AN: Sadly I don't know how long I am going to continue to write, I have lost a lot of readers and I don't understand why. I just started my first year of college three weeks ago and it's been so busy around the dorm. But I'm sure you don't care about that onto the story.

Severus stood there, he was a little shocked that Hermione actually kissed him. He was her Professor she should never have even thought about that. Well actually I'm not really her Professor anymore, but still she shouldn't have thoughts like that. It's not like she means it, she doesn't even know who I am.

Severus shook his head, clearing his thoughts he made his way into his room. Tomorrow was going to be a long enough day as it was, he didn't need to be working on only a few hours of sleep. If it came to that his students would be in trouble, every little thing bothered him when he was tired. Forgoing his shower till the morning he climbed into his bed. Closing his eyes he was asleep.

Hermione woke up feeling a lot better then normal. She was still tired and her stomach felt like it was in knots, but she didn't need to run into the lavatory first thing when she woke up. Hermione smiled to herself as she headed into the bath room, brushing her hair always took so long to do. Her smile quickly faded as she thought back on Halloween. Harry and Ron would already be digging into the endless candy supply in their dorm room, before eating more for breakfast.

Hermione smiled softly to herself. Most of her memories had returned to her and she finally knew who Severus Snape really was. But some how she saw him as someone else at home, someone who deep down really could show compassion. Someone who could relax and actually care about something. She couldn't figure it out what was going on but she really felt like a house wife. Except for the house elves doing everything instead of her. And the fact that she never knew when he was coming home, or what he was doing. That thought made Hermione smile. Me Severus' wife like that would ever happen. He sees me only as his student. And we are not in love, and he doesn't like me at all. He is only doing this because Professor Dumbledore told him to.

Hermione shook her head, she didn't like the thought that she was a burden, her family at one time told her that. Her parents never really excepted the fact that she was a witch and she had special powers.

Hermione sighed as she went back into her bedroom to get dressed. She hated going home. Ever since she started Hogwarts she never felt as if she belonged.

"Hermione I have something for you. Potter thought you would like them. Thought they would be funny." Severus' voice came though the door earning a squeak from the witch inside.

"Thank you Severus I'll be right out, as soon as I get this bloody zipper up" Hermione opened the door, "Could you help me with this, I can't reach very well."

Hermione turned around showing her semi bare back to her ex professor. "Please Severus?"

"This is highly innapporiate Miss Granger." Severus cleared his throat quietly.

"I am no longer a Granger we already went through that. And if we are getting married I don't see why this is lewd."

Severus didn't feel like fighting with her today, he was in a pretty good mood this morning. He grabbed the zipper and started pulling it up her back. He stopped half way and looked at the long rough scars on her back. Before he could help himself his fingers ran over the scar. "How did you get this?"

"It happened at the end of sixth year. I was running away from Remus who forgot to take his potion. Malfoy Sr. got a hold of me." Hermione sighed as Severus ran his finger over her scar again. "I really don't remember all that happened. He kept asking me questions about the order and everything and when I wouldn't tell him an answer he would whip me with something. That's all I really remember, he was very upset that I wouldn't answer him. I think he used a curse or something on my back. When I woke up I was in the infirmary and Madame Pompfrey told me that there was nothing she could do for my back."

"Did you tell him anything. I know you have known the truth about me for years." Severus finished zippering her dress and placed his hands on her shoulders.

"I didn't tell him anything, I didn't even scream" Hermione turned around and looked up at Severus. "It hurt so much, I knew if I opened my mouth even to scream I would have told him everything."

Severus never knew exactly what happened to her. He knew she was injured last spring because she had to take her finals in the infirmary. "I am proud of you Hermione. I know what Malfoy can do and how rough he can be. It took a lot not to tell him anything."

"I have never told anyone but Professor Dumbledore what happened before. Now that I have I feel a lot better, thank you Severus." Hermione leaned into his chest tears running down her face.

