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Kouga

He didn't understand how one moment could ruin three months of happiness. But it had happened and he could only blame himself for it. To be completely honest it hadn't been only one moment he had spent two weeks five days and some odd hours barely sparing a glance her way and that coupled with the moment had completely obliterated any happy moment we shared.

The worst part about it was he couldn't come up with a defense. He had been cruel and he had willingly tried to hurt the one person he should've cherished amongst all others. Instead of taking care of her as was his due he'd chalked up her injuries to mere scratches compared to the gashes that had marred Kagomes once beautiful skin and had proceeded to show the woman he loved that he didn't care for her.

God, he would never forget the look on her face the last time they had talked. He'd only gone to Kagome because he felt guilty, after all she had almost lost her life trying to save his packs home. Needless to say the mutt hadn't been happy but his concern for HIS mate had overshadowed any resentment. He hadn't meant to neglect her but he had and even though he felt it was his duty to keep watching over Kagome he should've told Ayame it was only that.

A few days after their fight and with a sick feeling in the pit of his stomach he went to their den, only to find it empty. Somehow it felt devoid of warmth,of life, as if something vital was missing. That's when he noticed it. Ayames scent lingered but it was so weak he could tell she hadn't been in the cave for at least a couple of days. Somehow he knew she had left him and the fury that realization caused in him was so strong even Naraku at his strongest wouldn't have fared well against him.

He'd ranted and raved and snarled at whoever had the misfortune of coming into contact with him until Kagome, almost completely recovered, had sought him out.

FlashbackYes I know another flashback...bear with me it's necessary...

"Kouga. What's wrong? Why are you so angry?" said the miko as she sat across from him.

"Ayame."He snarled.

"Oh well you can't be too angry at her I'm sure the good news would make anything seem dumb compared to that." She said with a smile on her face.

" What good news, Kago..." He managed to say , before being interrupted by Kagome.

" I mean knowing you're going to be a father should considerably lessen your bad temper."

"..."

" Huh, Kouga don't you agree with me?" She said before she realized the sudden pallor and look of horror currently gracing her companions features.

End of Flashback

He hadn't been able to answer Kagome or anyone else for that matter for quite sometime. It was as if his mind had stopped working after hearing the word "father" in fact it had repeated itself in his mind more than a hundred times and suddenly he knew what she had wanted to tell him.

"I was hurt too, Kouga." She had said and he hadn't believed it was serious.

Only to find out her injuries had been far more severe than Kagomes. She had lost the pups and he had turned her away when she had needed him to console her. He had even gone so far as to blame her for her injuries.

He had failed her and hurt her in the worst possible way. He deserved to burn in hell for eternity for what he had done to her only a miracle could bring her back to him and he was quite sure his quota of miracles had run out on him when he escaped the last battle against Naraku with his life.

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