Thanks again to everyone who reviewed for the last chapter. You've encouraged me to write this one sooner than I should have. I hope you like this one. All that stuff I promised in the last chapter will be coming up soon. I just want to show what Edward was thinking through the last 2 chapters. Oh, and if anyone had any advice for the big yell-off between Edward and Vicki that I'm planning, please give me some advice in a review. I want it to be good!
Also, I want to know if anyone actually reads these before-story author note thingies, so tell me if you do.
I am not Stephenie Meyer and own nothing but Mary Chris and Vicki. I don't own the songs in this chapter either, which are Dreaming With a Broken Heart by John Mayer and Far Away by Nickelback.
This chapter starts off where chapter 6 ended, with the face in the window and the group hug.
EPOV
I saw that Bella was finally back in my house. She was so close to me now and I stared hungrily at her, afraid that the second I looked away, she would disappear and I would be back to moping.
Suddenly, I heard a voice. Unlike the velvet-sweet voice of my angel, it was the opposite. The voice of the devil herself. I suppressed a groan.
"What do you want, Vicki?" I asked irritably. She was interrupting my time of staring at Bella. I slowly, painfully turned my gaze away from my angel and turned to glare at Vicki.
She didn't seem to notice that my eyes were trying to glare straight through her, to break her into millions of pieces. "Eddie, come talk to me."
"Fine, but make it quick." Curse Carlisle and Esme for making us be nice to her. If it were up to me, right now she would be on the other side of the continent, preferably in the center of the ocean.
I followed her into our dining room. She towed me over to the long red couch, and plopped down on the couch. She tried scooting closer to me, and I backed up. "Silly Edward, there's no need to play hard to get now, nobody's watching."
I gave her a disbelieving look. "Vicki, get to the point or I'm leaving."
"Fine." Se pouted. "Now, I might be getting a little paranoid, but I'm starting to get the feeling that your family likes Bella more then they like me." No duh, I thought to myself. Everyone in the world likes Bella more then you. Out loud, I said nothing. I couldn't lie to her.
After not hearing me agree or disagree, she continued. "But that's okay. We both know who you really want." She inched herself closer to me.
I jumped up in a lightning fast movement. My expression was revolted. "Get away from me," I warned. "Now leave me be, I'm going back to go talk to Bella." And you'd better not follow me.
"Edward, why are you and your family so nice to her? We all know that you're just nice to her because you feel bad for her. Now stop trying to fight it, just let you feel what you feel. We all know that I'm who you're meant to be with." You and who else?
"Vicki, I do not like you, I never will like you, and now I'm going to go talk to Bella and my family." I tried to calm myself down.
She stepped in front of me. "Why do you want to talk to her, Eddie? She's as ugly as dirt. Wouldn't you rather stay here and talk to me instead of that bitch?" I couldn't control myself anymore. I went up to Vicki and slapped her.
"Don't you dare talk about Bella that way!" I growled. And with that, I turned my back on Vicki and strolled back into the main room where everyone as sitting and talking. But something was wrong, different.
There was no talking. Nobody was laughing, or joking around as I had seen earlier. Instead, everyone was staring straight at Carlisle. And someone was missing.
"Where's Bella?" I asked. There was no answer. "Dammit, where's Bella?" I shouted.
Then Mary ran up to me. "Edward, you have to find her!"
"Why? What happened? Where did she go?" I asked all these question very fast.
"Edward, you have to find her! She's never ran away before and I'm afraid something's happened to her! You're the only one who can find her! Please! I can't lose my sister!" She cried, sobbing dry tears. Chris ran forward to try to calm Mary down.
"What happened?" I asked, turning to Carlisle. He looked uncomfortable.
"I told her, well, that you were still in love with her." He said this all very fast.
"Why?" I asked angrily. "Why would you do that Carlisle?"
"I thought it was for the best." He replied meekly.
"Oh, she's going to think you were lying to her!" I was pacing now. If I were Bella and needed to think things through, where would I go? Then suddenly, the answer came to me like a rushing current.
"I know where Bella is!" I shouted, already on my way to the door. "And for God's sake, don't let that monster follow me!" I shouted over my shoulder, for I was already sprinting in the direction of Forks. If Vicki followed me, I didn't think I could control myself without witnesses. I would probably end up killing her.
I kept running as fast as I could and soon I was in the town of Forks Washington. Old, familiar. Not much had changed in the eighty-eight years since I'd last been here. When I found out that Bella had died. But I couldn't think of that now. I had to find her.
I came to the clearing by the meadow and could see her sitting there. She had never looked so alone, as I watched her. She was absorbed in her own thoughts. She looked so heartbroken that I thought to myself, "Bella, Edward still loves you."
She looked over to the exact place where I was standing. Oops. Had I said that out loud? I kept perfectly sill, so that she didn't have a hope of seeing. After making sure that no one was there, she went back to her thoughts.
She looked almost the same as she did ninety years ago. Her soft brown hair had gotten just a little longer. Her eyes were now a soft golden color, rather than the brown it had been when I last saw her, but they looked as deep as ever, except for maybe a little sadder. Heartbroken. Not at all the way an angels eyes should look. I made a silent vow to myself to make those eyes light and sparkly again if it was the last thing I ever did.
Then, to my surprise she began to sing. An old song, back from long ago when she was still human. And her voice was so full of sadness that I felt a sudden urge to comfort her. But I waited.
When you're
dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest
part
You roll out of bed and down on your knees
and for a
moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was he really here
Is
he standing in my room?
No, he's not
cause he's gone, gone,
gone, gone, gone.
