I see the answers in my head and I forget that you guys still don't understand. Sorry. And the girl voice at the end was actually Rosalie, and the motherly voice was Esme. It would have been Alice but I didn't think Alice would say, 'is she going to be al right?' you know... cuz she's physic. And I'm afraid it's going to be a little fanfictiony if you know what I mean. But stay with me here. Ok here we go.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything... except Isaac. I totally own Isaac. Isaac is all mine.

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"Hello?" I looked around uncertain of my bearings. I had a feeling that someone was here. It was dark and creepy. There was this eerie... something, like a gut feeling.

I turned around a corner. A shadow crossed over my face and I screamed as somebody smothered me. "AHHHHHHH" I screamed bloody murder. But the body pressed against me felt familiar.

"Ow! That hurt." Isaac let go of his grasp on me and rubbed his ears. "Ha-ha, gotcha Izzy. I got you good. And you said I couldn't scare you." He continued to laugh at me.

"That wasn't funny." I said tersely. "You almost made me pee in my pants." But that didn't help my case. Isaac just laughed louder.

I crossed my arms and tried to ignore his contagious laughter. It was pretty funny thinking about it now. But I was determined to remain annoyed.

He looked up at me sobering up from his humor. "I'm sorry Izzy. But I couldn't resist. You looked so paranoid. And I was a bit offended when you said I couldn't scare you..." Isaac put on a pleading face. "Forgive me?"

How could I not? "UGH! Fine." I pouted. "But your buying dinner tonight. I don't feel like making lasagna anymore."

"Oh... pogo-pox. I was really hoping for your famous lazgna..." He seemed very disappointed.

"Ha! That little stunt you pulled lost you your favorite dinner!" I smiled triumphantly.

Isaac shrugged. "Eh, you said I'm buying... so I'll just buy lasagna." He smirked as he took my arm and led me to his motorcycle.

"But it still isn't the same." I murmured as we drove off towards his house...

It's still not the same. Not the same. Not the same.

"Not the same." I whispered out loud making me come out of my dream. Well I more like forced me to. I didn't want to go on. It would make waking up so much harder.

"Bella. Are you awake?" I heard my father's voice somewhere in the room.

I just nodded my head. I felt so lazy... so exusted. "What... what happened." I seriously couldn't remember why I was on the couch and feeling so crumby.

"Well, at lunch yesterday... you, you kind of..." Charlie left off, wondering how to continue.

"Don't tell me." I sighed. "I had another episode of memory loss." The look on Charlie confirmed this.

[AN: I know this probably doesn't fit in realistically but... this is fan fiction... and actually something did set it off.

"What do you mean by 'another'. Has this happened before?" Charlie asked.

"Uh... yeah, this is the... the fourth time it's happened. I thought I had gotten over it... I guess not." I shrugged and sat up. The crappy feeling was dissolving. I had had memory lapses back in Phoenix... and they all took me back to the same night...

Charlie just looked at his coffee. He seemed like he wanted to ask something. I'd been through this before so I knew the words I had probably screamed.

A thought occurred to me and before Charlie could ask his question, "Hey dad? What's today? Can I still go back to school?" I wanted to go back and dispel the probable rumors running around right now. I had to end them quickly before they got out of hand.

"Um, I'm not sure if that's such a good idea. I think you should probably rest." Charlie looked like he really didn't know what was best for me but thought it was a win, win if I stayed home today.

"Oh I'll be fine dad. It's happened before so I know that I'll be fine. I just want to... to ask them something." I got up off the couch and checked the time. 7:03

I still had time.

Charlie didn't argue and went off to work after he saw that I was fine on my own.

It was raining as usual so I put on my big raincoat to hide under. This made going through the day a lot easier. I didn't have to deal with all the stares if I hid.

Jessica was waiting for me once Mr. Varner's class was over.

"Hey..." I said weakly as I walked over to her. I knew I had to do this sooner or later. I was preparing myself all morning. I had been working on my lying skills.

"Are you okay Bella? I mean... you're back to normal right?" Jess looked uncomfortable.

I laughed darkly. "Yea, I'm back to... normal." The word sounded strange. "Are you al right though? I know I must have really freaked everybody out." We were entering the cafeteria and I didn't feel like eating anything so I just walked and talked with Jessica over to the table everyone was already sitting at.

"Yea, I'm fine. But it was still kind of... scary." We sat down with the others. Their faces turned to me trying to catch up on the conversation.

"I'm so sorry you guys had to see me like that. Remember when I said I had a bit of memory loss because of all the concussions..." I was looking at Mike now. He nodded. "Well, that's what happens... well that's some part of it." I sighed watching everyone's faces. They all looked freaked out.

