Here is note to Alec:
1. I am NOT dead so email me as soon as vampirically possible.
2. Why the HELL did you change my password to fanfiction? It took me a WEEK to figure out what it was! Why didn't you just erase it like you said you would? Whatever. We'll discuss this later.
3. Call me at the number I emailed you. This is an emergency. The Game is not over!!
I'm sorry to everyone else who is has been reading this. It's a very, very long story to how I got to this part. You have no idea how lucky I was to guess my own password because Alec changed it. I'm sorry if people thought I was dead. I came really, really, really close, but luckily I have found such things as lunatic vampires. You'll find out what that means eventually, don't worry. Until then, I'm going to keep writing, mostly out of defiance now. These vampires are really pissing me off (That's right Alec! That includes you!)
But to keep from confusing anymore I'll post what little I have saved. It's good to be back, and as always, its good to be alive. Here was what I wrote before my "death.":
To answer the questions I got for last chapter:
To rumoredreader: The Game mostly targets humans with little contacts for the sake of keeping vampires secret. You don't want to kill someone who has a family member that might want to investigate a suspicious death. Assuming Carlisle is real, even he managed to find a real life coven when he was human. They're not really focused on sparing human's feelings. They're only careful with the victims because the fewer suspicious people, the better.
To Your.Manic.Depressant.Pen (and Masen13): Honestly I don't know much about the book or Stephenie Meyer either. Neither does anyone I've run into. So I wish I could answer your question, but I can't... Also, to answer a previous question: No, I will never post a chapter that says 'Ha ha, this was just a big joke and you all fell for it'. Even if I was lying, I'm not that mean.
To mgirl13: Yeah, I'm not saying all therapists are bad. I've heard that a lot of times you just have to click well with another therapist to really get anything out of a session. This therapist and I did not click well.
To Jacob4eva: Wow, someone finally noticed that I used the name Alec like the one from the Volturi. Actually, that was an accident when I picked that name. I totally forgot about Alec until I reread New Moon and then I was like...Oh oops. To be honest, I just kind of liked that name. Also, yes, Alec and Bree should get together. Hopefully when Alec gets over himself he will and I'm sorry, but there is NO WAY Alec and I are getting together. That would be beyond weird.
To Remember The Darkness: You are Alec's new best friend for agreeing with him. He was very smug about that. However, he does not agree about the werewolves. Also, I don't know how the Volturi has not intervened yet either but I'm glad they haven't.
The next week or so was fantastic. Ever since I started writing in that journal everything was perfect. Of course, I had to sneak away to write in it. Most of the time locking myself in the hotel bathroom or hiding my mini-journal in my lap in the back of the car.
It had been weeks since our last in run-in (there was only the one at this point) and to be quite honest, we were getting a little smug. Alec thought my boasting about how we were the best game players in the history of vampires was amusing and Bree had to bring me down to earth pretty often. I stayed in the back of the car and surfed the web running the laptop's battery down until its last drop of power. Most of that time was spent looking up what books and movies were coming out and to read and write fan fiction.
Alec thought it was silly, but he knew not to criticize my hobbies. A bored Jaylin is not a fun Jaylin. So I continued doing what I was doing. The difference being that I had to write in my journal every so often to keep my sanity in check. Usually I resorted to this when the laptop battery died.
This day was bad because we were already about one hundred and twenty miles from our hotel when Alec from the front seat did his usual checks.
"Jay, did you remember the Twilight books or are we going to have to get new ones again?" he asked dryly. I glanced beside me at the backpack. I unzipped it and did a check.
"Yes," I said. Geez, you forget the books once and all of the sudden he's always got to keep asking about them.
"Good. We'll be easy to find if we leave a trail of those books wherever we go," he said. I rolled my eyes from the safety of being out of his vision. Then my mind went off taking inventory of the packing. Then I realized something horrifying.
The journal.
Dear God, I left the journal back at the hotel. My blood froze in my veins. I had visions of trackers coming just an hour after we left and walking through the bedroom on the tacky carpet. He would see the journal and pick it up, flip through the pages and know everything. Where we've been, places we planned on going, personal histories, weaknesses, our regular stops, story ideas for my fan fictions (on my other account of course, not this one). Things that would easily lead them right to us.
So maybe an uncensored journal wasn't the best idea.
"Um... Bree?" I said hesitantly. She turned around to look at me. "I think I left something at the hotel." She didn't understand my meaning at first. I was trying to be sneaky, hoping that she would see what I was trying to say, since the journal was our little secret. Of course Alec overheard.