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The
giving up is the hardest part
he takes you in with his crying
eyes
then all at once you have to say goodbye
wondering could
you stay my love
will you wake up by my side?
No, he
can't
cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.
Do I have to
fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with
roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my
hands?
Would you get them if I did?
No, you won't
Cause
you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.
When you're dreaming with
a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part.
I knew I had to do something. I couldn't let an angel suffer like this.
And so I stepped out from my hiding place behind the bushes.
I could tell she could see me now, and her face wound up in a little O of surprise, but then she recovered, and her face was back in a mask, giving away no emotions.
I took two small steps forward, slowly, so I wouldn't scare her. "Hello Bella."
She kept her face void of emotion as she asked. "Why are you here?"
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come. I just thought"
"It's okay. Sit down."
I hesitantly took four more steps forward and then suddenly I was right next to her. I studied her face, taking advantage of being so close to her again.
I sat down. We both sat in silence for a minute. I knew that I had to apologize, but I wasn't sure how to begin.
(Some of this stuff is copied from New Moon because Stephenie Meyer puts it so perfectly.)
"Bella," I started. "Carlisle was telling the truth. I didn't want to leave you all those years ago. I had to, I could see what I was doing to you, you were constantly in danger. I just wanted you to have a normal human life. I didn't want to leave you—I thought it would kill me to leave you, but I convinced myself that it would be better for you in the long run."
She looked up at him, shock etched across her face. Why wouldn't she say something?
"Bella? Bella, say something." I urged.
"Why—why are you lying to me?" She stuttered.
How could she think I was lying to her? How could I make her understand?. "Bella, I'm not lying to you. Why will you believe the lie but never the truth? After the thousand times I told you I loved you break your faith in me?"
She stared into my face as if trying to solve an insolvable code. Then her face broke into a inexplicable grin.
"Then why did you stay away for so long? If you had come back, maybe I would believe you, but you didn't Edward. You stayed away. Do you have any idea how much pain I was in when you left me?" Her voice kept getting shriller and also going down in volume, an odd combination.
"Bella, I did come back. I came back, but you weren't there. They said—"His voice broke here, "They told me you were dead." I could still remember going back to Forks only to find Bella was dead. That broke me.
"I knew you were in pain, but I had convinced myself that it would be better for you to have a normal life. You have no idea what it was like for me. Every second of every day, knowing that I had caused you pain. I hated anything that cause you pain which meant I hated myself. After I found out you were dead," I swallowed, even thought I didn't need to. "After I found out that you were dead, I tried to kill myself. There was no point of living without you. You had taken a part of me with you. Emmett and Jasper stopped me with the help of Alice's visions."
She listened to him, her expression horrified. "But what about Vicki?" How could she think Vicki meant anything to me?
I snorted, lightening the mood a little. "Vicki is an idiot. I really hate her. For some reason she thinks that I love her and that we were destined to be soul mates. She is one of the most annoying creatures ever to walk the face of the earth. I had to tell her off earlier."
"Oh, is that what you two were arguing about?" I nodded.
I watched as relief clouded her face. "Does this mean you'll forgive me?" This was it. She probably wouldn't forgive me. But I tried.
"Hmm. I suppose so. On one condition." I was forgiven! But what was the condition? What could be so bad that would make her forgive me?
"What?"
"You have to kiss me." A wide grin broke across my face. I could agree to that request any day..
"You didn't even have to ask."
Suddenly I kissed her. It unlike anything we had ever done before. We didn't have to be careful anymore, and for that I was grateful. I could taste the feel of her lips on mine and had no urge to pull away. Finally I had to pull away. We both laid back onto the rock, looking up at the cloudless, blue, perfect sky.
Then, I started to sing a song to her.
I
sang
This
time, This place,
Misused, mistakes.
Too long, too late,
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance, just one breath,
Just in case there's just one left.
'Cause you know, you know, you know,
That I love you! I loved you all along.
I miss you! Been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go!
Stop breathin', if I don't see you anymore!
Then she cut me off. I was surprised that she knew this song, but I listened as her perfect voice sang.
On my knees, I'll ask, last chance for one last dance.
'Cause with you, I'd withstand,
All of Hell to hold your hand!
I'd give it all; I'd give for us,
Give anything, but I won't give up,
'Cause you know, you know, you know,
That I love you! I loved you all along.
I miss you! Been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go!
Stop breathin', if I don't see you anymore!
(Edward)
So far away!
(Bella)
So far away!
(Both)
Been far away for far too long!
(Bella)
So far away!
(Edward)
So far away!
(Both)
Been far away for far too long!
But you know, you know, you know!
(Bella)
That I wanted, I wanted you to stay.
(Edward)
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say:
(Bella)
"I love you! I've loved you all along!
And I forgive you, for bein' away for far too long!"
(Edward)
So keep breathin', 'cause I'm not leavin' you anymore!
Believe it, hold onto me never let me go!
(Bella)
Keep breathin'
(Edward)
'Cause I'm not leavin' you anymore!
(Bella)
Believe it!
(Edward)
Hold onto me, never let me go!
She stared at him for a minute, and then tears, long absent from my face, began pouring down like buckets from my face. That was weird.
"I didn't know that you could do that."
"Neither did I." She confessed
"Maybe I just had nothing to cry about before now." She murmured.
And then, finally, my Bella was back in my arms again.
Hope you liked it! I know Bella forgave Edward kind of quickly, but hey, she's a forgiving person! Next chapter is back to Bellas POV but I'm away for a couple days, so don't expect anything soon.
Review, please!
Jaime