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I am so happy about all the reviews I got for the last chapter! I feel so special! Haha.
One reviewer (it was an anon reviewer, so I didn't have a link or anything, but you know who you are!!) said I should do a chapter in ALL Alex's POV. I liked the idea SOO much, that I did it!! I will put it up at the very end as a bonus chapter. Both my friends loved it, and I enjoyed writing it so much!! Thank you so much for that awesome idea!!
Okay, so we're nearing the end of the story (you'll see), and I'm trying to write the sequal, but its getting hard, cause I have so many ideas and I don't know how to even it out. I'm trying though, so thanks in advance for your patience!!
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Chapter 19
((3 months later))
It was late December when my life really started to go downhill. Everything had been going great. Brad and I had gone serious, Alex was back to his normal, happy self, and I hadn't thought about Troy in months. I finally started to feel like my own self but then, things started changing. Troy seemed to start penetrate my mind again, intruding on my thoughts. It had started off a little bit but by the middle of December it had manifested itself into me thinking about him just as I had before I met Brad. I tried to remind myself to just let fate take its course, and that if Troy and I really were meant to be, than Brad wouldn't have come in the picture. I…I loved Brad. I couldn't remember a person in a long time I loved as much as Brad. But also, I believe that the fact we started to say 'I love you' brought my mind back to Troy. The only person I had ever said I loved you to like Brad was Troy, and I wasn't sure if I had gotten scared or if that little phrase had reminded myself at how much I truly liked Troy.
I also started to get crankier again, but it didn't help the way people were looking at me. Taylor started looking at me again like I was a charity case, like she felt bad for me. I know she only did it when she thought I wasn't looking, but c'mon, I'm not stupid. Did anyone think I liked feeling the way I was? I had tried so hard to get out of that ditch that I had fallen into again, but everything had started happening again: the headaches, the achey feeling in my chest, the urge to cry myself to sleep at night, I had even started to have nightmares.
What was I supposed to do?! I desperately loved Brad, more than anything. But the more I thought about him, the more I only thought of him as a brother or a friend. Okay, no, not a friend. More than a friend. A brother seemed like a better description of how I was feeling. How was I supposed to tell Brad that, though? I had absolutely no one to talk to, not even Taylor. I couldn't, because I was so sick of her looks when she only knew half the story. She always thought she knew the entire story, when she didn't. No one did.
However, out of everything that was going on in my life that was annoying me at that time, the thing that annoyed me the most was the feelings I had for Troy. I'm not talking about the physically hurting that I experienced, but I mean the actual emotional pain. I remembered looking in on myself when I had first met Brad, and I remembered thinking how dumb it was that I cared so much about Troy. Now that I was starting to remember the complex feelings I had for Troy, they didn't seem so dumb. In fact, I was livid with myself for even thinking my feelings were dumb. I had started to go back and forth in my head again, trying to decide whether or not I liked him. It was more obvious this time, probably because I had just experienced what I thought was love.
The truth was: I loved Troy Bolton. I didn't mean High School couples that broke up seven times during one school year, I meant love. When I pictured my future and I thought about my husband and kids and my house, I pictured that with Troy. I wanted to be Mrs. Troy Bolton. I wanted that more than anything. It was time that I faced this disaster (No matter how beautiful it was) like a grownup and stopped trying to run away from my feelings, or going back on them the next day. I loved Troy Bolton, and no one else. And nothing was going to change that. Ever.
((Brad's POV))
Gabriella Anne Montez. Wow…she was…amazing. She was easy to talk to, smart, kind, and stunning, there was no denying that. However, through all my different feelings for her, she didn't compare to her. Not to be rude to Gabriella. She's an amazing girl.
I don't think it was the fact that she was prettier or smarter or kinder than Gabriella. It was just that when I thought of Gabriella, I didn't feel the same feelings I felt for her. I felt like a horrible person that I had unintentionally led Gabriella on, because when I met her that was the last thing I had intended to do.
Gabi was so sweet, and she looked hurt when we first met. I didn't know who or what had happened that made her so miserable, but even Taylor wouldn't tell me when I asked repeatedly. I knew I couldn't ask Gabriella, though, because if it caused her that much pain, I knew the last thing she would want to would be to revisit.
But then she came into my life. I had never seen anything like her. She had exotic beauty I had never been exposed to. The hardest part, and probably the most exhilarating part about her was the fact that she seemed so oblivious to the power she had over most men. She was so pure and innocent that it was unbelievable. It wasn't an act either, she was completely sweet and I realized then that she really had no idea of her beauty or the spell she carried with her. She was actually incredibly insecure with herself, but she seemed to open up to me.
'Just friends. That's all we would be.' I remember promising myself as I had begun talking with her. I would refuse to fall for the spell she was unintentionally casting on me as I talked with her. That had worked for about a month. She and I had become close as I learned more about her and vise versa. That proved to be dangerous as I began to be more excited when she called, or starting to care how I looked when she came over.
Then…something happened. It shouldn't have, I know, but I couldn't help myself. She had unintentionally worn something that had driven me insane. I couldn't help but lose the control I had tried so hard to gain over the month I had known her. I kissed her. I couldn't help it, I caught up in the moment and I had kissed her. The horrible thing was…I didn't regret it.
Kissing her was one of the best experiences I had ever had. It was nothing I ever felt when I kissed Gabriella, thought I'd tried to. I tried to kiss Gabi like I kissed her, but it was never anything close. My feelings for her were way deeper than my feelings for Gabriella, no matter what I wanted. The truth was, Gabriella was a great girl. But she wasn't The One, like I thought at first. She was like my little sister, I felt protective of her, and loved her, but not like a boyfriend.
I knew I had to break it to Gabriella before it was too late and I let my feelings get out of control again. I had no idea how I was going to tell Gabriella that I was breaking up with her because of another woman, but I had too. I knew I was going to hurt her, I just hoped I didn't hurt her like whoever had hurt her in the first place. I just hoped Gabriella didn't hate me. I don't think I could handle that from such a sweet girl.
Man, what a beautiful disaster this was turning into.
Please don't hate me!! Understand that I had to do this in order for Troy and Gabriella to get together!! I hope you guys understand and don't hate me or Brad. Cause I like Brad. :D
Please R&R!! The next chapters are SOOOOOOOOOOOO interesting!