"Forget about it. We're too far away."
"Its important," I pressed.
"What do you mean? We don't have anything important," Alec said looking back as Bree looked forward again. My heart sank, predicting this blow up. I took a deep breath.
"I've been keeping a journal," I mumbled in a low volume. The vampires could easily hear me. Bree suddenly swore under her breath and slowed to do a U-turn. Alec still wasn't sure what I was getting at. He turned around in his seat.
"Journal. Where did you get a journal?" I wasn't about to rat Bree out. I wanted to make up some story about how I, a mere human, somehow managed to get away from them for a split second and buy a journal with the money I won from poker. As if to sense the likeliness of my pathetic story, Bree chimed in.
"I gave it to her," she said bravely. Kudos to Bree. She was fearless of Alec. She turned to him with an innocent look as she did a death-defying U-turn that had me clawing to the seats for dear life. The smell of burning rubber went slowly faded but the tension didn't.
"Why the hell did you do that?" Alec said, his words starting to speed up.
"It was recommended by the therapist that you sent her to," she said calmly.
"Has it ever occurred to you that having a record of everything we do might be a predator's dream come true?" he snapped. I sank in the backseat and closed my eyes. I felt horrible.
"Has it ever occurred to you that keeping said human in your custody sane might make things much easier for you? Jaylin has slept a full eight hours three days in a row. You were just talking about how wonderful that was," Bree said. His jaw clenched as he bit back saying something that was probably very nasty.
He was furious enough to rip open the car door as we were well over a hundred miles per hour.
"Alec!" I screamed, but he had already leapt out from the car and started running down the side of the road. Bree sighed as we watched Alec race ahead of us out of the headlights. I groaned and slumped in my seat.
This was by far the STUPIDEST thing I have ever done. As a matter of fact, it still is. I beat my head repeatedly on the window next to me.
"I am so sorry, Bree," I moaned in between thumps on the window.
"It was an accident," she whispered penting up obvious frustration. Her patience was more than I deserved.
"No. I'm really, really sorry. I am forever indebted to you... I... I already owe you my life, but this is too much. I cannot apologize enough," I begged. Bree's eyes flashed in the rearview mirror. Tears welled up in my eyes. I just wanted to melt away and die. Alec was going to be furious with Bree. It was all over a dumb mistake. It was my fault. I got careless forgetting that the Game was completely serious and I should have been paying closer attention.
Bree pulled up to the driveway of the hotel. She parked under the eaves of the building. I was still sulking and embarrassed in the backseat, while she didn't speak to me. I was crying silently, and even though she wasn't acknowledging it I knew she knew.
I wasn't worried about my safety. Normally the only time I'm worried is when presented with danger right in front of me. As soon as Bree braked the car a shadow fell down from some perch beside the car with an earth shattering quake that rattled the car. Through the car window I saw broken concrete in the sidewalk from where Alec had landed from our second story room.
Bree put the car in park and got out of the car, slamming the door behind her. I saw Alec and her walk up to the front. He said one thing. I couldn't hear them in the closed car. As soon as Bree responded, Alec got a troubled look. His face was absolute shock. Bree looked down at the ground and shook her head. Alec started to say something when Bree raised a finger to his lips. He looked stunned at the contact.
She said one more thing and then turned away.
Then she was gone. I turned to see the direction she'd run in, but she was out of sight too quickly. Something was very wrong. Alec was frozen for a brief moment, then he looked at me through the windshield. I would never know what words were exchanged there, but I have a feeling it might have been something personal between them. When Alec regained his bearings, he moved at an incomprehensible speed going to the driver's seat slamming on the gas. By now I knew to be ready to be going full speed down the street at any given time, so there wasn't much whip lash.
When things had calmed and we wound a few side streets we were still quiet.
"Bree won't be returning," he said. My eyes went wide. Immediately I started to panic.
"What? Alec, it was a stupid mistake. Bree was just trying to help me! Don't be mad at her! I left the journal, I screwed up-...!" I said tears pouring down my face. Alec looked in the rearview mirror with a new patience.
"I know. Bree made the decision. She just... needs a break. It's hard enough being cooped up with a human all day. She's going to hang back and try to track our predators. She'll come back eventually," he said. My lip was quivering. I blinked rapidly, trying to shed all the tears that were blocking my vision.
"Your journal wasn't there. There was another vampire's scent in the hotel room, but he's gone. Bree went after him. Did you write down our next location in the journal?" he asked.