"You don't have to be so strong, it's alright to show your feelings or let people know what you are thinking or what you want. It can be annoying if you do it all the time. But in your case it's alright. Keeping it locked up can make you feel worse then actually telling someone. And if you tell anyone I said that I will erase that part of your memory and replace it with stupid information." Severus carefully patted her back . "Lets get something to eat, I don't know about you but I'm hungry and I have to work with idiots all day."

Hermione laughed, "I don't see why you work there if you hate it so much. I am sure that someone with your knowledge could find a great job almost anywhere."

"I could yes, but I get paid really well at Hogwarts and it keeps the Dark Lord off my back. It's a price I am willing to pay to live."

"When this whole thing is over are you still going to stay at Hogwarts or are you going to move on?" Hermione turned to look at Severus, "If you don't like it I don't see why you shouldn't move on to something you like, like making your own potions."

Severus looked down at Hermione, "We will see what happens when that time comes, now come lets eat." Severus began walking to the kitchen he turned to look at Hermione, "Are you coming?"

Hermione nodded and followed Severus, "Would you like me to cook Severus?"

"No I do not, you have been very ill lately I think it would wiser to have the elves cook today. POP" Severus raised his voice when calling for his elf.

Pop is here master, what can Pop do for master?" Pop appeared his eyes wide, "Pop do something unpleasant, Pop will punish himself later for Pop's unpleasantness."

"That will not be necessary I was just making sure you could here me, I would like you to cook a hearty breakfast this morning, Hermione looks to be feeling a little better and I think we should use this time to make sure she gets something in her system before she gets sick again." Severus told his elf, "And if I find out you punished yourself for something I did I will not allow you to do anything in the house for a week is that understood?"

Pop's eyes widened and all he could do was nod. "Since we got that all straightened out Hermione and I will be at the table talking."

"Severus that was rude, you knew that he was going to think he did something wrong when you yelled for him. Why do you have to be so cruel at times?" Hermione asked sitting down at the table, grabbing a tea cup of steaming tea. "So what is the plan today?"

"I have to teach until about four today then I have to go to that horrid dinner and make sure the stupid idiot first years don't eat too much candy. I will be home about seven. We can have tea if you would like, at eight you are going to see the Headmaster while Luscious is here, at about eight thirty Luscious and I will be going to a dark revel. I shouldn't be home any later then midnight, that is when you may tell me about your day." Severus breathed, it was going to be a long day and he knew tomorrow was going to be hell. "Is there anything you want to do while I am away?"

Hermione grabbed a piece of toast that appeared on the table, "Nope, I'll just sit in the library and read until you get back. I am a little nervous about what the Headmaster wants to tell me, for some reason I feel like it's going to be horrid news." Hermione took a bite of the toast, "Why is there something I should do?"

Severus chewed the bit of to toast in his mouth before he answered her, "I want you to start working on your seventh year charms and transfigurations while I am in class. That way when the war is over and you come out of hiding you just have to take your finals so you can graduate." Grabbing another piece of bacon he ate in silence.

Hermione nodded and began on her pancakes, they looked good but she was unsure if she could keep them down. "Alright Severus I will do that, is there anything I can use for my hands on assignments?"

"Ask Pop he will give you everything you need. I have to leave now, I want to be there before the students so it looks like they are late. I will be back later Hermione. And eat your pancakes, if you get sick later you will be glad there is something in your stomach, it will hurt less." Severus picked up his cup and finished his water before he walked into the living room. "And let me know if Pop hurts himself." Severus grabbed his bag and his cloak and walked over to the hearth. "Headmaster's Office" and in a flash of green flames he was gone.

Hermione hurried up and finished her breakfast. Today was the first day in two months that she was able to do actual magic. Finishing her tea she got up and walked into the study where her books were. Sitting down on the floor she began to study.

Severus got home at a quarter to eight in a horrid mood. "Why the bloody hell does the bloody old coot give out so much candy. " Severus spent most of the night making sure the first years weren't too sick and that Poppy had all the right potions incase they were later on. "Hermione, I am sorry we won't get to talk, you have to get ready to leave and I have to get ready to serve company."