"Let me guess," This is where the lying came in. I wanted to beat the questions to the punch. "I was yelling someone's name like, Mary or Joe." I smiled shyly at them. "Oh what a lie. I'll be lucky if they buy this." - You'll be lucky if you get through the day without having a breakdown. - "That really helps."

"No. You where looking for Isaac." Mike said looking at the table.

"Oh, that's a new one." Lie. "Usually I'm looking for Joe... though once it was Mary." I shrugged trying to blow the lie over. "I have no clue who they are." Okay, that wasn't a lie. "I don't know who... who... Isaac is either." My facade almost vanished when I said his name but I pulled off as if I was trying to remember whose name that it was.

"Huh, that's weird. You seemed really... possessive of him... or something." Mike stated.

I winced when he said the name. This was not something I was comfortable with. Talking to these people like he never existed, and they, just the same, blow him over as imaginary. It wasn't right. It wasn't respectful. But after all this time...

"I have no idea who Isaac is." I said monotone, clenching my fists and fighting my eyes. "Just get through this. Just get through this." - Your doing fine. But you might want to let go of your soda. -

I looked over and found my can completely crushed with the force of my hand.

"Whoops." I said as the sticky liquid flowed over my hand. "I better clean this up."

I left the table heading over to get some paper-towels.

- You should have been more careful. The new moon is coming up close and you... you just should have known better than to be squeezing your hands on something. They are probably all thinking- - "I don't care what their thinking. I had to do something or else I thought I would bust. It's so hard keeping this in. I hate not telling anybody. He deserves better than this." - It looks like you'll have you chance. - "What?" - You'll have your chance to tell someone... Edward. - I looked over at the Cullen table and saw that he was looking inconspicuously at me. I breathed a sigh of relief. Just looking at him made me feel so much better.

I came back to the table and cleaned up the mess I had made. I smiled shyly at everyone as they talked of silly school things. I was glad they were okay now. I can't imagine what they must have thought...

"Hey, you guys wouldn't mind if I headed to class now right? I don't really feel good right now."

They all nodded.

- You do realize you won't be able to stop yourself right? - I was warning myself. "I don't care anymore. I just don't care." - Good. You need this. -

I sat in my chair and just stared at the wall losing myself in my thoughts and memories.

The chair moved slightly and I knew that Edward was there.

"Bella." He said so... smoothly. Stupid vampires and their perfectness. While I'm a botched-up excuse for a human.

I moved my head slowly to look at him. He looked so... genuinely concerned. "Yea?"

"Are you okay?" Edward pulled a strand of hair out of my eyes.

"Yea, I'm fine now." I smiled at him. "I'm fine now that you're here." I whispered in my head.

He looked at the table embarrassed. "You scared me for awhile. I... I... didn't know what to do. I felt so useless. You just started freaking out and then you passed out..." He shook his head. "I was there with you at the hospital. You never fully awakened but Carlisle said you could go home anyway. I was going out of my mind. You really scared me. Jasper had to..." He shook his head. "Well, your here now."

I remained silent. He turned to me suddenly. "I have to know. It's killing me." He took a deep breath and calmed himself and then spoke so softly, "Who's Isaac?" He knew that I would tell him the truth as well as I did.

I kept staring at the wall as I stated talking.

"I've known him all my life. Well, since I was a almost two years old." I matched his soft voice, barley rising above a whisper. "He... he was my brother."

I heard Edward sigh in relief and gasp at the same time. It almost made me smile.

"How... how's that..."

"When my mom left Forks... she found out in Phoenix that she was pregnant again. She didn't want to tell anyone. Especially Charlie and all her friends up here. I don't know what she was thinking but we all became accustomed to it. It was truly like we were starting a new life when Isaac was born." I looked at my hands. "He was my best-friend. We had a relationship stronger than twins do. I trusted him with... everything. There was nothing he didn't know about me and vise-versa. We were always together. Never separated. We didn't even have that many friends because all we needed was each other. We didn't want anybody else. We were fine just the two of us. He... he was just always there for me. He was my wall and I was his. Oh gosh I miss him!" I shook my head. I was still numb so tears weren't coming...yet. "Even though he was my brother we had this strange connection... like he completed me. I still can't explain what it is. I loved him to death. It. I still can't explain." I looked at Edward's silky eyes letting him know that I was done.

"What happened to him?" Edward asked carefully.

"He died. Of course, he died. He was everything... and. and it was my entire fault! It was all my fault." I was getting a bit hysterical now. I met Edward's confused and concerned eyes and went on to explain. "He was protecting me. He was trying to save me, which he did, but he was killed doing it. Why? Why did he do that? Oh, he shouldn't have. Why?" I was sobbing now.