I nodded feeling like the idiot I am as I admitted that. He simply gave an acknowledging nod. I hid behind his seat and closed my eyes. I couldn't even hope to go to sleep though. I wanted to just sit in the backseat and sulk some more. However, Alec was feeling generous.
"Jay, come sit up front," he ordered. I sighed, knowing that when he took that tone I could either do it willingly or wait for him to pull over and drag me to the front seat himself. I unbuckled myself and climbed awkwardly over the middle space in between the seats. I settled and put on my seat belt.
I stared at the road, half watching as Alec started to fall into old habits quietly calculating safest routes and glancing in the rearview mirror every five seconds. We really needed Bree. Alec always trusted her to also keep an eye out.
"Alec, I'm really sorry," I finally shattered the silence. He let my apology sink in. I could tell he'd already forgiven me for some reason.
"No. I understand why you did it," he responded. "I wish you hadn't left the journal behind, but I'm glad you found something that made you back to normal." He stared at the road and sighed.
"I'm sorry I chased off your girlfriend," I said lightly. He opened his mouth to deny his feelings for Bree for the millionth time. But he stopped himself.
"You didn't chase her off. Bree has been very good about controlling herself because of her diet. But there are things you don't know about her. Like how she cheated a few times," he said. I was absolutely stunned. Its weird to think that someone in your family was capable of murder. Its even weirder to completely understand and immediately excuse their behavior. I just hoped to God that Alec would not give me any details, like the victims' names. "She's trying very hard, but she's very frustrated with herself. It doesn't help that I'm not very patient with her."
"Or with anyone," I chimed in. He glared at me. "Sorry."
"I lost my temper with her more times than you saw," he said softly. Now I realized that he was feeling just as guilty as I was. It made me feel a little better. Maybe he was lying for my sake, but that doesn't seem like Alec's style.
I watched the stars get brighter as we got farther away from the city, having to resort to an alternate route.
"Boy, do we know how to clear a room or what?" I joked. He smiled a little.
"That we do, my little pawn," he agreed with a sulking sigh.
"Do we know who took my journal?" I asked.
"It's not Nicholas," he said answering my real question. Something about that let me down. Nicholas wasn't even among our top predators anymore. He might have been a good predator, but he doesn't seem to be very good at tracking other vampires.
I kind of hoped that it was Nicholas who took my journal. Not only had I written some things about him that I hope he gets the opportunity to read, but also I know Bree is very talented at mediating and killing cheaters. I know that if it were him who was nearby that she would tear him to shreds.
"Don't worry, Jay. We'll keep you safe," Alec said. His face was unfamiliar with his kind smile. "How long has it been since you've seen any other vampires?"
"I don't doubt you or Bree. I've seen you both in action and I don't think I have anything to worry about. I just feel bad," I told him.
"Bree is going to keep contact with us. She'll call and we'll keep her updated. She's just not going to be traveling with us for a while," he said.
"I guess we're going to go back to leaving me in sunny crowded plazas for hours while you go hunt," I said. Alec groaned internally. He hated doing that about as much as I did. It's one of the most boring things in the world, on top of adding to the paranoia of being left alone. We were quiet in our brooding for a moment, but I have to take care of Alec as much as he needs to take care of me.
"Can I drive?" I blurted. I was baiting him, he knew that. Our arguments were a wonderful distraction. Alec and I both loved going head to head.
"At your human speed? We'll never get anywhere going the speed limit," he said.
"Who ever said I drive the speed limit?" I contested.
"If you drive at vampire speed, then I don't trust your reflexes. I think I'll keep driving. Besides you don't have a license," he said. That was true. He shredded mine in his teeth before we even left my apartment when we first met. We bantered and argued the rest of the night like we used to. We talked about heated topics usually like politics and religion. The most disappointing parts of our conversation were when actually agreed on something and had nothing to fight about.
It wasn't until dawn that I found a real controversy and our playful arguing became serious.
"Hey Alec, what am I supposed to do now that I don't have a journal?" I asked. Alec pressed his lips together in thought. "Can I get another journal?"
"Are you insane?" he laughed with no real humor. "Absolutely not."
"But what am I going to do? The only thing keeping me sane was that journal," I said.
"I said no, Jay."
"What if you kept track of it? I just won't write down locations or anything anymore," I tried to press. He glared at me and held his unblinking stare making me feel uncomfortable. There's nothing that will shut you up faster than a vampire's glare. He only used it when I had stepped over the line.
"If you're going to keep trying to get another journal then I'm going to start using those hours of silence you owe me from poker," he said. I sighed and groaned. So the rule came about that there was no more journals allowed.
However, I never could leave one of Alec's rules unbroken.