Chapter 14
Hello again guys! Thanks to everyone who reviewed last chapter. Sorry for the major cliffie! I couldn't resist :) Anyway, this chapter is kind of depressing. I cried while writing it. On with the chapter, I know you guys can't wait to read it!
I'm not Stephenie Meyer, if I was, dontcha think I would be working on Breaking Dawn instead of this second-rate fan fiction?
Previously;
"Bella, could you come down here, I need to talk to you about something." I ignored Edward's voice and strode purposefully towards the couch, with a growing sense of dread.
Bella;
I've given you more then enough time. I'm afraid that your time in happiness is now up. These are your instructions; you must follow them very precisely, or I'm afraid your 'family' will suffer greatly. I have an army at my service, ready to strike down anyone who tries to help you. You shall bring no one, or I shall tell my army to strike. And I really don't think that it's necessary that we bring anyone else into this, do you. Enclosed are your directions…
BPOV
A cold sense of dread filled me, starting from my toes then spreading throughout my whole body. I felt numb.
"Bella?" Edward's voice came from downstairs. Crap! Now it was time to do the unthinkable. I had to do the impossible. I had to break Edward.
I grabbed a few clothes from the closet and stuffed them into a drawstring bag along with some other stuff I thought I might need, where I was going. Then I hurriedly scribbled a note, which I would give to Mary. I told her to tell Alice too. I had to let someone know that I had to leave for their own good. I couldn't have the whole family hate me. That was a bit more then I could stand.
I had never really understood why Edward had left me all those years ago. Now I knew exactly how he had felt. But I had to do this. I had to do this to save him and his family. There is no other option. Hopefully he would just forget about me and move on. Hopefully he would have a good life. Hopefully, after 'V' killed me that would be enough, so that she wouldn't go after the Cullens too. That was what had to happen. I was dooming myself to keep him safe.
Each step that I took down from the banister felt like it had passed by in a millisecond. My remaining time with Edward was flying by, and there was nothing I could do about it. I wanted so much to run into his arms and have him comfort me, tell me that everything would be alright, just like he had so many times before. But, of course, I couldn't do that. I couldn't even tell him how much I loved him one more time. Short and painless, that was the way I would have to do it. But still, this could be the last time I ever saw Edward. Ever. But I couldn't think about that now. I finally looked up.
Edward was standing at the foot of the stairs, waiting for me. I knew, even though I had to lie now, I had to break him, that he would be the most glorious thing that I would ever see, no matter how long I might live. A big smile was plastered onto his face. It hurt to see that, knowing that in a few seconds, that smile would be completely gone.
But before I could open my mouth to speak, he spoke first. I could see Alice bouncing eagerly up and down, and the rest of the Cullens, including Mary and Chris, sitting in the various chairs and couches in the background. I could tell that they were pretending not to listen, but were listening in. What was going on?
"Isabella Marie Swan," He started, studying my face as he spoke. "I know that I haven't seen you in 90 years, not counting these last few weeks. But I know that when I left you I was broken inside. I wouldn't do anything. I was completely lifeless inside." He took a deep breath. What was going on? I was still completely clueless.
"But I also know that I can't live without you. So I never want to have to. Ever again. So" He took a deep breath. Then he got down on one knee.
No. This can't be happening. Not now. Of all the times he could choose to propose to me, he chooses now. Fate was playing a cruel trick on the both of us.
"Isabella Marie Swan. Will you marry me?" He finished. I could feel the blank shock on my face. Now. I had to do it now. His face was hopeful. No. I couldn't do this to him. Or to me. We would both be torn apart. Our family was looking on in the background, not even bothering to conceal their staring now.
Then I remembered 'V's note.I'm afraid your 'family' will suffer greatly. I have an army at my service, ready to strike down anyone who tries to help you. You shall bring no one, or I shall tell my army to strike. Better torn apart then dead.
I had to do this. To protect Edward. To protect my family. And I had to do it right, or he would know something was up. I took a deep breath. Then I started to scream at Edward.
"You think I would MARRY someone like you?" I screamed in his face. His expression changed into dread at the very thing he had been hoping I would not say. I wanted to comfort him, but I couldn't. I had to keep up he act.
"You're a MONSTER! It's all your fault that I was turned into a vampire! Everything bad that's ever happened to me was because of you, you monster! You've completely ruined my life and I don't want to talk to you ever again. You were right, Edward, I can't love you anymore, now that I've realized how much of a monster you are. Get away from me, Edward, and get out of my life." I shouted, fighting the emotion that I concealed under my perfectly composed face.
His face was blank, lifeless and stone-like. And what was worse was that I knew that I was the source of all this pain. But I had to. There was no other option. This was one thing that our relationship would not survive through.
Rosalie stood up, her hard face cold and completely vampire-like. It was frightening, but I didn't back down. I kept my face completely blank of all emotion.
"And to think that I called you my sister," she spat at me, her voice dripping with venom. "Leave now. You have far outstayed your welcome."
I nodded, keeping my eyes on the ground, unable to look up at Edward to see his face. I had to get out of here, I knew, before I gave up my whole act by bursting into tears. That would not be too good. But first I had to do one more thing.
I walked casually up to Mary. Her eyes were full of betrayal and disbelief. I couldn't even believe myself. I tried to hug her one last time, but she shied away from my touch. I held back a sob, but stuck my hand out for her to shake.
She took it, hesitantly, and I slid the note into her hand. Her eyes flashed, showing her shock for a second, but she masked her surprise and took hold of the note. Now it was up to her to read it. I just hoped that she would.
Then I turned around, and walked straight out of the Cullen house, leaving behind many shocked expressions and the love of my life.
I dragged my feet out the door and couldn't hold back any longer. I started dry sobbing. That only aggravated me further. I had just broken the love of my life's heart and I couldn't even cry real tears for him.
Maybe none of this had happened. Maybe I had broken the vampire rules and actually fell asleep. Maybe this was all a dream. But, as someone once told me, I wasn't this creative. It was too real to be a dream, anyway.
I climbed into a red van that had been sent by V for me, speeding away from the impossible, speeding away from my Edward.
I feel so bad for Edward!! Bella, why did you listen to 'V'? ARGG!! Sorry, this chapter is kind of short. I'll try to update soon, but I'll update faster if I get some reviewswink, wink, nudge, nudge
Jaime