"I think I understand completely." Edward's velvety voice whispered.

I looked at him and smiled and cried at the same time. "I know. I know you probably do. That's how I can make you understand. That's why it's hard for me to keep things for you. Is. is you remind me so much of him. That's why I trust you so much. And even though I know it's a really bad idea. But I have no choice. My fate... I was supposed to be with you... and in order to do that, fate got rid of my... brother. But Oh Edward. Can't you understand? I loved him more than anything... I don't know how I've been able to go on for so long. I guess that's just how I cope with it. I just ignore him. Like he never existed. And that's horrible. He deserves better than that. I can't forget him but I'm terrified to remember him. It would make me go insane. But I guess... I guess that's why I have you. I trust you. And I need you. I was foolish... for trying to change things. But I thought... that Isaac..." I was crying streams now and Edward's face contorted to match my pain. He placed his hands on my check and his forehead on mine, leaning in.

"Bella." I felt his cold breath tingle every sense I had. "I can't help but love you too. Please, don't try and forget Isaac. He was a part of your life... he was your life. Don't try and hold it back. At least with me."

I smiled. " Our little secret."

"Yeah. Our little secret." He caressed his thumbs on my burning red checks, wiping the tears away. A smile grew on his heavenly face and I placed my hands on his wrists keeping them there.

"And. I feel the exact same way your brother probably did. Except... a bit different." He breathed. I was about to say the same thing. It's to weird to understand.

I felt nothing but joy as we sat there relishing in each other's touch. It was idyll. The only thing that would have made it better was if, for one, he loved me the way I love him (I wanted to be more than friends with Edward, more intimate) and two... if there was no secret between us. If he knew that I knew what he was and he knew what happened to me in Phoenix. But even then this moment was still amazing. But moments only last... a moment.

The door banged open and people started filing into the classroom. We straightened up so fast it was as if we had just had a full-blown make-out session and were caught by our parents. I giggled a little and smiled brilliantly at Edward and he returned the smile ten times better.

I was beginning to believe he liked me the way I loved him... but I thought better than that. I'm just a human to him.

He held my hand through the hour rubbing soothing circles helping me calm down and stay that way. But every time I thought of who was holding my hand exited me and drove me even crazier.

I could get used to this. I think Isaac would approve. He would want me to move on. But not the way I had been doing it. I'll remember him, but it will be sweet memories only, and I'll share them with Edward. I wanted to share some stories with him. Or at least just talk about him. Talk about Isaac. It was a thought that I forced out of my mind for five months. But now I was excited of the prospect to talk about Isaac with Edward. I was excited to spend more time with Edward. That was dangerous... but I don't care. If I die because my scent was too appealing, I wouldn't care. I was supposed to do this. The only thing I was nervous was... what he thought about me and. that I knew what he was. How would he react? How would his family react?

I didn't try to worry about that. That would come on it's own due time. Right now I was just enjoying being happy. Being somewhat free from a prison I created myself... well along with my mother.

"Did you get that?" Edward spoke to me, an amused smile gracing his lips.

"Wh-what?" I stammered coming out of my thought-box.

Edward chuckled. "I figured you weren't listening." Gosh he's dazzling. I found myself ogling.

"What, what did I miss?" I couldn't find my breath.

"We're supposed to be doing a project together." Edward said coolly while he was gathering my books.

I gulped. "What type of project?" I asked while watching a vampire carry my books for me. Maybe he does like me.

"We just have to make a model of a plant cell." He shrugged.

"Would one of us have to go to the other's house?" I was reeling trying to imagine Edward in my living room and not seeing it at all.

"Yes, I suppose." He looked at me was a funny expression. "You really didn't hear him did you?"

"No, I get sort of lost in my thoughts sometimes." I blushed.

He had a perplexed look and said, "Well anyway, I suggest we go to your house." We started towards my gym.

Hmm... my house. That's not good. Nope, that can't happen. "Uh... if you wouldn't mind, I would rather do it at your house." I looked at him trying to convey how much I didn't really want him over at my place. Not yet anyway. This way he would have a motive to let me go back home. As much as I didn't care that he was a vampire there was still a little fear... just a little.

Edward sighed. "Al right. My house. How about you come over tonight?"

"Really? I don't know. I don't want to put your family out. It's kind of short notice."

"I'll pick you up at five." He smiled showing me that it wasn't a problem.

"Well, al right." I grinned.

"Great. What are friends for anyway?" He smirked and glided away, leaving me at the entrance to gym. Ick. Gym.

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