Hermione walked into the living room in her cloak and looked a little pale. "It's alright Severus, I'll just leave now so that you have time to get ready, we will talk when you get back tonight."

"Hermione are you still sick, you look really pale." Severus asked taking off his teaching cloak and hanging it up on the cloak rack by the fire place.
"No I don't feel like I am going to be sick, it's just I am nervous and the floo always makes me feel ill even if I am healthy." Hermione looked up at Severus, "I'll see you later and good luck." Walking over to the hearth she stated her destination and was gone.

Hermione landed in the Headmaster's office, her stomach she thought she left back at the house. "It's great to see you Hermione, why don't you come and sit down." The Headmaster called out to her from his desk.

Getting up off the floor she made her way to the couch in front of the Headmaster's desk. "It's good to see you too Headmaster." Hermione sat down and closed her eyes for a moment.

"How is life at Severus' been? I know he's not the nicest but I'm sure you two are getting along alright, correct?" Dumbledore snapped his fingers, tea and snacks appeared in front of Hermione. "Also how is your memory coming along?"

"I remember everything now Headmaster, I just don't want to tell Professor. I don't want him to change when we are at home, he seems more relaxed." Hermione took a cookie and began to eat it, "What was it you wanted to tell me Headmaster." Hermione said between bites.

"It's kind of hard to tell you this Hermione." The Headmaster began.

"Headmaster there must be some mistake there is no way."

"We are never wrong Ms. Granger. I know this is a huge deal but you have to trust us on this."

"Trust you on this? I was told that Hogwarts was the safest place for me and I was raped by someone who we don't even know how he got into the castle. And you want me to trust you?" Tears were running down Hermione's face. "My life will never be the same again Professor, and you want me to trust you."

"You can still have a normal life after this is through I promise you." Dumbledore retrieved a handkerchief from his pocket, "It's clean, I don't see how this will change your life that much."

"My father thinks I'm dead, when this is all over what am I supposed to tell him? ' Oh I faked my own death after I was raped because someone out there is trying to kill me, oh wait there's more." Hermione blew her nose, "He already hates the fact that I'm a witch what do you think he is going to say when I tell him this?"

"I can't tell you what your father is going to tell you or say but your life will be normal" Dumbledore smiled, "I wouldn't lie to you Hermione. I promise nothing is going to change."

"Bullshit, I'm sorry Headmaster but I don't believe you" Hermione go up from the couch and walked over to the fireplace. "Have a Happy Halloween Headmaster I will see you later." She yelled into the fireplace and was gone.

Dumbledore smiled, the conversation went better then he thought. Laughing to himself he thought how Severus was going to take the news.

Severus returned home after midnight, tomorrow was going to be hell. He still had to talk to Hermione and shower before he could go to bed. As he walked though the house he heard crying. What the hell is wrong with her this time? I don't need this right now. Walking into the study he saw Hermione in the corner curled up into a ball. "Hermione, you should know better then anyone else that a study is not used for a place to cry. Get up, there is nothing that can be that bad that you would have to cry about."

"Severus you don't understand do you." Hermione turned and looked at him. "I will never forget the pain, the torture, the memories." Hermione wiped her nose on her sleeve. "Everyday I will live with that pain."

"He will be in Azkaban in a few months, maybe a year. After that yes you will remember everything that happened, but you will be safe and there is nothing he can do about it now." Severus told her frowning at her for wiping her nose on her sleeve. He pulled out his handkerchief and handed to her. "Stop wiping your nose on your sleeve your not five anymore."

Hermione took the handkerchief and wiped her nose again, "Yes he will Severus, that ma will be in my life until I die."

Severus looked at Hermione he was puzzled, how was this man going to be in her life. "Hermione what did Albus tell you today?"

"He told me" Hermione took a deep breath. "He told me, I was pregnant Severus."