

Greg was waiting for her when she walked up to her door, with a bag of groceries, she hadn't really needed them, they just explained her absence.

"Something I can help you with Greg?"

"I just thought I saw your car following us"

"Couldn't have been me, I've been getting groceries" she hoists the bag higher to make her point. He looks at her pondering the thought, not really believing her.

"Well you two have fun" she nods, and unlocks her own door, hearing no movement from Greg she turns.

"Something wrong?"

"It was you"

"Prove it" she smiled, and walked into her apartment.

She found both Lily and Bosco asleep on the couch, Lily on top of him curled up with her blanket and Tutu. It was a cute sight, too cute of one to let it go to waste. She grabbed the camera from the desk drawer, and snapped a few without stirring either one. She got out a blanket and laid it over the both of them. Exhaustion finally setting in she yawned. She placed a kiss on Lily's temple, pushing a few stray hairs out of the way, then she did something without thinking, she kissed Bosco's forehead and went to bed herself.

A/N: Breakable by Fisher