I still don't own the JAG people. Here is the rest of the story. Have you figured out who the man was yet?

The Many Meanings of Never

The feel of Mac this close after months of not having her there was doing the same thing to him that it was to her. Harm took one last breath and kissed Mac lightly on the lips. "Thats the other part Mac I couldn't let any one hurt you but I couldn't hurt you any more. I had come to tell you that I was going to go away and didnt know if I would be back. I wanted to see if you wanted me to come back. I had even thought that I might get Webbs help if you never wanted to see me after that. "

Mac had sat there with a shocked look on her face. Had she and Harm drifted that far apart that he didn't know how much she loved him? "Harm there was a time that I would have said I never wanted to see you again. But that was when I didn't know what you meant to me. All I saw was the hurt and pain that I had gone through. I had not thought about what you had done for me. Harm, I would have to say if we redid that whole time down there. I would not change anything. Now before you jump to a wrong reason it was not the reason you think. When I told you never it came out so easy. Like it was meant to be said. Later on I relized that the reason that I had said never to you is because of a different reason."

Mac was on a roll and Harm didn't want to stop her, but he had to know why she had said never. "Mac why did you say never?" Harm was sencere if never was what she wanted then thats what he would give her. "Harm it was easier for me to tell you that we would never work then for me to curse you with my life. I have never felt like any one would want me. Then you show up and take me just like I am no questions asked. Do you know how much that meant to me?" Mac looked at Harms face to see if he was understanding what she was saying. From the look she saw Harm was understanding her.

"I will tell you it meant the world to me. I was not going to let you get to me. But I found out to late your had my heart long before I wanted to admit it. You don't have to understand why I said never Harm you just have to know that after I said it things started to pan out in my mind. I could not longer hide my love for you behind the idea of being best friends. Does that make sense?"

Harm was waiting on Macs answer but never thinking that it could be the one that she had just given him. Harm started to do a little shy laugh. This cought Mac off guard. "Why are you laughing at me Harm?" Harm clamed down fast.

"I am not laughing at you Mac just that you and I felt the same way. We were just to stubburn to admit it to each other. When you told me never I could not understand how you could just slap me in the face like that." Mac started to say something ,but Harm put his finger on her lips. "Mac I needed a good kick in the head to understand what you needed. It turns out that I didn't need that manual that I asked you for." This made Mac laugh as well.

Harm reached over and gave Mac a kiss on her lips.Mac took a hold of Harms head and kissed him back. The nurse at the desk saw that Harms heart rate was up. Not knowing why she went to check on him finding the man in the bed and the woman that had been with him for the last 24 hours kissing made the nurse happy.

I wish I could wake up and find that the man that I love, loves me the same way these two love each other the nurse thought. "I hate to stop you from what I can only assume is along time coming but for at least the next 24 hours Mr. Rabb you and Miss-- "Mac" Harm said for the nurse. Well you and Mac need to let us know in advance that you are going to get your heart rate up. That way we don't come rushing in here again." The nurse was sencere but could not keep the happy smile off her face as she had told them that.

Harm and Mac just look at each other then back to the nurse "I promse to try to never hurt this man again. If that means that he has to wait tell he's better so that his heart wont suffer then so be it." the nurse just laughed at them and walked out of the room.

"Mac what happened to... " Mac had forgot that she had not told Harm yet. "He's dead Harm. It was you or him you had no choice. " Harm wondered how hard things would now be on Mac. "Mac there is always a choice its just sometimes the only choice that we have is to kill or be killed. I may have never liked the man. I may have never thought that he was good enough for you but I never wanted to see him dead becuse of a choice that I made. "

Mac was beginning to see how hard this was going to be for Harm as well as herself. Mac had known that Harm could kill she had seen him do it before. Mac had never seen him kill because of the reason he did this time. "Harm, Mic took that choice away from you. As you said sometimes the only choice you have is to kill or be killed. I don't hate you for killing him Harm. I was going to do it if you hadn't. Why would I hate you for something I was willing to do."

Hearing Mac tell him that she didn't blame him for Mic's death was helping Harm some ,but the feeling that came with taking some one else live was still there. That feeling that you wished there had been another way for things to have played out. Harm knew that the feeling of guilt for taking Mic's life would never go away. In time he would be able to live with it. If Harm could have Mac's help with dealing with this then all the better.

Mac was sitting there with Harm almost laying on him but that is not the point Mac thought to her self. The guilt that Harm feels is strong right now but in time it will go away. If he will let me be there for him then thats something I would love to do. Mac was so deep in thought that she didn't see Harm looking at her. When she did look up to Harm's face his eyes were looking at her in the way that made her world stop and then start spinning out of control. I wonder if this is what a tail spin would feel like in a plane Mac thought to herself.

Harm leaned over to Mac and looked in her eyes."Mac, I was just thinking. How much has come out between us because of one word and one man." Mac stoped to think about what he was saying. "I may not have ever liked Mic. I would have to thank him for pushing me towards where I really wanted to be. Last night I had a strong feeling of needing to talk to you and not being able to wait till tomorrow. I had no idea that he was there. I don't know how he knew that I would be there but he did."

Mac then looked at Harm in the eyes and asked" and the word?" already having a pretty good idea of what it was but wanting to know anyway. Harm was ready to tell her but wanted to show her how much he loved her first. Kissing Mac, Harm let all his fears go. "The word has a new meaning for me Mac. That is if you will let it. " Mac shook her head as a yes.

Harm went on"Mac, I will no longer have to worry about you (Never) knowing how much I love you. " Mac was crying again. "Harm the word also means something more to me. I will (Never) have to doubt your feeling for me again. Just like I hope to (Never) go another night out of your arms or another day of (Never) being let in your life." Harm took Mac in his arms and told her "Its (Never) going to be a problem Mac I can never let you go again. " Harm held Mac for the rest of the time he was there until he went home. Once they were at home Harm and Mac lived up to what they said in the hospital they never let the other out of there hearts until the day they died. Even then some say that they were never apart.

The End

Please let me know what you think. Thank you for reading my work. I didn't know till almsot the end who the man that held Mac was. Did any one figuer it out before they read it?